skinny bamboo 8)

Singapore Youth Festival/Compeition

2009-05-07T04:15:00.000-07:00

Firstly, SYF'S over. Never did it occur to me the time on stage would pass that fast. When we left the stage walking down the stairs, chatting intermittenly about our playing, i felt i was still left hanging in the atmosphere of Overture 2 and Pictures. omg everything's over. But not really on a very satisfactory note. Before i launch into details, i seriously truly strongly agree that Vjcsb put up an incerdible performance, transcendental one. We have left a legacy for attempting such an avante garde piece of band music that no singapore school bands have ever tried. And it was an amazing feat that we played it so well on stage today, when we once thought it was totally impossible when we first got hold of our music score. Our hard work we put in the past 4 months have no gone to waste despite the unsatisfactory result. (can you believe it? we only started practising it in end of january). I think the audience are swept off their feet by our cool (weird, unique) music :D Its pretty fun. Hmm although i think we've played better on some rehearsals, but nevertheless i think we still did very well. Those rehearsals were 120% and today was 110% (: Anyway, if there is any one out there who thinks that we lost our GWH due to change of conductor, i must say YOU ARE TERRIBLY HORRIBLY VEGETABLY WRONG. Cause Dr Goh is a fantastic conductor (although he's different from mr tan) with ultimate great taste in music . He is daring and adventurous, attempting songs that seldom or never appear in Singapore's band history. I think our band have grown and matured in our sense of musicality and appreciation of band music, not just the normal lyrical and rhythmic bandmusic. And this, i guess, is truly what being a musician is all about (: Well, thats my take on today's performance.

When i came home, i immediately went to sg band fusion forum to check for any band gossips on today's results.. but sadly, not much excitng things going on.. sad. BUT i saw this comment by some guy named tarouy28 and im really appreciative and grateful for accepting our avante garde music.

"MY choice was VJC and only one band.
Overture was well controlled with natural and reasonable interpretation.
choice piece was most avangard music of the whole SYF i guess and they managed to play really well.

and rest are not really MY favour..........

band standard in Singapore has been improved very much compared to our time.
but sadly to say, more bands are just concern of the tone, and intonation for the sake of competition,
and it was true that such bands awarded better, especialy in secondary schools' SYF.
I hope to see more daring conductor for next SYF."

(: (: (: Happy to hear the compliments for our playing.

As many should know, the top 3 GWH bands of 2007 have all dropped to gold. Those 3 bands include us, Vjcsb. But im assured that this year's judging is simply wayward. And i believe a few bands deserved more than what they are being awarded. And perhaps some didnt deserve that much. While standing at the back stage in our 4 lines, i was listening and totally immersed into Saint Andrew's El camino Real. Partly because it brought back fond memories of my first SYF in 2005 which stnicks clinched their first gold after 13 years of silver. And majorly, the band really played professionally. Started hearing from the slow part of oboe solo. I must say they played every note with care and grace. And every entrance of instruments was clear and crisp with no inbetween sounds/notes. It was gentle and soothing and played with much emotions (thats what i felt standing in back stage hearing them, can hear very clearly okay!) The horns played the few horn parts really nicely. From where i stood, they sounded really really good. I was actually fingering the notes with elton and singing different parts along with the band (: Kinda help soothe the tense feeling gushing down my body.

When it was our turn to get up, i think we really played and sounded like one band, one entity. IT's a great feeling knowing and feeling everyone's determination to put up a good performance that would wow the audience( yes i think we did) and judges( i think they suck) =P. And i think we did REALLY REALLY WELL (: i enjoyed windscapes the most most most. :D love it. And the song has totally grown on me.

Results were really shocking. When they announced Saint Andrew's results, everyone was practically stunned. There was a pause of 2 -3 seconds. And i think sa band didnt clap. When it was our results, we were stunned too.
Totally flabbergasted. What was much more unpredictable was "Band no.16 Anderson Symphonice Band, GolD with honours". Seriously, most of the students from other schools just stood rooted and stared at them.We were badly shcoked. well, some of us cried upon hearing the results (im one of them =X). I think Sajc felt worse than us cause they were kinda inofficially known as the top band in Singapore. And they have gotten GWH since it was ever established. Im not saying that just becauuse of their past records, they should got GWH, but they really do derserve it. I believe many of the audience would agree much with me too. And i believe very very strongly that vjcsb and sajc did a very fantastic job today. OH and this year, there are only 2 Gwh bands who are both under the same conductor, Elvin.

Well, i was pretty much agitated and indignant over the results, not over the gold, but over the results. In any case, Vjcsb and Sajc are still the best bands in singapore in my opinion and that Vjcsb has always been a gold with honours band like what Dr Goh and Gabriel told us. Then again, this Festival/competition is not accurate in determining our musical ability as it is ever so subjective and dependent on judges weird criteria and the oh-so-yucky acoustics of the venue. Lets re-judge again on presentation night. On a lighter note, im wondering who will be the 3 bands to perform at presentation night.

Aside from all the music aspects, Today's gathering was enjoyable (: Met many Stnicks band people from my batch! Uly, Jiaying, Peiting, Andrea, Cheryl, Sarah plus the old time seniors >< like GLORIA! phy xiaojia :D It was really heartwarming to see your seniors back again. And nice to talk to gloria once again! She's still so small and mama-ish. Great having her around to calm my nerves and chat and her wonderful advices! Esp her hugs (: Love phy too! oh and my cousin kokie was with sa Band. much thanks to his well wishes and consoles and compliments.

oh my before i end, guess what? I thought our skirts were short enough for a formal competition, but i saw a flautist from aj whose skirt was practically hidden under her blazer =O! and sgband fusion has a funny topic about girls wearing skirts or shorts? AHAH

2009-04-03T03:46:00.000-07:00

DANG. I realised i havent updated my blog for EONS OF YEARS! Many interesting things have happened and past in my life and most importantly, SNSB GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS. I dont freaking wanna care about those freaking insensitive band critics on sgbandfusion blog although i was really agitated and upset about those comments about my band. But then again, i think i shouldnt stoop to their level and waste my breathe on them. GO SNSB! I LOVE YOU FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR! continue making impressive music with miss sia. We'll sore high and glorious (:

OH OH sorry iggy ahah havent been updating.. (: Here's one update for you then!

Got this really beautiful song from a sylvester who has been helping me to increase my song library. Looked through the lyrics and it kinda touched my heart. This song is 'Love story' by Taylor Swift.

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'"

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'"

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

Oh.

I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town,

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in thy head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet - you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

Oh, oh.

We were both young when I first saw you...

I've been like kinda troubled by one particular incident which it very very complicated and annoying. Feeling really helpless about it although i really wish to do something. But i've come to a conclusion that by doing something, i reckon more problems will surface. There are enough issues right now. URGHHHHH i hate this feeeling.. I just wanna bury my head under the soil. I really hope things will turn for the better for everyone (and that i get out of it safely). I dont know if i have the right to feel pissed about it.. or im at fault?

Right.. enough emo-ing. There's no point. Tomorrow is band day ( from 9 - 5) TIRED! I havent been able to concentrate on my studies like how i did last term. I should pace myself and gain back my momentum. A levels are nearing like mad! T3A! -dang! plsu plus i really need to go check out on university courses and my future jobs. I dont wanna end up hating my job in my years to come!

Another point of reflection.. On the bus today, me chia suzie and bird were happily chatting. Chia told us what suzie wrote on her career exploration questionaire. The question was basically asking "What do you want to achieve in your future?" or something but i know there was an element of time span like maybe 10 years to come? So suzie wrote " be in a steady relationship .." haha i thought it was pretty cute. (: I mean i would wish for that too! =P! And seriously, its every girl's dream to find a guy that she can really rely on and live with happily! Alright i sound so fairytale like! I SHOULDNT(am not!) BE LIKE CHIA AND SUZIE WHO ARE MAN CRAZY! hahaha

the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

cny + orientation = OMG-LY BUSY!

2009-02-07T04:30:00.000-08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEEE! All the mega big events are finally over.. Chinese new year wasnt as fantastic as previous years.. But hehe! the clothes i bought were <333!bleah! Im kinda lazy to blog about cny. So...As i always believe, pictures speak a thousand words :D

OH OH! omg! on the 7th day of cny, i went to my grand uncle's house which is oh-so-freaking humongous! His garden can actually hold a swimming pool (if he ever converts it to one) and he has another piece of land behind where he plants lots of different vegetables! BUT, i still wouldnt mind my puny little HDB flat(my room is purplish pink! so lovely!) Anyway, he invited our family clan association lion dance troupe over and what a surprise! I was pretty much astounded to know that the lion dancers and members involved were youngsters like me! Truthfully speaking, i was expecting some bunch of old boney old men with pot bellies dancing under the lions. BUT WHOOO! saw a really cute guy doing the lion dance >.
ok back to peeeekchures!

NOW FOR ORIENTATION 2009!Lovely experience, crazy, estatic, mind-blowing, funny, WILD! Lots of beautiful memories and friendship forged.. Especially between my sub OGLs. (: Really love them alot. Without them i WOULD surely regret my choice signing up as OGL and crap! if i ever regret, those freshmen spending days with me are gonna suffer. HA fortunuate vierra freshmen!

Getting started off with new people is never an easy job for me.First day was of course, weird! But enjoyable, with Ogls constantly screaming and spamming cheers. IM so glad having Syikin Sylvester and Shihang around! CAUSE THEY ARE THE BEST OGLs I CAN EVER EXPECT! Despite Sly for being such a meanie (keeps poking me!) and insane person (OH I MEAN CAT) at times, despite shihang (gayboy!) for being bitchy and gay, despite syikin's(CHICKEN!) really funny voice when she's mute, i love them so so so much! Not forgetting my little vierra kiddos! (: Yiying(stnicks!), Jamien, Amanda, Ruby, Samantha, Clara, Yuemeng, Anqi, xuya, moses, Oswin, Xindi and Gongbo. WE ARE THE BEST SUB OG IN VJ! I DONT CARE! <3333 I can proudly declare that v4 Ogls are da closest and V4 people all together are the best in volux.. :D

Sea sports carnival and mass dance was exceptionally crazy and wacky (: After sea sports carnival, V4 went mandarin gardens to bathe and talked crap. OF course, not forgetting to cam whore. Went to Marina square and ate lunch/dinner! And omg that was the MADDEST and CRAPPIEST lunch/dinner in orientation. Sly's temporary insanity (according to Syikin) was da ultimateZxZXZ! Kept all of us roaring in laughters. He did the ILLUMUS OOOSE OOOOSE THING to a random stranger and the stranger had a really sheepish smile on his face, he did YO VJ cheer sign to every vj student he saw!, he danced weirdly out of the blue and these pair of couple stared at us real hard! He went to a female cat picture outside a shop and started touching it (the female cat was supposed to be his girlfriend). Oh and shihang opens his mouth really widely when he burst out laughing.. Super hilarious! After lunch/dinner, we went to bowl and guess what. I did the most embarrassing and nooobest mistake of my life. -faints. I actually dropped the ball behind me when i was preparing to get into my position to bowl. ): How malu-ed can that be. oh but then again, my fellow OGLs had more funny facts when they bowl. Shihang fell to his knees after letting off the ball. Syikin's ball went to the long kang after barely passing 1.5 metres. HAHAHAHA omg how i love my og! Even lemuel keeps crashing my sub og gatherings. And w're cool man! We didnt even sit with our big og during joustling at the beach =P!

Sighs.. orientation is over! means alot lesser time to see my freshmen and fellow sub OGLs! Im looking forward to friday's OG bbq and present making for our freshies with the other 3 OGLs.. lastly, much thanks for vierra OGLs and freshies for making this orientation so fun and happening. This was so much more memorable than orientation 2008.

peeeekchures!

2009-01-14T07:51:00.000-08:00

School started with a adrenaline rush-ed monday morning where heart of mine was thumping like mad while anticipating my r papers and of course, the o level results in the afternoon.

I think i shant elaborate much on it. With just a general statement..for those who did well in their perspective, CONGRATS (: and those who didnt( in their perspective), dont worry or be disheartened and crestfallen over it. Its over and what we should be looking forward to is ways to achieve your ultimate goal in entering your desired JC. Vjc band will of course do her best to bring in an many nssn people as possible.

Anyway,my new year with new tutors. (: Till today, i find them really good. Esp my gp tutor..and i received our 16PF report. It was really quite an interesting exploration of your self, as wellas the unknown subconscious side of you that you have been experiencing but somehow, unable to find words and descriptions to dsecribe what you're undergoing. (: Miraculously, this report wasnt those vague and general kind that almost 50% of the people have the same kinda comments.These information really described me very accurately..

"...Ms see appears to be a person who is apt to be more intuitive than strictly rational in her approach to problems and situations. She is likely at times to focus more on the intangible feeling aspects of what she believes to be most important (yea i realised it myself..my feelings and intuition gets the better of me). Being open to rather senstive perceptions about things, she may also find it somewhat difficult to easily set them aside. She, therefore, may require more time to resolve things that people who are mostly action-oriented and concerned about practicalities may think is necessary. She gets too overly concerened about possible negative outcomes and results (LIKE TOTALLY! Which results in my worrisome nature and habit of always thinking about possible problems that may arise from a particular thing)..."

"Right now, Ms see seems to be experiencing more worry and tension that is usually normal. Perhaps this shows that she is having some trouble accomplishing what she expects of herself in her personal life and career (..sadly, thats the truth..). Ms See is prone to worry about things of importance to her and she sometimes feels less worthy and equal to others than she would like to be. As a results she may not accept herself enough to be fully herself with others. Ms See tends to be concerned when she is not accepted by others as she expects to be. She may sometimes doubt herself unnecessarily. As a results, she may not feel she can deal as effectively with some situations as she would like to do (..this paper knows me inside out).."

" On the whole, Ms see tends to give about equal amounts of time and attention to the relationship between herself and others, But she also tends to value quality time alone on occasion. Ms See usually strives to balance her desire to be somewhat dominant in relationships with a sensible display of humility and modesty when it is important to do so (OOOH.. i never knew). Even so, Ms see appears to want to be cheerful and active in her dealings with other people. She also usually tries to do her best to be as lively as possible in social situations (yes! but why does it sound like im trying damn hard?)"

" ... Ms see enjoys bringing creative self expression into art forms, literature or innovative productsand services - activity characteristics of persons who find satisfaction working in the artistic, literary, drama, musical, and performing arts field. They usually valule activities that enable them to express their abilities, idea, talents, esp those which bear the imprint of their efforts.." (thats my ideal jobscope that i've been trying so hard to decipher in words)

well, the rest shall be left for another post. There's school tomorrow!

2009-01-07T18:41:00.000-08:00

like OHH MA GOD! our syf piece totally sends chills down my whole body...
so freaking and weird and abstract. it feels as though im caught in some unrealistic world of a devil with lots of menaces and dead traps.. ): Maybe we'll scare the hell out of the judges till they have to give us GWH! And gosh. we're the first Singapore band to play it. Zechariah goh is da bombZxzX! ><

Im so envious of the sec4s VS people. They seem to so freee and happy! Always having stayovers at friend's house and going out like just LIKE THAT! OMG I WANNA GO OUT TOO AND HAVE FUN 0: Crap the r papaer on monday. Im so gonna go shopping and east coast park and movie after my R papers to make up for my deprived soul.. Anyway, O level results will officially be announced on 12 jan monday 2 pm. I wanna go back to stnicks ): but apparently i cant.. Well, maybe i'll pop over on CCA fair =P or maybe later..I'll have to enjoy the last year of stnicks architectures and the memories we left there. I HOPE STNICKS DOES EXCEPTIONALY WELL!:D i wont mind more stnicks gals coming to vj hehehehe.. can try to exceed the cedar girls and tk girls count in veejay. NUAHAHA. just jk.

SO, i had studying session with Jazz yesterday in school! :D And she's like sitting for her bio paper now.. half an hour more. Hope she passes it! Aha and we came up with a funnaye conclusion => Vs boys are quite cute! Esp those in khaki pants.. But other than being cute, they're abit too short. haha but in any case, those vs boys we saw in vj yesterday seem better looking than our batch's vs guys! OMG.. JUST JOKING! hah okay we're quite weeetarded huh? WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING! hehehe
I LOVE YOU JAZZ and yea SHERYL! haha (:

LASTLY, all the best and good luck to all NSSN sec4s and stnicks sec 4s! I HOPE EVERYONE DOES WELL! esp those NSSN people! May god's spirits keep you strong. Vj will be waiting for your good results.. (:

2009-01-01T05:24:00.000-08:00

"HOMO..YAY! WE WIN AGAIN!"
"Oh its like a few more minutes to 12 am! so fast"
"Okay the girls shall go out to the rooftop and wait then when the hosts starts countdowning, you guys run up ok?"
"...... 10!!! 9!!!! 8!!!!!!!.....3!!!!2!!! 1!!!!"
and there we were, standing on chairs on yongyi's rooftop area gazing out to the fireworks in the city not far from his place. Amazingly, it was quite a spectacular view as we were merely only 4 storeys above ground (: Could see quite a whole profile of the fireworks display, but the lower fireowrks cant really be seen.. That was how 2009 came knocking on my door. :D Enjoyable, i must say, spending it with my S31 classmates. It was really nice meeting them again, esp sheryl jazz simin! :D well although i received a really awkward situation in yongyi's room when i walked in (CAUSE EVERYONE WAS GLUED ON THE TV WATCHING LITTLE NYONYA!!!! >:( ), other than that, everything was :D Went to the rooftop to meet jazz whom i havent seen in ages! Tried some red wine (13.5% and 30.0% alcohol) I TRIED IT!!! :D 2 sips each =P not bad for a starter. At least i could tolerate the funny pang in my mouth. played twister and taught them to play homo :D but somehow, they are not as hyper and crazy and mad as band ppl. Band's homo IS OUTRAGEOUSLY SCARY! ;O! haha

A new year with a new beginning. im not exactly beginning this new 2009 year with a new beginning.. still the same old routine..tv, maths, msn, more maths, tv, msn more maths.. sheeshh.. i wish i had just go find a stupid mark from my promo paper and pass my overall maths with another 0.7% THEN I WILL BE R PAPER -LESS ): but again, it may be a blessing in disguise. At least im doing some maths.. hopefully by CTs, i wont be flustering that much. Well, im looking forward to school! which will then mean NO MORE R PAPER :D and more time with my girlfriends (MORE BITCHING AND MORE CRAZY LAUGHING AND OF COURSE, SNACKING >.
Im supposed to be studying but im BLOGGING HERE? and i went to cheryl's photo web and saw alot of old pictures together in stnicks with our classmates. Memories can be so sweet.(:

Thats my beautiful school!the viewing gallery

my class in the family lounge

My friends in ... i have no idea where it is

our tracknfield and hockey pitch! i love our spec stand alot alot!

third storey rooftop garden :D

(:

im missing stnicks quite badly.. been some time since i went back and the school is going to be gone in a year's time ): hope the contractors really make a fabulous school compound if not I'LL KILL THEM!!!

she's the man!

2008-12-25T06:24:00.000-08:00

eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:10 PM):
that's why i'm so bright
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:10 PM):
i see the pun
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:10 PM):
URGHH ELTON
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:10 PM):
i feel like having bitch fight woth you. you're so annoying!
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:11 PM):
PULLS YOUR HAIR!
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:15 PM):
take this
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:15 PM):
xiang long 17 zhang!!!!!
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:15 PM):
*heeya!!!!*
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:17 PM):
" urghhhhhh urghhh urghhhh!!! " flies ten miles away but comes back in a flash
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:17 PM):
zhu gan powerr!!!!
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:17 PM):
all the bamboo sticks surround you and enclose you
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:18 PM):
*stone style* summoning
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:18 PM):
*combines with ice style*
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:18 PM):
*hail attack!!!*
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:18 PM):
BAMBOO SUMMONS PANDA FRIENDS TO BORROW PANDA SKIN!!!
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:19 PM):
-protects against all harsh weather
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:19 PM):
*elton levitates , his eyes appearing as blank white*
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:19 PM):
*plays horn*
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:19 PM):
*summons stone relatives*
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:20 PM):
*traps yanzhu in stone cage*
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:20 PM):
okay okay bamboo tio ownned by stone's horn playing.. she faints for A WHILE..
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:20 PM):
*stones flying goes outta control*
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:20 PM):
*technique backfires*
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:20 PM):
*hits own haed*
eLtoN - christmas mood says (10:20 PM):
*knockout*
zhu all i want for christmas is you says (10:20 PM):
YEAH!

WHAT AN AMUSING CONVERSATION WE HAVE! Thats what you get when a really bored and stressed person who is stuck at home and attempting to study, tries to talk to a hermit white and alittle weird stone named elton quack.

Anyway take a look at our colour contrast. Im like of a different breed from them.

then again, the two of them super imba at horn! Fair people got a flair for horn playing eh... ELTON BETTER COME VJ.

2008-12-23T21:43:00.000-08:00

Im losing interest to update my blog! Seriously, im astounded at how often i blog last time. I can simply just write 2 posts in a day! Now, im barely updating after a week. Well.. ahah I guess this is a sign of me growing up! This is nonsense.

Anyway, Everyday seems kinda empty and weird without nssn practises and without seeing band people around. ): I could still remember how empty and cold the band room was on monday (15dec) when a few of us went back for OGL training. Plus the kind of state the band room was after concert, it felt as though a huge tornado came and devastated our band room, killed every single band member. haha! OH but clean up on wed made the band room much neater (: Then,Band people went out to watch movie and lunch! Hah was really fun :D the company of band people is sufficient to make me have adrenaline rushes and keep me smiling the whole time. I LOVE BAND PEOPLE (J1s + sec4s + j2s!). Although this period of nssn has been really short, i really enjoyed the prsence of the sec4s and it felt as though we have known them for quite some time already. I really want all of them to stay! ): Alright back to the wed outing. We came across a booth that had those white floating balls for the floating platform and the band people totally spammed a few balls with band and vj stuff!!! wrote things lile " VJCSB ROCKS!" "hORNS + SAXES + ??? ARE THE BEST!" haha.. " VJCSB GWH 2009!" well i hope we will remain the best spiritually and musically and get gold with honours next year under the new direction of Dr goh! Watched bolt with them at gv. Although the movie wasnt really very fantastic =P, the company of people is just fabulous. Oh but the soundtrack was good. The orcestra or band songs were simply wonderful! haha

Photos of wed band outing!

Photos of us before chalet!

Thursday was NSSN chalet! Was super looking forward to it :D Cause last year was a areally good one and i was hoping this year would be equally nice or even better. Watched yes man with some band people first. then went off to the chalet! Some how, time during this chalet seem to pass much quicker than last year! This year's chalet was much more crazy and wacky cause they celebrated me and daniel's birthday!!! how cool and amazing can that be. They made me so happy and loved. The cake was beautiful. Thank melly!!! And the whole chalet sang us a song. Felt a little weird and awkward. Never liked to have bday songs sang to me, but luckily daniel was there too.. so phew!.. but nevertheless thanks alot to everyone!!! :D Oh and i received really great presents. Thanks Chris, IGgy, joshua (JA-SURE!), and LG(life's really good with him around) for the really gorgeous and cute 3D birthday card plus the spongebob puppet!!! Loved it alot. ITs so cute la! Thanks Gabriel Joel Jason and Iggy(again) for the huggable and cuddly white teddy!! Been hugging it to sleeep these few nights. Thanks White Elton for the blue/turqoise necklace which is like some protection stone or something right! Im like wearing it now. haha. Thanks alot (: Thanks to daniel for his hand made card and the rabbit!!! ITs sitting on my piano now.. with other little friends. Thanks to Matthias and Samuel for thier pretty shirt! its quite fitting for me! ha and they wrote their message on the back of the box and i have no choice but to keep the box as well -.-! Thanks to chia for her lovely photo frame and box with lots of cranes and chocolates! Thanks to Springsfield roslyn paula and clarise for the purple perfume! very sweet smelling! And thanks to everyone who wished my happy birthday! omg i feel so exhilarated now ahha.

This is a shot of hidhir and nicholas in a ... position!! omg! it was a forfeit haha!

i find this last picture super classic.

Friday and saturday and sunday was mad christmas shopping with my family. And i missed 08S31's christmas party at simin's house(which is also Samuel's condo!) And the worse thing is im most probably gonna miss the countdown party at Yongyi's rooftop. ): booooo. Monday went shopping with Oswin Chia and gab after tuition. Met oswin and chia for lunch at j8 before heading to marina square to shop for hidhir's present with chia. Hah Gab looked so cool in grey and pink rather tight fitting shirt (: Anyway thanks to jing wen and jiaying for the espirit wallet!!!! Always wanted to get one!! then they got it for me! can save the money i intended to use to buy a guess wallet. Thanks! oh and cheryl for her cute key chain!

Yesterday was Philyouth concert! Met the band people. YEAH! love them ahah. And nicholas said my legs were shining? and oh yes! i grew darker! kudos to swimming! :D and i guess the shining legs were cause of the tan. Back to topic. Philyouth was really fabulous. their techniques are really really good. Good is like an understatement. my vocab is highly limited ): should start memorising words for GP. Anyway, yep! THE HORNS ARE SUPER CRAZY AND MAD OKAY! THEY PLAYED HIGH C AND THEY ARE CONSTANTLY RINGING VERY NICELY AT THE BACKGROUND! i love their horns 0: falling in love with the horns already. haha There were some parts where i felt like crying la. damn good and nice. OK i sound stupid here. BUT YEA! i felt like crying. i must buck up my horn ): needa prac prac prac. Hopefully one day i can make it into philyouth =P Alright, im dreaming again. Phyllis, kangrong, elton, oswin, yihao, ralph, derek played for philyouth. Ralph is seriously fantastic. Their clarinets' running notes are clear ttm and their tones are really good. Well, in any case, i love their concert repertoire yesterday. Kept me engaged throughout the concert.Symphonic overture was totally madness. I love their running notes at the beginning and their high C at the ending.Loved their persis! Loved their rosa! Loved their el cam! Brought back stnicks memories during practises for syf 05. ARGHHHH! i miss the seniors! its amazing how they taught me till i could reach high G when i could only hit high D in like january or something. OH YES thanks to my wonderful and greatest lao pa for the little monkey named dangles and fake coach keychain which is still very prettaye and the medicine! :D LAO PA YOU ARE THE BEST!

concert picturs!

OKAY!im feeling high and hyper now!Alright. Today's christmas eve, And im at home!! how bad can this be ): at least last year i went out with band ppl for band movie haha. Nvm this year's one is post christmas band outing. (: Haiz.. but still feels really sad to be spending christmas eve morning and afternoon at home.. I wanna go orchard and clarkequay or something for the christmas feel! Will be going sam's house later to have christmas party. But i bet all my cousins will be out partying before going her house late in the night 0: arghhhhh!!! sam and ryan will be off at church mass! ): I'll self entertain myself online.. or i'll bring work to her house to do ahaha!

ANYWAY, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO JINGWEN, JIAYING, SNSB HORN SECTION, SNSB BAND PPL, SEC4 PURITY FRIENDS, HUMSUPS, 08S31, BAND J1S AND SEC4S! ;D

Lets start from scratch and start scratching

2008-12-12T17:28:00.001-08:00

"Thats the beauty of music, it brings us together and brings joys to every single one of us" ( qouted from joel... again)

What more do i expect? THE CONCERT WAS THE BLAST! Best concert ever in my whole life. Touching, joyous, wacky, crazy,, funny, full of fun joy and laughter. I must admit i was feeling really apprehensive the past few days, cause everyone was so dead during rehearsal. But yesterday night, everyone was hyped up and it really reached out to the audience and brought the concert down on a high end! I think they could seriously feel our genuine happiness and laughter during our performance as well as our skit. :D right?

Copacabana encore piece was RIDICULOUSLY the piece i enjoyed most. (: dancing and just being wacky and groovy. I really loved it! LIke who cares if i played so many wrong notes. I bet no one in the audience even noticed =P but its just so cool to dance together with the section and standing on chairs! It really showed our true VJCSB vibrant spirit :D The other songs were great too. :D had fun changing seats and talking to different section people! I hope mr tan really enjoyed his last few moments with us. I will really miss him alot ): He's the best teacher i can ever find in Singapore or even on earth! Friendly, happy, lively, inpsirational, talented, musical, influential.. the list wil just go on forever. Bleah...

Now for the skit! It was hilarious!!! I think it was really a success. (: batch dance, jason, max, holly, hunkie guys,squirrel, bitchy girls, passers-by, little hollies, little jasons, waltz dancers!!!! omg it was so great!!! I was so happppppy!!!!! Audience seem to enjoy it alot :D yeah! i love my waltz dance and the batch dance!!!! :D and of course hunky guys ;D wheeee. Seriously, i think they're damn hot sia! ahah ... gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight -does the hunky moves. My mom said the bitchy girls were damn cool, which i think so too. Their voiceovers are the best! GARRETT AND CHRISTOPHER! OH YEA AND I collided into a girl when i was running to my position behind the curtains when the lights were off. Haha it was really a hard bang. but nvm (: its all worth it! The mass rushing to change our attire is super fun too! All the girls are like frantically changing in the band room behind doors, cupboards, curtains, and tuba cases haha! Tuba cases are useful! Oh but then again, its a pity we didnt take any pictures of us in our skit attire! ):

Our concert ended really fantastically with the lovely videos and the song we dedicated to Mr tan! hope the audience enjoyed it and truly feel the fun we have in band. I love victorian anthem and vj cheer! never fails to make me have an adrenaline rush! :D

OMG I DONT KNOW WHY I JUST FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AND LAUGHING AND getting high!!!!!!!!!! im gonna miss band practices with sec4s although im not very close to all of them. but their presence is damn nice (: and year's nssn friends are still in contact. I'LL MISS MY SECTION JUNIORS! Estee and stephanie the quiet duo that requires ridha (raydar) to help trasnmit their messages, Elton the ultimate stone and snowman! who is like the fairest guy i've ever met. Ridha the raydar.. peter who is like ever so crazy! Of course, not forgetting the nice smiley joshua and really efficient lee guan who made the videos and slide shows that were so touching and prettaye! Me and mel bought care bears for them! (: hope they'll like it. Also, i will miss my dearest cutest oswin (gosh!) who is so evil and still calls me a see(sea)horse cause of my laughter. -.- That Mean and Idiotic Nicholas who is so audacious to comment on my...!! oh and matthias is my christmas buddy!! he got me a spongebob toy! Thanks alot. Damn there's like so many juniors to name. Then again, i dont exactly treat them like juniors (: More of cool friends than juniors. Well, i'll always remember this bunch of new friends that i made!! LOVE YOU GUYS!

Much thanks to my friends who came to support our concert too! :D Jazz sheryl, weiliang, yongyi, Jingwen, jiaying, Weiling, LIjie, elysia, Marilyn, Yiinghuey! grace, Samantha, phy, anchun, quanli, many many more!

now for pictures!

So i say thank you for the music, the songs im singing..
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing.
Who can live without it, i ask in all honesty,
what would life be, without a song or a dance what are we
so i say thank you for the music
for giving it to me

We love you Mr Tan.. forever.

2008-12-04T02:11:00.000-08:00

HAH! as you can see from my tag board, iggy wants me to thank him! so i shall officially thank him for being such a nice botak IP 1 junior (: wacky and botak-ish. I LOVE IT hah.

Anyway like omg! both me and iggy are like sick today. So we both had to miss band practice which i guess just ended half an hour or an hour ago. So sad ): ok maybe not. Cause i have had a nice wonderful time spent alone at home.And also, finallyy having some time left for myself to do the things i wanna do and just maybe, be away from my friends for a day to recollect my thoughts and emotions. Time was pretty well spent today. I really like this. Having the time of my own! and Yes i have started the studying momentum which i will be determined to continue until school reopens. AND of course, when school reopens, i will gear it up further to my optimal studying mode. Well, i guess i should have done it long time ago like right from the beginning of 2008, to prevent all the panics and stressful moments from affecting my playing mode which every student would kinda adopt during the holidays.

Honestly, i was actually feeling like shit and super unhappy the past few days. Everything that happened just seem to annoy me. But now i feel much more at ease and relaxed.. And once again, thanks to me falling sick and being able to spend quality with me and just myself. :D CHEERIOS!but damn i hate the sore throat throbbing feeling in my neck. And i have to stop eating bisuits ( ARGH! MY DEWBERRY!), chips, cheese and lots of delicacies ):

Hmm. i just completed doing questions from summation series. Now i will continue with chemistry tuition hw and then i'll do some GP vocabulary and I'll watch my tv!! :D Talking about GP vocab, i asked Oswin to help me do a few lessons of it =P gosh! i feel so bad. HE's supposed to be enjoying his holidays and playing his oboe. haah but then again, he doesnt mind. I'll treat him to something when i recover..( kfc CHICKEN SKIN!!)

2008-11-28T07:32:00.000-08:00

28 november 2008.
Today has been a really... happy afternoon. (: went to the doctor's and then to marina square to meet sam. Im so proud of myself actually. I know how to travel here and there in singapore, ranging from central to east to west and north and south :D okay back to main topic.. i talked alittle to xixun and met their friend (: and yup of to MEGA SHOPPING with my lovely cousin :D we went really bonkers. And its been really ages ever since i carrried bags of shopping. My harvest of the day : 1 beautiful pair of heels about 3 inches tall =x, a lovely metallic butterfly hairband and 2 tops, both blouses but one is damn freaking manly and the other is a little classy. i needa get a waist belt to go with it cause it looks rather empty. AND IM kinda afraid to wear the damn freaking man top now cause people might mistake me for a bunk especially when im short haired. boohoo! But then again, it feels much better after shopping therapy although its a really bad sin with the fact that we are actually facing a financial recession. OMG and talking about the heels i bought, it was really really prettyyy! the whole shop was magnificant. Although its from china, but the shoes are really exotic and unique. The shoes have little touches of china essence with comtemporary designs. Even the sole of the heels are carved intricately with chinese designs. (: And the lady who is from china is really friendly and cool and pretty. Her fashion sense is superb, just a little too colourful. But at least, she doesnt follow the trend and has her own style :D I LIKE!
BOth me and sam saw many things we would love to purchase! but due to financial constraints, we had to control our burning desires. ha and we came across a shop named cactus or smthing that has really gross bear figurines!!! OMG ahah should raelly go take a look. AND the jewellery box in that shop IS TOTALLY GORGEOUS!!!! (: As usual, pretty things go with pretty prices =(
Towards dinner time, i guess both of us were really shagged and tired so we started going koo koo and alittle brain-dead. We werent processing things properly. Here goes the story.....we went to john little in search of nice waist belts. We stood there for a long time, because all the belts that sam took cant seem to fit her!! its all too bigg! So we kept changing and changing and complaining that the belts were too big for sam's waist." arghh!! too big". This continued for a number of belts till the point we wanted to give up. Then, finally when i picked one out, i saw the buckle.. " Hey sam you know what. The belts are actually adjustable" =.=!!!! OMG WE FELT SO STOOOPIDD!
Its really fun shopping with sammy :D bu i feel kinda sinful for spending like near 110 bucks today. =X Well, thats inclusive of the food and snacks. NOW my next destination to conquer is forever 21 and bugis :D i needa look for cool sweaters or outer wear. I saw a really nice one in suntec and marina square. And i wanna get my coolio office wear from miss sixties! and a nice vest! and lastly, flats.. i've got far too many pairs of heels. my mom was complaining =P Anyway, much thanks to sam today for shopping with me. Lifted my spirits up :D

OK proceeding on.. (emo part) Been feeling kinda empty these few days. Band has really been a joy for me, with new juniors coming in and new chapter begins again. Then again, many things would have or would be changed wouldnt it? Just like how the story of isabella and edward changes and metamorphosized over the 4 series of the vampire love story. Just like how every story has an ending. Just like how a pretty flower will wither and die off when the time comes. I suppose all happy beginnings and processes will come to an end at any time.. and i guess most of the time, when one is experiencing the particular downturn in their life, no one seems to be around to just share the woe. OH whatever. Maybe some things are just not meant to be known by a second being other than yourself. Isnt it better in that way? Perhaps i wish i was a little less emotional, a little less reflective, a little less pessimistic, a little more happy go lucky, a little more insensitive, a little more oblivious. That would make life much happier (: and make me less worrisome and think lesser. OH YES that would seroiusly be wonderful.

Anyway back to a lighter note, i would seriously like to thank a few people (: Like mr big guy joel, who has been talking much to me lately about crap or about other stuff. And extending his support and help without hesitation for badminton and sewing of curtains although he didnt exactly come for badminton and helped to sew AHAH! but thanks for helping me pull the needle out. (: And of course mr christopher, who has been going to school and practising with me and eating lunch with me and talking to me and lending me alot of his coins =P MELLY! for lending me her swimming pool and her house's sun for suntanning =P! And mingde, who has been constantly practising with me and teaching me lots of warm up exercises and techniques to improve my horn playing, DESPITE ALWAYS BEING LATE! tsk tsk. and elton of course who comes down to prac together and lending coins too =P OH OH and daniel cher for dancing with me! (: im so sorry if i have been to boney or heavy for you during the waltz =X! im so scared i'll break your bones.

Next two days will really be busy for me. Tomorrow will be band practice THE WHOLE DAY. and then maybe section dinner without daniel without ij girls without khaizar without daniel. OKAY WHAT KINDA SECTION DINNER IS THAT!? ha. Sunday will be tuition then concert with dear skinny cheryl at UCC (: must wear nice nice. got free cockttail dinner HAHAH! then monday, i may be going wild wild wet with my family. if not i will go swimming :D and of course, not missing out my studying time slots in between the busy schedule.

toodles...

this sucks. i hate the feeling of just myself

2008-11-20T05:39:00.000-08:00

Holidays are here but i aint feeling any ecstacy or what sort ever. Ok maybe at the beginning of it i did feel a little delighted. Well i guess holidays aint going as well as i hoped it did. Everyone is all so busy with their own stuff. CCAs, exco, meetings. Things feel even worse when most of your friends are caught up in such stuff. Oh whatever.

But then again, i should be glad. Tune in yesterday was a great success. Thanks to the wonderful Tae and exco of vjcsb. Tae really put in alot of work and they met up like almost every other day to prepare for tune in. I was really excited and eager to see the sec4s. And it was great to hear a whole full band together and get cramped in the small band room. Cosy indeed. But this year was lacking of Tkgs and stnicks girls, dunman high, st pats and random secondary schools like last year. But there were more of VS guys and ijtp girls. My section had lesser ppl compared to last year. Last year tune in we had 11 sec 4s horn and 3 seniors, so there were 14 of us squeezing. Super coolio. Oh but this year we had lesser sec4s in comparison to last year. In any case, last year's nssn experience was really superb. Best holidays of my life ever. Maybe cause phy and kahsiong and some other seniors were really nice. And of course, my other section mates werent weird other than... dots. OKAY! games were kinda interesting i guess. My batch ppl got really high esp me, instead of the sec4s. =P but i do hope the sec4s enjoyed the whole process. unfortunately it rained. IF not i bet it will be much more FUN and laugher. I had so much fun laughing at forfeits and pouring flour on other ppl (: YEAh and i was named a TAE friend. Lots of interesting and happening things happened. Cant exactly recall but yesterday was really hyped and enjoyable.

Went for dinner together in like a herd of vj band ppl!! i think we totally intimidated the bus passengers. But well, has been a long time since i have had huge band dinner with band people. This really threw me back to last year when phy always ask me along to join the seniors and other sec4s for lunch and dinner. And the many dinners after orientation. Well well i should stop dwelling in the past and look forward.

Yeah and our section had 2 ijtp girls and 2 vs and one bendemeer who missed tune in. They are astee, stephanie, elton, ridah and bende respectively. (Well, bende is a short form me and mingde gave for the bendemeer guy) ahaha. Right. Oh no im really sad cause sec4s will be stuck in between me and ming de and we cant crap retarded stuff anymore. But nvm (:

Anyway thanks much to junsen chris gabriel and sean. Of course, not missing out mr chicken and doggy in the band room today that kept me company. Well maybe kept each of us company. ): so sad. no one came to prac except us. i was hoping more j1s would go down and perhaps pull a few sec 4s to interact with. I guess we had fun being psychopatic and start treating the animals as if they are real. Like how gab start patting and stroking the dog's tail, how sean started playing with cookie monster's limbs and mouth, and me combing chicken's butt hair and saying hi to him. and chris hugging his jacket really tightly. =.= played bridge and had really lots of fun. I kept pairing with sean and chris.. And the moment i paired with gab, i lost =.= ahah. Its been a long time since i hang out at the mattress area too. (: so yeah good time spent today actually.

Tomorrow will be TAE auditions for roles in nssn skit. I didnt exactly signed up. but i know chia and hid knows i wanan act. so yeah. A small minute role will just do fine (: chris and iggy sign up for voice over HAAH cant wait to hear chris. He's damn wacky and retarded with his voice. And iggy can be mr botak! ;D

how i wish you were still in vj ): then i will have someone to talk to and share thoughts with.

2008-11-14T07:39:00.000-08:00

urgh nevermind.

I dont feel like blogging at all. Just so happened that i logged in with an urge to say something but i lost it in just that 2 seconds when the posting page was trying to load.

2008-11-02T03:25:00.000-08:00

Help someone..im desperately feeeling very very emotional and gloomy and down ):
Not that im unhappy with anything currently in my life. I think i should really feel happy and carefree at this point of time. A sad love drama's influence is really overwhelming. Esp did i mention? its from korea. Arghhhhhhhhhh! all the crying scenes and good acting skills.
I really shouldnt have started on this drama maniac. Its really making not me at all.Im going all ): everyday when im alone. I keep thinking of how wronged the girl has been since she was young and how terrible her fate was to be. Her father's really dumb dumb to let her get manipulated and bullied by her stepmother and step sister. Also seeing how dejected the guy was waiting and pining for her and cant have her despite finally finding her after 5 years. And how they were still seperated in the end by a twist of fate. The guy really waited for her for eon years but still lost her. ): But when they were young, it was really super sweet but also heart aching.
DAMN IT! I HAVE SERIOUSLY GOTTEN MYSELF IN DEEP SHIT.
SAVE ME SOMEONE. PULL ME OUT OF THIS. IM SO SICK OF FEELING SO MUCH FOR THE CHARACTERS. i think i had better hurry finish the last 7 eppisodes and get over with this drama series once and for all. I WANNA LAUGH AND SMILE AND GO BONKERS.
But then again, i doubt such a drama will happen in life. Right? On second thought, its not so far fetched actually. But is there any guy that is as faithful and gentlemanly and persistent like cha song joo in Singapore? haha..

Tomorrow will be the last ever day im going to be in touch with ProjectWork. WHEEEEEEEEEEE! but i hope OP on tues would be fine fine fine and fantastic. I do hope that every single one of us will pull through Q and A. But then, i seriously do not carry much hope in getting A. Vj's pw A percentage is really low.

Alright and i really do miss my band friends ): Been such such such a looooong time since we sit together in the band room and talk rubbish. And like none of us ever goes into the band room any more ): arghhhhhh! i miss you guys and girls! Hopefullly when band prac resumes, i will feel so much happier that i will forget all about Stairway to Heaven! yes! i will forget about it :D And i wanna have pro and crazy juniors for nssn and next year SYF! NSSN better be a blast!! :D and i guess we will make this last concert a memorable one for us and mr tan.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR PRES GAYYYYYYYY-BRIEL:D
It's great seeing a primary school friend in my JC and even in my own CCA. Although we werent very close of what so ever in pri sch, its still nice to have you as a friend now!! :D GO MR PRES! all the way for NSSN'08!

SHALL POST SOME PICTURES. I've really been out of blogging for a loooong time.

2008-10-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

"i wished i went to a sch like vs
practised harder
than went straight to nafa to pursue my dream
but when i think about it again
wld i have had so much fun?
wld i have met so many cool frens?
wld i have even loved playing my tuba so much?
i mean there are plus points la
i'm sure the fun u had makes u ebnjoy ur jc life
when u look back 30 years ago when u're 47
are u going to rmb the Es and Ss u got
or rather the frens u had and the fun u had
ur frens are the ones that will follow u thru life
not the results
results are just ur stepping stone to starting a career
they are just elements that nourish ur career
frens Are the elements that nourish ur life
haha
this sounds so damn cheesy and i nvr knew i cld say such crap
aniwae, but i guess wads impt is to look forward and not regret
u can't change the past, but u can mould ur future still" said joel the big guy (:

Thanks joel. For talking to me when i was feeling really really really unhapppy and down. Its been a long time since i used the word "unhappy". OH yes you bet. IM unhappy. Its just so exasperating and disheartening for you to know that many people are improving and performing as well as they should for promos but me, im still lagging behind by a thousand miles that i seem so impossible to ever reach that level of attainment. Jc is just simply screwup for me. I had never ever felt so ridiculously stupid and dumb and useless in my life. Sometimes, i really regret my choice of vj. Would i be better off at Raffles or something. Vj is far too fun loving and enjoyable. Too much fun-elements that i find myself underperforming far too much than my supposed capabilites. In any case, im just super disappointed and feeling super anguished.

But anyway the past week has been happy and carefree and enjoyable for me, with quality time spent with friends. But then again, everyone is doing so well while im like down in the dark abyss. well nvm. Im just feeling super emotional and gloomy.

1 R paper included in my schedule next year.

2008-09-01T07:37:00.000-07:00

I have decided to take time off my busy schedule of mugging to update my blog that has been dead and buried under layers of sediments. It will soon turn into sedimentary rocks due to pressure from overlying rock materials. urgh!geog.. oh but then again, geog lectures are very favourite and most enjoyable lectures (: always make me feel like im still a living human amidst all the mad mugging and scientific terms flying all around my exploding head.

OKAY! today's a mondayful monday. as ineffective as ever. completed genetics of viruses and bacteria, enzymes, half of proteins, went through trigo, differentiation and integration (just the concepts and methods). Im trying to complete proteins before i officially flop heavily on my turtle and my blanky (: So, before that i will update my bloggggg! :D

Friday was teachers' day! Super exhilarating! Thursday night at byron, i was already super hyped CAUSE SKINNY CHERYL WAS THERE TOO! been ages seen i've met her and i miss her act-cute ness (well maybe she's cute ahah -coughs) and her skinny-ness which is not so true anymore cause she put on weight ): I MUST CATCH UP! anyway yep! so friday.. I was actually amazed that teacher's day celebration in VJ is quite fun and enjoyable!!!!!! We had morn breakfast with our CT and cam whored alot with mr fooo!!! hahahah amazing isnt it! We tried to take jump shots with mr foo and act cute together. We also went round school looking for mr josef, najid, mrs toh, mrs ang! I love josef and mr najid they are the funniet and most amaiable teachers i can find in vj.and mr foo.

After that, we had a mini concert in the hall. watched many fantastic and hilarious videos done by teachers and house comm. :D our Teachers day were spent having fits of laughter. I love the teachers' video where they went on a teacher's retreat or something to little india and had to do stupid things there. They had to do an exaggerated slow walk while crossing the road and everyone was staring at them ahah! super hilarious. They also had to pretend to point up into the sky to make passer by look up! and there was these 3 caucasians who really looked up continuosly to find out what they were actually looking at!!! Never seen adults participate so enthusiastically in such retarded games before ahaha. Amazing. Then all the stnicks ppl cabbed down to stnicks immediately! whee! and im totally amazed by the spirit of the red badge! So many of us wore pinafore back to stnicks!! Isnt it like.. woah!I mean its so heart warming and crazy at the same time! I guess red badge is the most bonded and dedicated batch ever (: miss the teachers, miss the food, miss the drinks, miss the schoooool! miss the little girls from primary section screaming and running about and we had to be very very careful not to trip over any one of those mad rushing little people. AND i love the feeling where all the girls from my batch are just around you even if you dont know them as friends. Just Feels at home. :D

WONDERFUL MRS GOH WITH THE HWACHONG PEOPLE hmmm.. ahaha

jingwen, zhuer, jayme and me!!!

cheryl pam me!

MISS YEE AND 4P!

failed timer shot!!!! but i can still feeel the love haha!

yay! successful timer shoot (:

3 of us at our beautiful track

yay lastly, I LOVE MY 2 PURITY FRIENDS <3

2008-08-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

YELLO!!! Woah its like super long ever since i came into blogger.com

I've been rather busy.. with school and band and more school and work. And of course, time with friends (: I would like to officiallly praise myself for being such a good and diligent student ever since school started after mid years. I did all my tutorials ( at least attempt despite leaving some blanks), tried listening to lecture,s, Read through my notes, and and yea.. ahha! and i only ponned one bio lect which was yesterday. I guess i have been pretty happy and :D other than some personal issues..

Oh damn it. I know i have lots of things to blog about, but im totally clueless at how to begin. Right. Shall just start with the most recent event. SHERYL'S BIRTHDAY! Happy birthday sheryl! Although its like on the first day of Ghost festival, but we still went out (: Sheryl, jazz, me squirrel, peiyi, vui went to orcahrd to shop. Vui needed to get her dress for tonight's Asean dinner at FULLERTON! fullerton!! She got a really sweet looking metallic blue dress. and a pair of white heels. I bought my long awaited kimono dresss! its grey!!! and with some flora design.. Simin (SQUIRREL) bought a sweet looking grey top, sheryl bought a strawberry tube dress! hahaha i love it (: yeah! long time since i've shopped. oh by the way, Simin aka squirrel resides on me! hha im her little tree!! (just some background knowledge)!
Ate at pepper lunch which made me sneeze like mad the whole night 0: HERE'S PICTURES! oh we attempted to tie pony tails (2) ahah! it will be very interesting if school made it compulsory for girls with long hair to tie 2 pony tails to school everyday.

me!

Retarded jazz!

Simin! (squirrel)

Sheryl birthday girl!

peiyi!

camwhoring in the toilet!

more!

picture of the week! (:

jazz and i! she looks so cute right!

spas ttm!!!! Vui and jazz felt so embarasssed doing that in a shopping centre. But well, it seems normal to me! haha

!!! yeah! Before we headed to town, mr lim let us watched a really incredible film known as Stepford's wives. Its kinda disturbing and thuoght provoking. Really reflects mumch about the current society (: In any case, I would promote this film. Rather amazing. Its basically about how women become aggressive and successful career women but ended up in a broken marriages. Couples would go to this town known as stepford something where this lady with her husband (Which is actually a robot) will help to transform the women into perfect housewives who are subservient, sexy, pretty, gentle, smiling 24 hours machines. And the guys will be brainwashed by the husband of the lady to make their wives under go the trasnformation. So this main actress and her husband went there in hope of salvaging their marriage. The actress after much observation realised that the town was a little suspicious and the story goes on.. blah its very very interesting haha but some parts quite disturbing cause the wives were actually remote controlled after the lady of the town put in chips into the women brains. and erm the husbands could actually control the size of her erm..well.. chest. gross. And as a female, it kinda freaks me out at the thought that IM BEING REMOTE CONTROLLED!!!! > : ( If my husband did that to me, I WOULD CASTRATE HIM! but then again, its impossible in real life. So WOMEN.. phew..But i guess women really have to strike a balance between their bright career and family and love. I guess we all wan to be smart and independent women but we have to also be a good care taker of the family.. :D haha

Band has been fun too! As in time spent with band people. hah we havent had band pracc for some time. but just hanging aronud with band ppl and chatting and laughing with them makes me feel blissful and blessed and happy (: thanks people!

TO IGGY AND CHRIS : THERE YOU GO! i updated (: oh and chris, im no sure about the band blog but wont mind having it! haha we'll have to consult either the tae or exco. Welfare head only clean up band room! PRO PRO PRO!

2008-06-27T20:54:00.000-07:00

whahahah! omg this is so cool!
since im updating my blog i shall update yanzhuuuuuuuuu's blog whaha! guess who i am
=D okay

CHOMPCHOMP YTD

aft going to chia's house to watch sky of love and omg help hidhir sort out marcaroni. -_- haha so taxing on the eyes noe. like the small small alphabetical marcaroni that one! lucky he got us help him do if not he do until he siao also cannot finish lorh. then we watched da chang jin and xin hua duo duo kai before heading down to chomp chomp!!! wha it'was damn nice eating there aft six months! we ate chicken wings satay hokkien noodles stingray cockles[ewww] oyster omelette[=/] sugarcane(: mango desert and icekachang! like finally. no more fast food but proper dinner at a nice placeall of us felt bliss aft eating.

whoots camwhoring as usual =D

hidhir is a ghost whahahahhha

this chia anyhow anyhow jump out from nowhere and block us =/ heh
damn funny

yanzhu cut me out!!!
yummy mango icecream!!! and the icekachang in the background =D

the yummy yummy food! (: [except the cockles and the oyster!! ]hee

alright can guess who i am not?! heh
okay lah take care people! i feel so accomplished i kept yanzhu's blog alive woots!

melly <3!

2008-06-08T07:58:00.000-07:00

oh dear. it has really been million of years ago that i last updated on my blog.
YANZHU MIA!!!

Alot of things/events have gone passed. Mainly Majestia 23!!! vjcsb JTS 08!!!! JUBILATE!!! That i shall update if i have the time! but now i really needa talk about POP 08!!omg
i miss snsb like maddddd although i do have my complaints and unhappy memories of it. I went back with loo, jingwen, peiting and celeste! I miss the juniors. I miss er potato head's voice =.= HE is still as irritating and as unfavoured by student as ever. I miss miss lai's long wavy hair ahaha! I miss the band room, I miss my horn juniors, I miss seeing blue and red uniform. I miss running about the school because of band, I miss seeing juniors around during school time. I miss berato-ing. I miss shushing the band down. (AHAHA!) I miss fooling around. I miss talking and disturbing juniors. I just feel nostalgic in short.. ):
After attending POP i feel so grown up and matured. I Dont know whyyy! im just merely 1 or 2 years older!! and im a december baby!!! And time really passes very quickly. the blue badges still seem like sec 2s (physically and mentally) to me. Esp cheng mei =.= Damn it. She's so damn hilarious. I kept laughing at her expression when she knew she got SL and when she started wailing like a baby! i mean wailing.. with her mouth open. IM not mocking at her crying, but she just look simply too cute and loveable OMG AHAH! did i just say that.. -GASP!oh and jayme is so funny. hah i remember correcting her drills countless times together with peiting and jingwen and we never fail to end up rolling in laughter. the 4 percs juniors are just forever disturbing and kachiao-ing people. oh and now to my 2 very very capable juniors of mine! Both Elysia and Yiinghuey are the current 2 majors of the band! Elysia band and yiinghuey drum! I was so happy to hear that from weiling before pop and Im so freaking proud of them. :D I just cant imagine them locking doors, talking to the band, motivating them to do well, talking to miss sia and cher, managing the whole band's organisation, sometimes scolding. Like i said, i still see them as sec 2 juniors. But nevertheless, i trust their capability and efficiency and responsilibity and everything about them. And i believe that they will be a good duo in doing a good job leading snsb! Right? >< OH! can you imagine? During compeitions and performance, you will see 2 horn people with red sashes!!! and if both of them play first, WOAH! they will be super outstanding. And congrats to grace leung on getting Assistant librarian. JIAYOU! :D haha and liwen! congrats on being my successor/descendent on getting secretary. (: and all other posts holders. I cant remember much. I really miss band.. esp blue badges cause they were and still are my favourite badge of juniors. I believe they will do a good job in being the leading batch of Snsb and will do their best in their upcoming NBC and next year's SYF!! ( GOLD YEA!! OR GWH!!) hehe im stressing out ely and yh. GO BLUE BADGESSSS!

jingwen weiping louise me chengmei!

Elysia me and yiinghuey! (before)

Elysia me Yiinghuey!! Bm and Dm! (after)

the handing over of Drum major. Sarah to Yiinghuey

Handing over of BAnd major. Grace to Elysia

2008-04-24T05:24:00.000-07:00

It's really been a long time since i've last blogged (: its rotting with maggots and flies! well i intended to blog about my new york trip which was entirely enjoyable, lovely, beautiful, happy, amazing, FABULOUS. Every single sec was (: (: (: (: (:
if i were to go into details( like from the min i stepped into vj to get my instru, on the bus to air port, taking band photo, get up the plane... till i stepped back into vj with my luggage and horn), i would take days to rattle on and on and on. :D
Overall, Newyork's weather rocks to the max! It was so cold and windy and cooling! oh the air was pretty dry too. Lip balm was used almost every 20 mins.. but anyway, other than that, the weather was really shioK! haha it quite impossible for you to sweat even afer you run around on the streets with 3 layers of clothes and 1 big puffy jacket. :D i love manhattan city! with all the high rise buildings that made it looked so majestic and advanced. I love the streets cause its always filled with people, at every avenue and street. the night life is so active and bustling. The billboards and broadway show advertisements made the whole manhatten look so lively and colourful! really brightens up my day! OH central park was absolutely gorgeous with the tall high rise buildings surrounding it, complementing its low, almost barren trees. oh although the trees looks barren, the whole park still looks very pretty and classy! there were squirrlels tooo!! the cheesecakes were damn delicious. haa i felt damn happy and cool wearing boots around. Like when will you even have a chance to wear boots in singapore? okay here's some pictures!

overlook of manhatten city from new jersey!

statue of liberty!

brother, hid, loo loo, rachel, me and chrissy! on liberty island

brother and i in central park

me and rachel roaming the streets of manhattan!

me rachel and jialing on ferry to liberty island!

me and daniel on carnegie's stage! i love this picture (:

yusheng, me, hid and chia in central parkk!!

beautiful night scene of manhatten on river hudson. ( we were on a cruise dinner)

okay thats jsut some pictures of ny (:
I REALLY WANNA STAY THERE LONGER (: it was so fun and carefree over there! haha
okay thats not the main reason. But i really do love the lifestyle there and the weather.. whihc will influence my skin and my attire :D ( i love wearing big fat jackets and boots!)
i've been really busy after coming back from ny. lots of work piling up and band.. many things cropping up and stuff.. And lately, many things have been lingering in my mind.. which is bad bad bad. I should really stop thinking so much. Makes me unhappy which makes me even unhappier cause i'll be in a bad mood. okay no one will understand that except myself. But im glad i have friends like weiling sheryl jazz olivia brother and daniel to keep me going in school and to make me feel so much more loved and happy :D and also chia hidhir joel yusheng to entertain me. Really good source of entertainment. hilarious ttm. lastly, also my band friends! just their presence and smiles are sufficient to make me (:

2008-03-07T06:28:00.000-08:00

wheeeeee one week has passed rathe quickly and now its the starting of the really really short holidays. My schedule is horribly packed, with band pracs and some gatherings. And i need to dig time out to study for maths ct and chem ct ): What makes it worse is that i have to restudy everything on my own. ahah well blame it on my lazy bones from the start of lectures till now. and sheesh i got lowest in class for bio lect test. I was so afraid that this would happen. That was my push factor that made me study for it even though it was chinese new year and i wanted to totally enjoy it. Sucks la. I should have seen that coming. Im always this unlucky and everything. Always being hit with the worst circumstances. and i did study for bio test!! urghh! suck suck sucks. i think all my tutors have bad impressions of me. My bio tutor (also my CT) never fails to catch me chewing on food during bio tutorials and ct sessions. =.= My maths tutor always see me sitting at the back of the class talking and passing food around =.= my chem teacher always see me popping food into my mouth. =.= am i unlucky or what. ok im gettting alittle emooo here.. BUT IM SERIOUSLY FED UP WITH WHATS HAPPENING TO ME IN SCHOOOL! >:(

anyway, our class cam whored alittle one of the days of the week. (: Our class is quite cute i think. Always heading to the library to study. Esp the stupid idiot mugger, ken!!!! after every break he never fails to shout " WHO WANTS TO GO LIBRARY TO MUG!" haha and he suggested going marine parade library for class outing =.= oh and did i mention, We dug out some secrets of our teacher. Quite unappetising yet...erm..juicy haha.

oh and today was tie day! im was so freaking enthu about it. wore the tie the whole day! IM PROUD OF MY TIE! took some pictures with it. i think we look really good with ties. :D Anyway i caught 2 movies this week. Namely leap years and 10 000 BC. leap years is a really touchign story, but i kept laughing through out at some scenes. Quite hilarious. But i really love the narrating part and how the movie shows the inner thoughts and confusions of the person. It will be a good piece of prose for lit students i think haah! i love all the beautiful phrases by famous people! Caught leap years with jingwen jia chia phy junsen kaikeng eric xiaojia and betty. Went with gabriel yixiang oli jialing phyllis rouhui and joel to watch 10000 BC at tampines mall. Mind you. ITs tampines mall. omg. its like miles and miles away from my little home town ): SO FAR! me and gabriel shall bring the rest of the people to bishan one day for movie! then we will totally own everything! haha yixxiang and gabriel "broke up" on the train home with my as the eye witness. hmmm the story goes like this. Someone called yixiang and sttarted talking to him for a long time. Then Gabriel started to turn green in jealousy and got angry. The moment yixiang put down the phone, they both started quarrelling with gabriel accusing yixiang of cheating on him hahah! and they're through! haha im their eye witness of their break up =.=

By the way, i think rouhui mingde me and da niao will be performing for arts day. Horn quartet, rather exciting :D on the other hand; im feeling quite queasy about it cause im scared of destroying the beautiful music that rouhui mingde and daniel is making and im scared of mispitching and gettting tired ): quite stressing but i will try my best. the song is really cute and nice, well to a band person. (:

PICTURES!

the fellow girls from 08S31

class pic! with ken the wushu master and victor trying to..ahem!

yay! the girls crashed the guys picture! i love my fellow girlfriends! :D

the trademark action of _________! total gayness of the humsuplous

me and jazzzy! a secret snapshot during maths lect..

a pretty destroyed picture by ken's shoe bag! but nice! <33

jazz charlotte sheryl me peiyi weiling and simin behind!

abit obscene haha but me charloote and sheryl are wearing draw strings of the same colour but differnt shades!

yay! stnicks people in S31

my really really cute and happy friend!!! she's JAZZ and im CLASSICAL!

lem, sheryl and jazz on the bus to pp!

this picture was supposed to be only me and vivian. Then 2 alien heads popped out of nowhere and.. tada! =.=

JT and jonny sleeping soundly.. Zzzz

sexy side view of gabriel! to turn yixiang on!

me and oli in toilet :D girls' favourite past time (Taking picts using toilet mirrors!)

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

2008-03-03T06:04:00.000-08:00

lam : nearing... says (9:56 PM):
"bad girl bad girl... why follow ur brother's footsteps"
zhu! "change is the only constant in the world" qouted from ratatouille says (9:56 PM):
im sure!
lam : nearing... says (9:57 PM):
sure of?
zhu! "change is the only constant in the world" qouted from ratatouille says (9:58 PM):
im sure that i follOW your steps.. okay its sacarstic
zhu! "change is the only constant in the world" qouted from ratatouille says (9:58 PM):
like IM SURE LA!
zhu! "change is the only constant in the world" qouted from ratatouille says (9:58 PM):
ahah
zhu! "change is the only constant in the world" qouted from ratatouille says (9:58 PM):
i will say it for you tmrw
zhu! "change is the only constant in the world" qouted from ratatouille says (9:58 PM):
ahah
lam : nearing... says (9:58 PM):
=.=
lam : nearing... says (9:58 PM):
why u liddat
lam : nearing... says (9:59 PM):
ppl trying to reprimand u u liddat
lam : nearing... says (9:59 PM):
aiyoh
lam : nearing... says (9:59 PM):
then u liddat
lam : nearing... says (9:59 PM):
then i liddat
lam : nearing... says (9:59 PM):
then liddat
lam : nearing... says (9:59 PM):
haiyah!
zhu! "change is the only constant in the world" qouted from ratatouille says (9:59 PM):
HAHAHA

okay so this is my retarded brother, lam yiyong!!! Gillian said that we looked alike one day while we were waiting for the bus to come. and since then, i've addressed him as my brother! HAHA

anyway im glad to have him as my brother! THANKS BROTHER! :D

anyway, school was quite interesting today. At least it didnt turn out as bad as i expected because i missed one whole week of school and i was kinda dreading it and everything. Played captain's ball with the humsup clan! :D very exhilirating and fun! Its really funny to see how the guys play and display their funnny ball tactics. Like seeeing how ivan flies around, trying to catch the ball( and his attempts were all succesful), looking at victor drama-ing with the ball, lemuel trying to imitate victor and at the same time, fly around too!, and seeing how jazz bounces about haha!

THERE'S a new scandal in class! other than yongyi~~~ and AHEM (coughs real hard), now there is a kenn and ahem! (coughs lighter). haha me and sheryl came up with this coughing styles to differentiate between AHEM! and ahem! Seriously, i was really damn high today haha. Like what yongyi said, i am more hyper compared to last monday when i was hospitalised. LIKE DUH!!!!

so lets hope tmrw will be another fun day in sch although there will be a stupid GP essay! ): save me!

2008-03-01T19:53:00.000-08:00

im in a completely holiday moood. Which is often not seen as a good sign. ):
March hols are approaching. Time really flies!!!
And im only spared with 1 week to catch up with friends, complete past tutorials, understand past lectures and also to brush up my horn skills for newyork trip. This feels terribly horrible. i miss my stnicks friends. I wanna meet up with all of them and have fun but sometimes, people just get too busy with their new chapters of life. Well, The usual 3 of us will just meet up again for dinner and chats :D

Anyway, Friday was a happy day. Went back to stnicks with jia and jingwen. The warmth ad familiarity of being back at my alma mater!

anyway im getting irritated with life and happenings around me. Im still not used to it. I miss you two alot ):

2008-02-26T01:55:00.000-08:00

how's life been? terrible. haha alright i should say.. exciting.
This bamboo here fell sick on saturday morning during band with a sore throat and flu. Nevertheless, she insisted on staying for band and going out for lunch with her lovely friends! and next hit down to the breezy and relaxing beach. :D me, chia, oli, da niao, ingma, yiyong(my brother!), rouhui,jiaying, phyllis and yixiang went to the beach after lunching at pasta. Our initial aim was to cycle but we were "captivated" by the nice sandy beach so we sat at the beachy beach and wasted time. Well, it wasnt really wasted. We did stupid things like burying daniel's limbs, making him look like a sand alien that rose from beneath the thousand layers of sand, made cute little turtles, and also giant ones! :D... played frisbee and vandalised the sand! Well, it may seem rather bland here but it was truly enjoyable and lovely! i mean taking some time off to spend time with mother nature and friends and doing childish things once in a while really makes me feel relaxed and at ease. YEAH! thanks friends! Oh we met nathaniel at parkway macs!

pictures!

alright thats about it for saturday! then now sunday.. was exhilarating haha. Woke up with a bad body. In short i had asthma attack. Which resulted in me being really super breatheless and weak. That was the worst attack ever since i was primary 3. It was really freaky because i couldnt walk at all and little movements would cause myself to be out of breathe. ): so i merely sat in front of my piano and practised my songs. By dinner, my mom sensed that i was not in good shape so she sent me to kk hospital. OMG and the moment i met the nurse at A and E, she brought me into the ICU. o_O! it was so damn freaky. and 4 -5 doctors totally surrounded me and started analyzing my condition. Did some rescue work to allow myself to breathe and i had to be on oxygen mask.my mom was so freaked out. I think she almost cried.. ): after an hour or so, i was sent to my ward. OH and did i mention? my mom bought me to the children's department So i was with all the little kids in the ward =.= how stupid. OH but my neighbour is so cute! she has very pinchable butt! and the little indian/malay boy opposite me love to swim around on his bed! haha Anyway,That night at the hospital was terrible. I was gasping for air and my limbs were trembling =\ My attempt to walk to the toilet was entirely devastating. i was totally breathless in the toilet and i had to hurry back to my oxygen mask. Oh and i had to take in 10 puffs of ventolin every half an hour the whole night. so i was practically kept awake by the nurses and doctors that came to review me

The next morning(monday) was much better :D yeaH! my oxygen level went up! by noon, the doctor removed my oxygen mask! :D Im so happy my friends came to visit me! if not i'll seriously be bored to death... THANKS PEOPLE for coming down after school! Really appreciate it =`) ooh Jingwen, Jiaying, Olivia, Gabriel, Yusheng, Mingde, Jialing, Amanda, Nathaniel, Quanli, Kwangyi, Ingma, Yiyong, Jazz, Yongyi, Johnny and kenn jie came! :D so nice to have friends to keep you laughing and talking. My greatest thanks to yusheng for the apples and cheerry tomatoes!, Jingwen for the beautiful bouquet of flowers which i loved so much!!, Jiaying and nathaniel for the converse shoes =.= which i still dont know why you guys bought them for me when im sick ahha, Rouhui for the tomato!, amanda quanli and nat again for the cute blue pillow and card!, jaxx yongyi johnny and kenn for the you tiao with beautiful decorations! really pleasing to the eyes and sweet in my mouth! :D

okay now i'll just have to rest at home till i get too bored and decide to go to sch! i have mc till friday!

2008-02-21T05:36:00.000-08:00

i finally tasted the real meaning of helplessness...

whats with democracy and fairness? whats with all the debates and arguments about equality?

just want you 2 special beings in my life to know, that im really lost without you 2 around me ) : thts not the main thing. But seriously, best friends, good friends are simply not the right terms to describe you guys. Our relationship is really far beyond what is known as friendship. Its really hard to accept that we're going our seperate ways after spending 4 years together. In the same school, same band, same housing area. Going to school, meeting up for short lunches, buying presents, baking cookies, hanging out at playgrounds, loitering in school.. I really never imgaine how it would be without you 2 ): crap.. this sucks..

I'll love you 2 always. and we'll meet up often ya? studying also can :D

2008-02-16T18:53:00.000-08:00

whooopy! its 17 feb 2008.
the past few days have been super hectic and busy! As usual valentine's day has got me to burn holes in my pocket and rack my poor brain cells to think of what presents to get and also making me stay up late into nights to complete my presents. I find it rather worth it though cause its always nice to give!! :D ahah its really nice to see people getting shocked over the fact that you actually prepared presents for them. For example, my class guys! hahaha. After maths tutorial, all the girls just started moving around giving presents to everyone! Then the guys just sat in the first row and receive presents. haha quite funny. I think they didnt expect gifts. OH but my jie bought me a nice present! hahah he bought me a white puppy with pink polka dots because he said i giggle like a puppy =.= haha still, much thanks, cause it cost quite alot. He also bought sheryl a professor bear! thanks kenn! :D its really nice cause a guy like him from VS has never prepared or bought presents for vday.

its pretty nice to have vday to be on a thursday cause its my slackest day! ahha so it gave me lots of time to locate people and pass them their presents. Spent my long breaks sitting on the tree house and crapped with ken henry sheryl and some people. omg my stupid mortal knew who i was long long time ago! ARGHHHHHHHHHH! stupid yusheng, made me look so stupid over all the replies. > :( haha but thanks for the presnt too. really really sweet and nice. :D

okay so moving on! Friday was vj's annual cross country. Rather exhilarating!!!Girls started the run first. Started off with jia, jingwen, olivia and rachel lam. BUt ran off ahead with oli! Got a pathetic 566 haha. It was partly because we started off at the back of the crowd. i was barely halfway through my run and i saw people turning back to school =.= But it was a good run cause i had no stitch and i wasnt tired at all! i could still talk alittle and laugh. haha So i shall aim to get 200+ next year. yay! oh im so proud! the first runner for girls is from stnicks! sonia got third among the girls! stnicks bravo! sat at the tree house with oli to look at the guys run back. haha it was quite funny seeing the guys trying to chiong back to get top positions. Went up to the tree house to chat with oli. (: After everything, me gabriel enghwee olivia and joel went pizza hut to eat! and proceeded to cathay to watch juno!

Saturday(16/2) was STJ. I was dunked by enghwee and junsen. GRRRRRRR. Abit enghwee could just carry me up by one hand. > :( but they didnt dunk me too deep into the water. haha. if not i will just... i dont know haha. it felt really relaxing to sit on the beach near the water and get splashed by the tides on your body, although you'll get very very sandy. haha cycled with j1 band people! oh i didnt know ming de knows how to fix bikes!!!!! so cool! hahah one pro one. cycled with ming de and daniel! haha december babies!!! we are the cutest babies on earth. oh my i had my first alcoholic drink. I totally just grabbed whatever jingwen was holding and gulped down at least 2 gulps of it. OMG and i didnt realised it was vocca sprite! O_o! junsen and jingwen just look at me drink happily without telling me its voccaa!!arghhhh! the after taste feels kinda weird. haha left with jiaying at 9 plus. Didnt dare to walk out together so junsen walked us out. haha Dont think that he was very nice to walk us out. He kept scaring me with all his stupid legends of the road and the underpass. Jiaying just happily collaborated with him!!!! arghhh! okay i reached home safe and sound! flopped on my bed and Zzzzzzzz. im glad i didn stay over. haha

alright. i shall go study and do my hw and catch up with my lectures!!!!! bye

2008-02-07T19:36:00.000-08:00

WHEEEE HI PEEPS! i've finally added links!!!
i figured out how to add codes and links BY MYSELF okay! (: im so proud of myself :D
ahha alright. On the second day of new year, im stuck at home studying bio ): well at least for now. Im going visiting in the afternoon and that means.. no time to study bio. DEAD! i totally never listened to bio lecture (except lipids) and i have to start from scratch to study for bio test on monday. Lesson for the day? Never shut your brains off during lectures. Grrrrr.. whats with all the alpha helix and beta pleated sheet and and all the tertiary and quaternary structure.. i wanna take pheeeeeeeeseeks! ): but its too late to change. and im kinda regretting my choice of bcmg. my cousin was telling me how i was shutting doors to other pathways in life by taking bio and how deadly it is to be studying bio and geog altogether. Thinking about it, bio is really one subject that limits one's future career. Well at least i will be open to engineering and architecture studies if i take physics. And im kinda attracted to architecture studies. DAMN IT SHIT WHY AM I TAKING BIO. not as if i aspire to be a doctor and i doubt my future aim will be becoming a doctor. That is totally out of my reach. okay i should be happy and gay cause its the second day of new year.

and you knwo what! im painting my nails! hahaha specifically toe nails. so i'll be having golden toe nails in 2 mins! :D

alright. i should get my butt of my com chair and study proteins!! :D

2008-02-02T19:29:00.000-08:00

WHEEEE!

These few days have been pretty enjoyable (: Friday was GCD for 08S31 (gone case day!). Many of us were alittle ku ku and high on friday esp me weiling peiyi cheryl and a few more people! hahaha i cant exactly remember what happened during lessons but i remember laughing quite some bit. :D After third period pe, was class dinner! went to roxy square's little food court to makan! YOngyi's face was super red after eating his red wine chicken or smthing along this line. haha! it was hilarious! he lookeed totally drunk!

okay some pictures!

this is peiyi me sheryl and weiling! ;D

and this is part of our class eating at roxy square!

arh har! this is JT sleeping soundly on the bus and us behind him! hahah

victor kissing johnny! : O -gasps

lastly, this is yongyi's red face with jazz's white face!

oaky! so thats for friday! Saturday was band!!! (: the j2s wore their sec sch uniform! its quite funny! cause some of them look very cute!!!! yuxuan look like a little kid! meiyi looks nice though! phy looks.. HAHAHAHAHAH! kahsiong looks beng as usual =P pinrui and kaikeng looks very litttle boy tooo! hahaha renette and xiaojia looks fine (: yusheng looks the same but with more silver buttons! Cant really remember the rest. After band, the j1s went out for lunch at pasta! i left for piano! and chiong home after piano to bathe and change for AHS band concert! me and jia talked on the bus from toapayoh to parkway about must-not-be-named! haha kept laughing and laughing! AH alumni band played ross roy!!!!! and big fun in the sun!!!! and jupiter hymm pop version! haha quite funny! i thought only our band would play songs like big fun. Yusheng's noah ark's trommy solo was damn niceeeee! so imba! but he says its only okay for him =.= oh joel's damn talll! and he's sitting first chair. we could easily spot him when he stand up!

alright, photos another day! im going out to shop with jia jingwen and oli later! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2008-01-31T03:59:00.000-08:00

yo folks. im blogging once again. Well today seem to be a bad day as what weiling predicted in the morning. ahha! so sheryl suggested weiling to predict everyday to be good so every day will be good!

Anyway, every thurs is a slack day with only 3 lessons (: with lots of breaks! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Sat with sheryl on the tree house's bridge and talked about our class and stuff (: had a nice time chatting and sharing our thoughts. Weiling joined in. I think i should really get out of this stnicks thing and try to mix around more like what Sheryl suggested. :D if only we can have the time in the world and just sit on the bridge and stone our day off.. thats only ideal..

Went out shopping with tan jia and jingwen. Its been a long time since the 3 of us went out together :D went to orchard and novena square. Our main aim was to look for bags! but in the end, we ended up buying random stuff and spending our money on food! arghhhhhhh!but i found a nice sports bag (sling/ hand carry) from new balance outlet in novena! yeah! gonna get it soon! its only 45 bucks

eyes speaking of an endless grief
lips open in a wordless cry
let's share the love we atke for granted
try to keep their last hopes alive

hands reaching for their loved ones lost
hearts holding to a flickering dream
let's share the life we waste away
show them that the world truly cares

2008-01-29T04:32:00.000-08:00

i should blog! my blog is getting pretty inactive..

O levels results have been out and i guess the one major and integral event of this year is over. Am i satisfied? i think i should be, although im not very pleased with my results. I could have done better. Its okay. (: at least i know i could qualify for Rj. However, im still staying in vj.

I have been pondering over some issues the past few days cause i've been rather free.. Am i really truely happy in vj? i was wavering whether to choose rj or stick to vj on thurs night, because i realised i wasnt really exactly enjoying myself here, excluding the band part. Im getting all so negative and unenthu and dead in school, which is so not my usual self. Dont ask me why. I just couldnt get myself have fun. Every day seems to pass so slowly and dreadfully.

Anyway, im glad most people in band are staying! though im pretty worried for the 9 pointers! THEY MUST STAY! ESP DANIEL AND JIAYING AND JINGWEN! ): i need daniel to be sitting beisde me to crap during band prac and laugh at ahem ahah! oh and samantha abandoned us for SJI IB programme :O! horrisome! hahah but i'll wish her all the best :D Band's angel and mortal game is still going on pretty well! ahhah everyone is replying enthusiastically! love it. I cant wait for the day of revealation of identities. I've got a intuition my mortal will get a huge huge shock.. MUAHAHAHA!

S31 stayed back to do our banner today. though its very last minute work cause its due tomorrow and we only started today, i think it will turn out well! Who cares about winning? As long as we do our best, i think we should be proud! :D i had fun painting ken's fingers while he was holding on to the board! and trying to attack peiyi and debby with the red paint.. SADLY, my pinafore was stained with black paint when my butt accidentally touched the black tin! grr..

Im so glad many st nicks people are coming to vj for jae! Cecilia, cheryl er(skinny friend!), rachel ng!, rachel ho! and many many! i hope they might come s31 (: then maybe everything might be better.

tomorrow 's inter house game. and that means no band ): i want machu picchu!

STNICKS, MY LOVE LOVE LOVE!

2008-01-23T17:59:00.000-08:00

woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! IM BACK IN STNICKS! AND IM USING STNICK'S COMPUTER IN THE LIBRARY! and keat ying is beside me.. ahah.
cheryl sheng liyi and xiaowei are back facing me, using the coms, wih lots of tables and chairs in between us. okay this is utter rubbish.

ANYWAY, IM SO EXCITED! HAHAH WE'RE FINALLY BACK IN STNICKS WITH THE OTHER JUNIORS! (: red badge ppl are seriously damn on and enthu! so many of us came back to school in the morning to attend morning asssembly. I seriously do mean ALOT! haha and the sch had to leave track lane 7 and 8 for us to stand! so privileged and honoured right! :D i love mrs goh!!! i miss her voice and her love! ahhaha sounds funny but she's my favourite vp/principal ever! as compared to vj's mr chan po meng, she's so much more persuasive, more friendly, more respectful, more enthusiastic, more charming, and more more more more more more more efficient and eloquent (: I LOVE MRS GOH TO THE MAX AND FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEARTTTTT! <3333333 oh and the red badges requested for family dance and line dance! so fun! we danced so enthusiastically!!!and we greeeted the teachers and jie mei men damn damn damn loudly! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D I realised what mrs goh said is true. We usually wont realise how precious some things are until we lose them. Mrs goh was still recounting to the school how we used to say no to almost everything and how we rejected singing our sch song and anthem and pledges loudly. And now, we realised how special and uniqe our sch song and sch pledge are and how proud we are to say them out loudly. We were also cheering madly la! goodness. ahah i bet the juniors were like.. omg the red badge people are mad. But, its always nice to be back to your alma mater with all your blue pinafores mates (: its so heart warming. ): i seriously miss stnicks alot alot alot alot! It just feels good to see stnicks people aroud even though i dont really know them..

okay,i just toured round the class room block and said hi to some teachers! :D i have to say the new syllabus seem so tough and intellectual! i feel so stupid when i stare at the board. haha. Our school just annouced that our physics distinction percentage has been doubled compared to last year's physics distinction! and our chem, bio and combined humanities has increased percentage of distinction too! and we have 99% and above passes for 15 subjects. cant really remember what, but there were maths, amths, pure geog, english, elit, german , french, malay, bio, chem, physics, combined humanities... ahahh! Everyone was damn happy when miss chan annouced it over the PA system to the whole schooL! and as usual, other levels will just cheer and scream for us. stnicks is so damn family based :D

okay shall sign off here. i hope my results.. will be what i want. toodles!

2008-01-15T04:41:00.000-08:00

I NEED TO SHOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
IT JUST OCCURRED TO ME that chinese new year is round the corner! and all i have now is a piece of blue topdress. no bottoms, no accesores, no shoes, no other sets of clothes, no bags!
okay i desperately need to shop. i need to find a bottom that goes with my blue topdress, a necklace and hand bag or clutch. and 2 more sets of clothes. what should i get? im so not catching up with the fashion! people! tell me pls! haha and i needa get a bag for school, preferably a sports kinda bag and a pair of shoes. omg i needa get alot of stuff and it costs of much money. i need a new pair of sneakers ($60), a pair of sport shoes ($130), a bag ($80), a clutch/handbag ($20), a wallet ($20), accesories ($20), flats ($30), clothes ($200). ARGHHHHH! this is madness. i must find a way to cut down. ):

okay bugis street, chinatown, far east plaza, heeren, queensway, HERE I COME!
shopping, anyone?

MY LIFE IS SCREWED TO THE MAX

2008-01-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

I KNOW I SHOULDNT BE LIKE THIS BUT I SERIOULSY MISS STNICKS. THE WAY WE HAVE LESSONS, THE STUPID THINGS WE DO IN CLASS, THE RANDOM ACTS, THE CRAZY SHOUTS AND SCREAMS, THE LAUGHTERS, THE RETARDED LITTLE GIGS. IM RALLY DAMN NOT USED TO THE WAY THE PEOPLE IN VJ ARE STUDYING AND THE WAY EVERYTHING WORKS. AND MY NEW CLASS..SEEMS SO SCARY IN TERMS OF STUDYING. I MEAN..URGH FORGET IT. I FEEL SO STRESSED UP SEEING THEM LIKE THIS. MAYBE ITS JUST ME WHO IS SLACKING. DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT. THE FOOD SUCKS, THE TIME TABLE SUCKS, THE SYLLABUS SUCKS, THE TIME SCHELDULE SUCKS. WELL AT LEAST BAND ROCKS. MINUSING THE PARTS WHERE THERE ARE ALOT OF IMBA(pro and really super super super invcinvible) PEOPLE, WHICH TOTALLY MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A COMPLETE LOSER. BUT OTHER THAN THAT, BAND IS ONE THING THAT MAKES ME WANNA GO TO SCHOOL. THE BAND ROOM WITH THE MATTRESSES AND THE CUTE LITTLE TOYS(WELL RATHER SADLY TORTURED), THE NICE AND FRIENDLY BAND PEOPLE, THE CRAZY LAUGHTERS AND STUPID COMMENTS AND "SHOWS". THE BAND PEOPLE WILL LIFT MY SPIRITS UP UP UP UP UP UP UP UP UP. LIFE IS SO SUCKY. I WONDER IF THINGS WILL TURN OUT BETTER. IM LOSING MY CRAZY AND WILD SELF, LIKE HOW I WAS IN STNICKS. ITS TOTALLY DRAINING AWAY! I MISS JUMPING UP AND DOWN AND DISTURBING PEOPLE, I MISS LAUGHING CRAZILY LIKE NO ONE'S BUSINESS, I MISS SAYING LAME STUFF AND LAUGHING AT IT MYSELF WITH OTHER FRIENDS LAUGHING TOGETHER, I MISS SINGING OUT OF TUNE WITH MY CLASSMATES, I MISS GETTING DAMN HIGH WHEN WE GET SUPER STRESSED OUT. PEOPLE IN VJ ARE SO DIFFERENT.

BUT I REALLY HAVE TO CREDIT MY FELLOW BELOVED BAND PEOPLE FOR BRINGING SO MUCH JOY AND WONDERFUL TIMES AND BRINGING A SECOND HOME IN VJ WHERE I CAN SHUT MYSELF OUT OF THE MESS IM IN. <333333333333333333333 BAND PEOPLE!

2008-01-06T03:39:00.000-08:00

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind. When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply. When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers " I'm fine " after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says " I love you " ... she means it. When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy ... who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns to his friends and says, " That's her!! "

cut and paste this from facebook. found it..rather interesting.

yesterday's night mass dance at suntec was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY FUN AND HIGH! i dont know how to describe it but it was really truly enjoyable and i was feeling very estactic :D adrenaline seemed to be rushing through my blood every sec. yep! and met up with nssn people! miss them so much :D BAND PEOPLE ROCKS..

anyway was just thinking about my cca in vj..

2007-12-31T03:09:00.000-08:00

Im feeling awfully cheated, terribly miserable and horribly dejected.

GRRRRRRRRRR this really sucks ): I feel really really really really really really really really really really really really helpless ):
No one will understand. And i dont intend to tell anyone about this. So it makes everything even worse. There's a voice calling out desperately for sos, just for someone to listen out and understand. ARGHHH! i wanna bang my head...

I dont know why im doing this either. It makes me feel really... i dont know. Its hard to explain. This whole situation is just.. i cant believe im in such position. really.

DAMN IT. I WANNA SWEAR AND SHUT MYSELF IN A WHITE BOX. ): should i head for ecp tonight, just sit by the waters and daze into the dark.

Happy new year's eve friends.

2007-12-28T07:39:00.000-08:00

dman it i have been in really down spirits these few days. I hate feeling all moody and dampened, cause i will not be high and i will not talk and i will not be having fun. Everything around me just seems to irritate me.

On the other hand, its nice to just stone and listen to people and process in your brain and think about stuff. I mean, sometimes people do need their quiet times right. I really had the urge to walk to east coast park to sit on the breakwaters and stone, while listening to the rhythmic lapping of the waves. Good relaxation.

oh just a random remark, i miss stnicks.. horribly. i felt like crying when i was reading the christmas cards from ng, pam, pris, cheryl, june, keat and people. Brought back so much memories and laughter. It kinda finally dawned on me that i've been spending my hols with vj band and nssn people most of the time and i totally forgot about going out with stnicks ppl. ): ANYWAY I MISS POTHOLE ALOT ): REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY ALOT. ) : I MISS STUDYING WITH HER IN SCH TILL LATE EVENING. I MISS TALKING TO HER AND I MISS HER RETARDEDNESS AND CRAPPINESS THE MOST! I LOVE YOU POTHOLE! i hope sch in vj ends early on one of the frist few days of school then i can chiong back to stnicks with my friends! and eat orange bowllll!!!!! excited excited excited!

watched alvin and chipmunks with band people today. We sat in gv and played funny games. had me laughing alot but i had to control. have to remain composed and poised ya! (: okay the show is much cuter than i expected it to be. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to mingde. YOU'RE 16! FINALLY! LIKE ME! HAHA. congrats. you can go play pool and watch nc 16 now. :DDDD

okay. nighties. ):

2007-12-25T20:47:00.000-08:00

hi there everyone. Been some time since i've last updated!
well, life has been pretty wonderful and happy the past few days till now :D
erm minusing all the scoldings i've got from my mother.

Just a brief summary, i have been hanging out with nssn people :D its a great feeling cause all of us started to bond after nssn concert. First, was the jc band fest with nssn people. Second, badminton at tp safra with nssn people again. Third, was band chalet with vj band ppl! Fourth, was st pats concert together with band ppl again and late night supper at lau pat sat. <3333 Fifth, was the little meeting at prata house and icekimo. sixth, was the bomb! 39 band people went to watch a movie at vivo! mind you, it was 39 people. (: kinda cool and amazing thinking about it! It was like an official band outing >D okay let me list out the names. :D

Yuxuan, Daryl, Ziyang, Mieoteng, Kaikeng, Kahsiong, Eng hwee, Charissa, Benedict, Junsen, Shikang, Daniel, Phyllinda< xiaojia, umar, JIngwen tenor, JIngwen alto, yanzhu(me!), olivia, amanda, jialing, Anchun, Quanli, yihao, Nathaniel, Jolene, Kwangyi, Mingde, rouhui, Bingran, Gabriel, Poliang, john, Benjamin lim, derek, ralph, percy, elizabeth, weijie. YEAH! cool or what! :D

Its a great feeling to see everyone so enthu and on about such major gathering! NSSN PEOPLE ROCKS! ;D esp the sec 4s =p anyway photos up! Pictures speak a thousand words. Nssn really made this year's holidays so enriched and fun filled. Anyway the sec4s are going to cycle FLR with kahsiong and 2 friends on 31st. BUT I CANT MAKE IT!!!! ARGHHHHHH ITS GONNA BE SO MUCH FUNNN! ):

TAKING A REST FROM THE TIRING CYCLING EXPEDITION

AND WE START CAWHORING

WE TOOK A PICTURE IN THE MIDDLE OF A ROAD!

CYCLING!

AT BEDOK JETTY!

the white and the brown! haha

taller than quan li li li li li li!

sec4 girls :D

(:

bbq -ing :D

sec 4s at vivo!

jialing, jingwen alto, olivia, jolene, manda and me!

sec 4s again! we are united!

half the band at vivo!!!!!! amazing right!

MSG! a.k.a miss sia's gang!

I LOVE NSSN 2007!

2007-12-20T02:32:00.000-08:00

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! im back from vj band chalet and it was damn funnnn!
:D rented bikes for the whole night till the next day!

so cycled in the afternoon a little! then went to the beach with amanda jiaying jialing olivia and mieoteng!!! played monkey alittle and the sand too! i felt like a kid suddenly! oh and the ball kept running to the water so we had to run after the ball to prevent it from being washed away! ahah and that was how oli got super wet and gave her the stupid idea to make all of us wet! and damn it i was the wettest! The moment we stepped into the water all of them just kept kicking water and splashing haha! i was guilty of doing of that too. THEN, they decided to pull me into the water. To resist them, i sprawled on the sandy beach which ended me having sand all over my head, face and body! > :( AHA! it really feels so uncomfortable to be in a co-ed env. i never had to worry how wet i was and what shirt colour or bra colour i was wearing in stnicks!!! Therefore,before we went back to the chalet, we went to the public toilet to blow ourselves dry! TROUBLESOME!

alright then it was food timeeee! the sec4s just koped all the marsh mellow and the mini bbq pit to cook our food. Went cycling again with the j1s. went back to chalet and went cycling AGAIN with sec4s and 1 j1 (junsen!). He tries damn hard to act young and mingle with us (: so me, jiaying,ruohui, amanda, olivia, jialing, phyllis, alto jingwen, shu huan,louise, quan li, junsen and an chun cycled together to food court to eat dessert! talking about quan li, my dear sister sia! wore pink know! damn gay! haha. so the 3 guys had treat us to desserts!!but in the end we still had to pay! ): ruohui is so fair that she is luminous! HAHA! :D

continued cycling down ecp and cam whored at bedok jetty! damn fun and dark and exciting! talked to anchun alot about band. realised he's quite a good counsellor! haha will make a good conductor :D talked to many phyllis and others about band stuff. cycled back and went cycling AGAIN with some j1s after supper at macs with band ppl. Am i enthu or am i enthu :D haha! went back to the same route but further down to changi safra!!! it was a long journey and my butt was aching horribly. The cycling added on to the already horrendous muscle aches at my arm, thighs and butt areaS ): hahha but it was really happy and enjoyable. I never ever cycled in the night or rather late into the night. We were cycling at midnight! went to changi safra to take a rest! then headed back to chalet cuase we thought FLR to changi village was too tiring and we didnt prepare our "camping" stuff. decided to continue cycling at 5 am! went back and everyone was brain dead.. half dead or completely dead! Me jia amanda oli benedict shixun yihao junsen tried to play cards to wait till 5 am comes but all of us were speaking in slurred speech and not reacting well enough. haha its damn funny. We were all in lala land as said by benedict. OH AND I LEARNT A NEW CARD GAME THANKS TO AMANDA! its called homo! and im still wondering why olivia can misheard it as jelly! its so different! TU DI ARH TU DI! you throw my face away!. homo is quite a nice game!

By 5 am, all of them were like.. collapsing! haha only me and my disciple were still damn enthu and excited and ON about our "cycling" expeidition to FLR! ended up only me oli quanli kahsiong phy bingran and benjamin lim went! We started off really fast and high, but bingran gave up halfway. And this was my third time going past the same route! Neevertheless it was enjoyable! Finally after an hour plus of biking, we arrived at FLR! okay FLR stands for ( F***ing long road!) haha! trust me, its really damn damn damn long and straight road. by then i was already... hahah a little worn out. But it feels really damn shiok! cause we were cycling on the big big busy roadd! with no cars initially. we were damn high and happy and cycled zig zagly like brownian motion cause kahsiong said the road's not open officialy! Then we realised the road was actually open! we saw cars from behind and infront and it was scary trying to maintain in the middle and prevent being hit. =\ freaky but thrilling. LEFTT LEFTT LEFTT!!!! RIGHTT RIGHTTT RIGHTTT!!!! haha. managed to cam whore a little while cycling on this dam big road! AND WE SAW PLANES JUST ABOVE OUR HEAD! it feels as if we can touch it if we jump! its really just above our headS! CAUSE THE RUNWAY WAS JUST BESIDE THE ROAD WE WERE CYCLING ON! It was a good and extraordinary journey! I MUST SAY IT WAS REALLY THE BEST BIKING EXPERIENCE EVER even though i was alittle jittery. aha. THANKS PHY KAHSIONG OLIVIA QUANLI BEN! :D oh and goodness. phy fell 0: and her wound was dripping with blood. Stubbornly she refuses to wash it! i told her to use dews from the leaves but she refuse! tsk tsk.haha And on our way back, she almost crashed into me because she got too high but i dodged! haha! It was really not her day. she kept falling =\

The journey back was tedious. Our legs felt like jelly and we just flopped on the cycling track in the middle of nowhere cause we were too worn out. We couldnt feel our butts! ahhaha. i couldnt stand and walk properly when i arrived at the chalet.. BUT macs breakfast replenished my overly drained energy :D went back to chalet and doze off.

right! thats pretty much what happened yesterday/today. pictures will be up when i receive them!

2007-12-18T20:09:00.000-08:00

" yo morning friends!" - bangs their table!

I miss school, terribly. To be specific i miss stnicks, i miss every bit of it. Even the few split seconds i spent day dreaming and staring into blank air. I miss driving past angmokio and into carpark 26 where i would drop off from my dad's car after saying goodbye. I miss walking past the school auntie who never fails to sit by the gate to make sure every girl, be it pri or secondary enters stnicks safely. I miss hearing her morning greetings and her smiles to little pri sch kids :D I miss walking past the turtle pond and the container classroom which are now.. empty and spooky boxes. I miss walking past the classrom block where you can hear girls' screaming and shouting and chatterings early in the morning which really birghtens up your day. I miss climbing up 8 flights of stairs from the "basement" to sec 1 and 2 level, then to sec 3 level, then to staff room and finally to my classsroom. I miss enjoying the colourful classrooms and which the colours blend so harmoniously and gracefully with each other to create a picturesque view. Standing at the highest level of the building, glancing down at the lower secs always make me feel oh-so-old. It always brings back memories of me when i was in sec 1. Running across the little field in the middle of all the classrooms to look for friends to go down for band drills.

i really miss stnicks ): i needa go back to school. i think i will pon one day of school in vj next year to just visit sstnicks. ): arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh! and the titanic medley playing in the background is making me feel even more bitter and nostalgic!! > :( Thinking about it, it s a wonder i didnt cry on grad night. See, friends make you really happy that one forgets that we are all going different ways after that special night.

Although i know vj will be fun, it will never be like stnicks. Its just different. Wearing stnicks uniform again will also never bring back the same sense of belonging CAUSE WE HAVE GRADUATED OFFICIALLY :(

alright i needa go do my laundry, pack my house alittle, bathe and prepare for vj band chalet. I hope it removes my sadness.

2007-12-14T19:28:00.000-08:00

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! NSSN WAS SUCH A BLAST!
TOTALLY ENJOYED MYSELF :D
and guess what, im still feeling high from yesterday!!!!!!!!!! goodnesss!
Our section should have gone out for late night supper!! and stay out the whole night! that would be so much fun! but many ppl left and i had to leave ):

The whole nssn practise started to gear up last week and everyone got to know each other better (: It was so much better than the past few weeks where everyone juts sat with their own friends and sections. yeah! sec 4s rock!!!!!! met up with tanjia and jingwen at toapayoh before going to parkway to meet section. BUT sadly only 4 of us turned up! me phy mingde azul! pathetic! ahha ate at kfc cause its HALAL! walked around to buy gifts! I MUST GET THAT BIG FAT HUMONGOUS TURTLE SITTING HAPPILY IN MINI TOONS SHOPS! maybe its not even happy at all although its smiling! so i must bring it home so it will truly be blissful :D

yupp. went back to vj with mingde and chatted! now i know why he's so emo on thurs. TSK TSK! DONT BE SO EMO DUDE! BE HAPPY! oh alto jingwen bought the silvery glittery shimmery glamourousy cloth for our vest! i mean sexy vest. it turned out damn sexy pls! it wasnt meant to be that way !hahah tenor jingwen very resourceful man! she came up with the idea to use can drink's metal thingy to join the cloth together and it looked damn coolio! ;D skit prac, technical prac. skit prac is always so filled with laughter :D super hilarious! esp with our fellow sister(anchun) to liven up the atmosphere with his.. gay tactics. As usual, miss ruo hui keep asking me to smell! ARGHHHHH DAMN DISGUSTING! i refuse to breathe using my nose when he's beside moi. =\

damn it! peanut man still owe me 10000 x 3 sacks of peanuts! > :( but im going to get a proper birthday present from him next fridy! YEAHHHH! oh cool man. xiaowei is peanut man's pri sch friend!!!!alright dinner next.. then was the hectic present exchange and attire change!!!! it was super rush trying to find ppl to give present to and trying to receive presents and say a sincere thanks! AND also changing into our attire! OH AND eng hwee was my christmas secret pal. guess what he gave me? A WATERMELON, AN APPLE, AND MANY CHOCOLATES! o_O!!! but still thanks alot! haah its a very cute gift! also, big hugs and kisses to tenor jingwen and tanjia for the spongebob monopoly and christmas card! so now you two owe me christmas present and birthday card!

the concert was quite nice. I LOVE OUR SECTION TIE! anyway i think i played better for practises! kept playing wrong notes for happy ending and and and wind for winds ): so sad! wind for winds is my fave song. anyway, much thanks to juniors who managed to come and support!!!! :D And the lovely roses and carnations and daisies and spongebob balloon!! AND thanks to chia, peiting and sushuen for coming!! :D too bad chia! you didnt get to see him! (: talking about chia, I MET HER IN HONGKONG TSIM TSHA TSUI! :D her hotel was only 2 blocks away from mine!

THE SKIT WAS THE BEST OF THE WHOLE CONCERT! had bouts of laughter! and best, my scene's costume was the best! it was sexy(haha), shimmering and glamourous! but just a little, unsafe cause it keep sliding down ahha! ITt felt super satisfying and happy to hear the audience laughing madly away! :D " left step cha cha cha! right step cha cha cha! front step side step back step and turn!" " ho ho ho horny!"
" ho ho wholesome goodness!" , " he's so fat that when he jumps for joy, he gets stuck!" hahah SKIT ROCKS! :D OUR MAGICIAN SCENE ROCKS TOO! jingwensss, jiaying, meiling, liling, betty, yuxuan, zhiyang and matthew! wooohoooo!

Once again, horn section had to fake our victorian anthem! quite sad ): i really wanted to play!!!! arghhh! vj cheer was like crazy and messy! it was a lump of unfathomable words! but I managed to shout V-I-C-T-O-R-I-A! bravoooooooo! but i still love snsb's cheer! it's so unique and nice! :D horn section was instructed by kahsiong to hurry leave so no need to pack =P! took section picture!!! :DDDDDDD and started my cam whoring mode! woohoO! took lots of pictures!! with section, with scene ppl , with my christmas pal, with stnicks brothers and sisters, sec 4s! WHEEE!now i need to chase after ppl to get peeektures! :D stayed in school till near 11 to take pictures! so funnnn! the sec4s really started to get more bonded after the intensive band prac and nssn! damn heartwarming (: shixun suddenly told us that he will miss playing with us!and i was like shocked cause he seldom talks! whahah

I WILL TRULY MISS PLAYING AND LUNCHING WITH MY SECTION PPL ): phy! kahsiong! edna! ruo hui! ben! quanli (peanut man!)! mingde! azul! and er khaizer. ): azul better get into vj after o levels results are out! then me mingde ruohui and azul will be section mates again with phy edna and kahsiong! :D

now i need to prepare to go to stnicks to wish juniors all the best for their christmass concert at IMM!

pictures soon!

2007-12-03T18:40:00.000-08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH! IM UTTERLY FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF.
WHY DO I HAVE TO FALL SICK JUST 2 DAYS BEFORE IM FLYING OFF TO HK! ):

SO FREAKING FED UP WITH MY BODY ): stupid asthma. why do you have to plaque me.
and damn it, im on medication once again. I've been eating antibiotics like more than 10 times in a year and this is not good at all. Im getting skinnier by the day. And i can never have a good night's sleep with me wheezing through the night and unable to breathe properly. URGHHHHHHHHh!!!!!!! and i dont wanna die of an asthma attack ) : its scary. alright touch woood. Dying will only exist in my life 80 years later (:

And im glad sectionals have been cancelled due to unforeseen circumstances as said by kah siong. If not, i wil be missing yet another sectionals. oh anyway! i wanna attend the jc band fest concert!!!! but jingwen wont be in singapore ): and She wont be around to celebrate my brithdayyyyyyyyyyyy! -WAILS AND CRIES HYSTERICALLY. After nssn concert, i guess i will be pretty free and empty some how. maybe i should... go stayover at sam's house or...continue to practise on my horn till i improve. >:( Goodness, i really do hope i can get into vj for pae :O if i end up in ajc or smthing i will just... wallow myyself in sorrow. OH YES! i needa pay sentosa a visit. I MISS SENTOSA!!!!!

OKAY BACK TO MY HEROES!!!! i shall be meeting chia in hongkong.. in....a day's time! (:

2007-11-30T01:47:00.000-08:00

HELLO FRIENDS! im back from uploading all the hundreds of pictures i took on prom!

here's the link!
www.yanzhu.shutterfly.com

anyway im ultra bored at home!!!!!!! should have gone down to vj to prac with louise since she needed a partner to go with her. well, i shall go on monday and tues to prac and familiarise myself with my parts! AND IM PRETTY DEAD CAUSE IM FLYING OFF ON WED AND COMING BACK ON SUNDAY! this means im missing 2 band pracs!!!!ARGHHHHHHHH! and when i come back, it will be intensive band practise till the 14 dec which is not-so-silent night concert! :DDDD im so happy that my section's going down to support. And many ppl are too! Oh and im glad to also say this whole vj band concert thing has been rather pleasant (: This is so enticing!!! i might be receving lots of flowersssss on the concert day!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHA. random..

I just realised..hols will be ending soon ): and i havent been going out with my friends!!!! ): I was suppposed to go sentosa with miss aw and another sentosa date with pothole. I was supposed to go shopping with sammy and i was supposed to go cycling with ryan and sam! Then, i was supposed to go for movie marathon at chia's house and at cheryl's house. I was supposed to play badminton and exercise alot during the hols! I was supposed to eat many many foods with my friends! I was supposed to go for section outing and i was supposed to... the list will just go on and on forever.

2007-11-28T20:19:00.001-08:00

IM FINALLY BACK HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I MISS MY MOM AND MY BRO AND DAD. haha. Ever since i left home on monday morning, i was like a busy bumble bee buzzing from place to place!

Firstly, was prom on monday. Met skinny er at city hall and walked to carlton to meet up with our make up artist and hair stylist. THE HOTEL ROOM WAS GORGEOUS,well for a moment. As more ppl arrived the room was like a pig sty! anyway, the person's hair styling skills were not bad, at least for me. i liked my hair style.. As for the make up, its a little too plain and it looked as if i didnt put anything. But im pretty glad it managed to cover up my flaws on my face. I have to say that all of us looked so glamourous and elegant!!!! you should have seen the ballroom. (: it was a beautiful sight! hahah. BUt i supposed we are alittle unglam. Some of us got so irritated with our heels that we started walking bare footed and we totally threw away our table etiquette. (: We practically lunged into the food when it arrived! Just to spice up this post a little, pamela tan heng yen wore a pretty brown silk dress with heels! and she actually asked me to apply lip gloss for her! AMAZING?!?!? (: she looked fabulous btw! Pictures will be up...later! i shant elaborate on the details cause the post will get super lengthy. I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND I LOVE STNICKS RED BADGE! <3333 oh and i danced my family dance properly and enthusiastically for once WITH 2 INCH HEELS! AND I SANG IJ SPIRIT BURNING BRIGHT! (: PROM WAS SUPERBBBBBBB! minusing the part where many of us had to try dman hard to keep our ahem in place ahah!

STAYED over at carlton hotel. oh we walked out at 2 am to buy food cause i was hungry! ahha. okay.. i was supposed to have sectionals on tues lluckily it was cancelled! so i have alittle time to rush home, put down my stuff, rest a little before chionging off to stnicks for band camp. saw ongy pongy (: i totally avoided miss sia. louise was there too! jingwen jia simin elaine celeste peiting uly phy came back for swearing in. the sec 4s plus phy and louise plyaed the chair game from vj on the track! haha we got super agitated and aggressive. but it was fun. Some juniors got really violent and many started falling off the chairs. hilarious sight :D sleeping was kinda horrible. the room was freaking cold and i was shivering incessantly on the wooden hard cold floor ): and many ppl came running through the rooms and never failed to wake me up. PLUS, the movie room and gambling den were making such a racket that i couldnt sleep! so there goes my orh orh time. slept from 3 plus to 7 ): oh then came the crazy part. JIngwen jia and me decided to cab home from sch. so we waited at the track gate. However, the taxis passing by were all hired or on call. We started speaking gibberish and made no sense and laughed stupidly at every thing. THIS IS THE AFTERMATH OF INSUFFICIENT SLEEP WHICH INDUCED INCOHERENCE AND INSANITY. reached home and took at short nap but i lost track of time. jia called me and reminded me of band prac at 2 at vj!!! AND I MISSED MY LUNCH ):

Anyway during band prac, i was so dreamy that i totally didnt play half of english christmas. bad bad. met peiting outside vj to go for pri sch chalet at pasir ris. We were kinda dreading it ahaha but it turned out pretty fine. (: didnt eat much of the bbq food. chatted with the girls. OH aha me and sharyn started talking about sia the moment we saw each other. li chun, yixin, sharyn jingying, peiting, angleine huang and ng, xinying and sylvia were there! WANCHUN AND TAN JIEYING PANGSEH US! JIEYING YOU BETTER WATCH OUT! ME AND PEITING WILL MURDER YOU. anyway the guys changed alot. Couldnt recognise many many of them. Kept asking peiting " who is he?" haha. i must say im starting to get more familiarised with bridge! i played bridge from 8 plus in the night till 5 am in the morning. COOLIOOO! Its super funnn trying to guess who your partner is. But im still lousy at that. practice makes perfect yea! so i shall play it more often! wah lao edmund is super gay! he and gabriel just act super couply and lovey dovey in front of me and peiting. GAY TO THE MAX!!!!the guys are pretty entertaining thou. me and peiting laughed through the night. Played bridge throughout the night and slept at 5. woke up at 8!!!! goodness. felt super tired. Im so glad that sectionals was cancelled. if not i think i'll just doze off playing my horn.NOW, I SHALL GO BATHE, GRAB SOMETHING TO FILL MY EMPTY STOMACH AND SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPP!

i have a sudden carving for delifrance food and haagan daaz choc fondue!!!!!

ij spirit burning bright, fill our hearts with love and light.
Light that shines for all to see, love that sets our spirits free.

2007-11-24T05:49:00.000-08:00

wheeeeee i survived yet another band practice in vj band (: oh and i chatted alot with louise today! -VIBRATE LOUISE VIBRATE!

i think i really have to improve. I TOTALLY SUCK! ):
anyway, the band is really coolio! Almost the whole band went out to eat tgt! like will you see us, snsb waiting for each other to makan? well, perhaps only after compeitions or major events. BUT i still love SNSB (:

And pls say im a good and punctual girl! i reached school at 735! :O bus 13 travelled so fast today!!!! To think i actually woke up at 545 to prepare for band prac. Grrrrr. Bus rides to and fro to marine parade gets on my nerves!!!!! How i wish Rj and Vj could just simply change their sites! and wheeeee i will just have to walk to vj! :DDD all problems solved.

ONE MROE DAY TO GRAD NIGHTTTTTTTT! and im pretty dead cause i havent got ready all my required stuff and yea.. i have only 1 day left! 1 day!!!!!! next monday onwards will be super hectic for me! monday will be prom! tuesday, SNSB will be having band camp but my section will be having sectionals!!! and wednesday, im having pri class chalet but but but im also having band prac which timing is in the middle of the day!!!!! goodness!!!!!! and i cant afford to miss band practise and sectionals because im going overseas from the 5th to 9th and this means missing 2 band pracs ): =\

ARGHHHH! alright. I shall let nature takes its course (: suo wei chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi! (: everything will turn out fineeeeeeeeee! :D

Rehearsal after band prac at zhang's house was ahaha! we waited for ppl to arrive for 1 hour plus okayyyyy! I have to say i really enjoyed their company and the singing and everything makes me miss all my friends even more ): I LOVE STNICKS! I LOVE GIRLS! HAHAHAHAH it totally sounds wrong! prom shall be cam whoring for me!

till then..

2007-11-23T05:52:00.000-08:00

contacts are officially not my good friends. They refuse to make friends with my black small pupils and they refuse to break off from their cage to enter a new world in my eye >:( They made me stay in the macdonalds toilet for such a long time and made my friends wait for me. BUt much thanks to rachel ng and keat and zhang who tried very patiently to teach me how to put in and relax. Esp zhang who volunteered to put in for me (:

Back to my story. Contacts caused my eye to hurt badly and dehydrate it till it becomes so dry. However, eventually, they gave in to my unwavering determination and settled there for an hour or so before i realised i placed the lens into the wrong eye. -.- call me blur or retarded. I would choose the latter. (: hahaha!

YAY! and thnaks to sammie twammie that i managed to get my contacts into my eye!!!!!! i felt so disheartened that the contacts couldnt get into my eye ) : wanted to cry. Who wants to wear specs to prom!!! i felt so discouraged that i was determined to put it inside haha. Ironical. yay and tadaaaa! idid it! but i cant seem to see very clearly with my contacts. Shall wear it more often.

anyway gtg! bye!

im tired.

2007-11-22T02:51:00.000-08:00

wheeeeeeeeeee its almost 2 weeks after O levels!
and sadly, im getting pretty bored..
Seriously, im not spending my hols as meaningful as i wanted it to be.
Firstly, I haven't found a job. Secondly, I keep thinking about prom. Thirdly, oh whatever, the list will go on and on and on and on and on .....

I was starting to get a little, just alittle nostalgic that im leaving st nicks ):
I'll miss the uniform and the low belt, and the sng socks and red badge. I 'll miss seeing all the red badge people, even those that i dont know, around school. I have a feeling that i will feel weird not seeing them walking around ): I'll miss.. my classmates! I'll miss our colourful school building which we all initially thought it resembled a kindergarden school. After some time, it really looked super vibrant and lifts our spirits!!!! And i know this is crazy, but i will miss morning assembly, mrs goh and family dance! hahahaha! I'll miss our savoury foods in the canteen! I will miss our loveable but a little abnormal juniors (: cute in a way yea, i must say. OH I 'LL BE GOING BACK FOR BAND CAMPPPPPPPPPPPP! like puh-lease, im such a nice senior. I BET I WILL HAVE RED CARPET TO WELCOME ME all the way from whatever gate im gonna enter from to the band room! then they will all play fanfare for me! liberty fanfare! Lastly, to end, i will pretend to be super surprised and touched and i will start weeping in delight. (: THE END!

well okay, lets talk about something else. Saturday tune in was quite oaky. 7 stnicks ppl went. its quite a big group! And i was having so many butterflies fluttering in my little stomach. I was super afraid and petrified. the people are super pro! ) : i felt so lao pok there. Didnt even dare to warm up, so i sat in my section staring and observing everyone. lucky phy was there. if not i would never squeeze any words out of my mouth. Im glad that phy is there. She is really helpful and nice (: oh and cheryl from tkgs went! another person i knew (: rouhui, a nygh girl , and she's damn pro! she's from SYO(singapore youth orchestra) and she got in hrough DSA! and there were many people, particularyl in my section. THERE WAS 12 SEC 4 HORNS WHO WENT! -faints. yea then me jw and chia went to makan at parkway and we started crapping about bedok! quotes:" lets go to BED-ok?" ahahhahah!

Then came band prac on wed. As usaul i was super scared and everything before it, but i guessit went pretty okay minusing the parts where i couldnt play and sight read. OH i went to collect my contact lens yesterday and the damn person refuses to teach me. well, he taugh me verbally and very quickly. like does it even help? goodness. i better try to stick it in my eye before monday. MY EYES ARE SO SO SO SO SO SMALLLLL! hahahha maybe my contacts will help enlarge it alittle (:

OKAY! and i went for self prac today! saw sonia practising track there! self prac, but i didnt really prac much cause i didnt wanna embarrass myself!!!! ) : MY SL and another guy from vs is like super damn pro! i bet the moment i play, everyone will just faint and start foaming. well, its abit melodramatic. but yea.. alright. i shall stop here!

tomorrow's prom rehearsal. i hope it goes smoothly. OKAY IM SURE IT WILL!

2007-11-13T02:22:00.001-08:00

o levels are officially over.im happy.

AM I CALM OR WHAT!

WHAT THE HELL! O LEVELS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
AHAHAHAHHAAHHA THIS IS SO UNBELIEVEABLE! IT SEEMS LIKE ONLY YESTERDAY THAT WE TOOK OUR AMATHS PAPER!!!! hahahahahaahahhahahahha!

now, its preparation for prom night which may seem fun but think about it, its such a hassle. ARGH I HATE BEING SO INDECISIVE AND FICKLE MINDED! saw a dress that seems to fit me alot. but on second thought, its quite short, like above my knee. btu its really to my liking. what more, its only 60 bucks! CHEAP RIGHT! i mean affordable. i tried a danie yam one although i really like it alot, cause it has so many laces and cloth flying around me, but it makes me look..old. OH my goodness. me and rachel tried this dress at isetan and its so freaking low cut. GOT A SHOCK OF MY LIFE! i kept laughing in the room. ahahah well, my mind is kinda set on that 60 bucks dress. BUT its only one size percolour! i hope no one takes it and i hope no one of my skinnynesss patronise that shop. =\ again, im afraid a fter buying it i mght regret or start to dislike it because this always happen after i bought something. > :( THIS IS SO HORRIBLE!

haha everytime i close my eyes, dressses just appear in my mind. is this known as OBSESSION? dresses are really beautiful but well, they are not meant for my daily wear and not suitable for a skinny and uhhh rather bad looking person here. ANYWAY, i wanna shopppppppp! but i need money =\ desperately. I ASPIRE TO CHANGE MY WHOLE WRARDROBE OF APPARALS! i need jeans, tops, jackets, shorts, t shirts and bags. Good thing, that im not crazy over CDs or what so ever. if not, my expenses will shoot up the sky and cause a star to drop.. (: sounds familiar? ahaha.

I WILL SHOP AND SHOP FOR MORE DRESSES (: trying dresses is simply fun! ahaha

Jubilate IV: Choir (Jaakobin)

2007-11-05T03:40:00.001-08:00

this video is from stnicks jubilate 07 in may! (: i love the song. so mystical!

and this is our pri sch violinist. damn pro! i totally admire her!

our chinese orchestra! i still rmbr chia telling me about teh very catchy part ahha!

goodness. im like exploring youtube. (: i saw our band's balloon hat festival performance.. bad recording though. ahaha
i think there will be more coming up!

2007-11-05T03:05:00.001-08:00

ahah found this video clip on youtube and thought it was rather.. ermmm well innovative? haha talking about singapore's policy of moving towards a knowledge based economy and encouraging people to be more innovative. i guess st nicks girls really do make the mark!

another video found. this is one of the best quality! not shaky, its clear and steady! woah! anyway i realised sports day was months ago..a haha! All of us totally lost track of time doing our O levels. I thought this month was october and rachel ng thought 15 nov has passed and threw a carton of drink away which states that the expiry date is 15 nov! haha kept me laughing for a few minutes. anyway the cheer routine is quite nicee! but mr imran (that man in black jacket) well... (: haha I suppose he was trying quite hard, quite hard to act as rain. He seems to be lacking some rhythm sense..

AND i was trying hard to look for enid enid enid in the cheer routine! where are you eneeeedddd! ahhaha.

OUR LAST HORRRRRRRRIBLE PAPER IS FINALLY OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! just a brief summary, all other papers were okay except physics and biology and history. well at least for me. BUT i shant brood about it! :D im gonna enjoy myself and pack my room which is piled up with mountains of paper. St yanzhus. Numerous St Yanzhus. Talking about slacking, i have been addicted watching cartoon movies thanks to audrey shih! haha maybe its also partly due to my kiddiness. I just watched barbie: fairy topia! such cartoons are really lighthearted and sweeet! and they make me happy (: if only the world we live in is so colourful and cute. I SHALL WATCH MORE CARTOON MOVIES SOON!

having nightmare pimple breakout. all biology's and ss's fault >: (

last random comment: IM EXCITED ABOUT GRAD NIGHT! (without my oooglie pimples)

2007-10-22T03:13:00.000-07:00

MAY ALL MY BELOVED SEC 2 JUNIORS GET INTO TRIPLE SCIENCE!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAH! :D

bye off for more amaths, chem and geog ( : i will do well for O levels! i will!

haha pls watch!

2007-10-15T05:10:00.001-07:00

just a break from the tedious studying ;D

2007-10-12T01:37:00.000-07:00

Its the last day of school today ):
it feels really sad and heartbreaking that im leaving this beautiful, heartwarming and pretty school ): despite some little dislikes here and there, stnicks is still the best :D Our school has the most charming scenery with our luxurious green trees and sloped grass lands, little terrace houses dotting the background, complementing the elegance of our school buidling. The brick red track which runs merrily in numerous circles, with the bright green turfs of grass held in a circular band by the circling red rows. SO BEAUTIFUL!

and our school is just so green eh? potted plants can be found everywhere and you can see patches of green grasses and tall trees everycorner. Piano-s too are situated everywhere! OMG ); stnicks is heaven.

It still seem a little unbelieveable that i've been through 4 years in stnicks and i am leaving this home..Over this four years, i feel that i have grown alot..as in, really alot. and changed alot too :D All i can say is that i really love stnicks till the end of the world and i've never met so many bunches of friends from st nicks who are so fun and loving and COOOL! ahha sounds funny but yea.. COOLIO!

im gonna miss so many ppl!( that is if we are going different schools) esp pamela, cheryl er, keatying, sheng, cecilia, blah blah many many! and POTHOLe! SHE'S THE CRAPPIEST FRIEND I'VE EVER MET AND THE ONLY WHO CAN MAKE ME LAUGH FOR HOURS ): she's the one who makes thurs so special eh? aahhah and the one who knows how to respond to my "coldness" and 'retardedness". right dumb dumb pothole? Not to forget, jingwen and jiaying who are my bestest band friends :D since sec 1 we have been together esp jingwen (: love you lots and thanks for all the complaining and heart to heart talk sessions :D but since i guess we are going to the same jc, i wont think of you that much! ahahahha. OH and i'll miss distubring chia and regi and sonia during morning assembly! i will miss standing infront of them ): On a lighter note,im quite glad that many ppl are going to vj, like NG, debsy doodle, prissy, june, jingwen, jiaying, enid, rachel CHIA!(omg she's going to the same sch and joining band =\), peiyi, jianglin, mengtian, xiaowei,peiyi, jingying, jieying and maybe peiting! oh sarah tan, pamela, regina sim, guo bao, sally, karen are going njc! and poor things, ONLY cheryl er and shengy are going RJ! well, i will work hard for Os together with pothole and make our way there! right pothole?

FRIENDS, I LOVE YOU!

hehe i've camwhored alot these few days! some pictures here!

i drew that sad human. ):

we are the black hair-ed monsters.

roof top garden!

mrs tan and biology students

heheh scandalous right

studying cum cam whoring with enid and wen wen. aha

4p at church with miss yee :D

playground!

karen xiaowei and me

communicator and me! after morning jog.

peiting cheryler and me!

MUAHAHAHHAHAH!

shall post more another day! :D

2007-10-05T02:28:00.000-07:00

it has been weeks since i've last updated.
Blogging seems kinda meaningless now. and i think i have grown up, in my thinking and my height (:
Anyway, just a confession, i really do miss band and the people, minus the stupid conductor. I guess since i have no post to burden me, i am free to throw insults to that stupid woman whom i really detest to the core of the earth.

Returned from Rj's open house. It was really fun, well cause i spent it with pris and debsy (: thanks friends :DD THE SCHOOL IS REALLY HUGE AND GIGANTIC! it is 8.65 hectares!I LOVE IT! its damn spacious and full of secluded areas where it will be super relaxing to just sit around and chit chat with friends :D but it is also a perfect place to make out, as suggested by pris =p hahah! watched the band's performance and dance performance.
the baand played selections from MAMAMIA! AND ITS EXACTLY THE SAME ONE THAT WE PLAYED TWO YEARS AGO IN SNSB! so nostalgic. ) : really miss the times with mr horny and fellow section mates. i could still roughly remember my part and started fingering and shaking to the beat! (: brasses still rock THE MOST! anyway im determined to master the skill of playing trombone and trumpet before i die. So yeah i will earn lots of money and learn it even when im 60 plus BECAUSE I WILL LIVE TILL IM 2000000 YEARS OLD! hahahah the dance by WENJUN'S dance troupe was superb. i was watching every step in awe! i think me and deb and pris were really impressed. it was super rhythmic and exuberant and vibrant!!!! -claps..
oh and the sports display at the amphi theatre was .....erm.....errm..cute, in a way hahaaha.. i kept laughing. Well, it was REALLY CUTE. i have no other words to describe it.the gym display was amazing.The guys slam themselves HARD, i mean real hard, on the mat and pris said, " ouch how's your thingy!" ME AND DEB JUST STARED AT HER WITH OUR MOUTHS WIDE OPEN. :O! overall the sports display was.. CUTE.the jazz club in the lecture hall was really cool too (: SAM WAS FROM THAT CCA! SO PROOUD OF HER! I'VE GOT A COOL COUSIN IN A COOL CCA, WHO CAN SING REALLY COOL SONG WITH COOL ACCOMPANIMENTS! Coooooolioo!

the three purple slackers toured the school by ourselves, call us pro or what! It's impossible to say that im not attracted to RJ, but considering my mediocre marks and my inability to adapt to such an eng and stressful env, AND also my parents' silent disapproval, i guess i had better throw the thought of getting into rj right out of the window, pass the causway bridge, fly over selangor genting and cameron highlands and to china and russia and across the artic ocean and get drowned in the freezing cold waters, disappearing forever!

BUT STILLL.......... ) :

much thanks to the ex stnicks girl who brought us around later towards the end of the open house. I KNOW SHE IS SHUMIN'S GOOD FRIEND! I KNOW SHE IS!

i've sorta finalized my unmoderated score of prelims and i seriously am not happy with my results. i feel really stupid btw. as in, i guess no one exactly understand how i feel, btu i appreciate those friends who tried to cheer me up and talk to me. it's horrible seeing every one in my class doing so well while i am just so far away from them. they seem to be in shenton way while i am in jurong.OKAY THAT WAS A REALLY SENSELESS DESCRIPTION.. anyway, i think i should have gotten used to it long time ago. I've got the first from the back for sec3 term 4 ppr and first from the back again for sec 4 term 3 ppr. call me stupid or dumb. choose either. And english was really heart wrenching. i carried high hopes that i would get an a2 for it. free writing was well done, with a 21/30 which i had never gotten before. but situational just dragged me down damn badly and the resultant grade = B3. depressing eh.

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I will be attending vj'c open house and go visit the band! (: i am supposed to bring a huge banner for phyllinda :D and pris deb and cc and i will be studying by the beach! and it shall be a really productive one! 8 A1s, here i come. PRAY HARD THAT I CAN GET INTO VJ FOR FIRST THREE WEEKS.

i dont know what to say but i feel like trash when im with you..

2007-09-15T09:11:00.001-07:00

when i'm angry, i cry.

I don't know why.

Stop it. If this continues, I'm going to burst. Mind you, i will scream and slam the door right in your face. You have your temper, i have mine too. Don't you dare trifle with my thinning patience and tolerance.

I wanna step out and leave, concentrate fully and do well for my o levels.

2007-09-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

My hands are itching terribly to blog about something, so here i am.
I need to make this brief and short and fast!!!

Sadly, fellow stnicks girls had to commemorate our most impt day in sch at day - teacher's day D: Due to an unexpected massive power failure in school at a really unearthly time of 10 plus in the night. But it was really quite a feat that almost everyone managed to get the message that school was cancelled (: Much thanks Our efficient exco members. i must say, that night was really crazy and rowdy! I praactically threw my english books down and ran to the com! I had near 10 conversations popping up on the screen! i was busy trying to manage all the convys making sure i did not talk on the wrong convy! And i was busy picking up phone calls and receiving calls from my monitors. IT WAS FRANTIC AND TENSE!
well, but kinda disappointing. My last teacher's day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! > :( why did this have to happen. Talking about teachers, I'm realy lucky to have such dedicated and caring teachers in stnicks. Never have i met any teacher that i know in stnicks that were like my pri teacher. Pri sch was horrible. STNICKS ROCK! ;D
Miss Yee, miss choo, mrs tan, mrs sherwood, mrs brenda tan, wu lao shi, chen yong meng lao shi, mr imran and MRS GOH OF COURSE! ;D well and all (: Thinking about it, i have never been back to my pri sch, ever since sec 1??? So unfilial. I seriously do not have any memorable or wonderful memories there. well, perhaps badminton was the only thing i was passionate about and my student care friends (:

I SHOULD SPEND THE REMAINING DAYS IN STNICKS TO CAM WHORE WITH FRIENDS, TEACHERS AND THE BEAUTIFUL SPIRITUAL HOLY LOVING AND WARM SCHOOL ENV (: AND FOOD..

I think all those mugging have made me skinner. I feel like a freak. I cant study well, I cant play my horn now which is totally depressing, I am so skinny that i look aneroxic, and my pimple out break is killing me.

anyway, i have a pact with dearest chia. We're gonna have a movie marathon of horror movies =\ and massive campaign to fatten me up AND to teach me how to play tennis. :D
i just hope i do not smash the racket into chia's face =P

2007-08-25T03:09:00.001-07:00

Another week passed.
And i was pissed off to the max in class almost everyday. Okay, this is so typical of me to be angry. CHILL MAN, STUPID YANZHU. I guess being in my class made me even more hot tempered than i am in nature. Not laudable at all. AND much apologies to deborah ho ahah whom i always complain and whine to in class ) : I SHALL STOP ALL THESE CRITICISM AND COMPLAINTS! well, i'll try.

Thursday was fun with pothole, like usual. Her sole presence could just make me laugh and plus her stupid nonsense, it was sufficient to make me unable to eat my orange bowl. ): i took more than half an hour to eat just one $1 loashufen dry with alittle alittle chili! -.- DANG! went to visit band with elaine and weiling and sat infront of the band in the hall. Well, sia's voice kept booming in the hall and kinda miss it huh. BUT i would never want to experience it ever again. NO WAY. OH and later i brought weiling to sit at the stairs at the carpark outside the hall to listen to them haha! THEY PLAYED SINGAPORE RHAPSODY! MY MISSED FAVE ): It never fails to bring back so many memories from SYF 2005. Sitting at the stairs did made us look very emo! hahah

Talked alot about our class and yea. I guess we are pretty much in the same predicament. thanks for the talk! I LOVE POTHOLE. and tuition was H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S. the new chem teacher kept mispronoucing her words like acids, bases, and SOCKS! plastic became BLASTIC. heheheheheheheheheh.

njc open day was kinda cute as the sch hired bus to send us there! GREAT SERVICE HUH!
(: but i left early at 430 so didnt get to tour the sch and visit the different ccas. IT TRIGGERED MY EXCITEMENT TO VISIT MORE SCHOOLS! im looking forward to Rjc's and Vjc's open house (:

IN THE MEANWHILE, i should kkick my butt and study study study. Prelims are in a few days' time and im really scared.

random updates!

2007-08-17T07:45:00.000-07:00

hah! i survived another much-higher-degree-of-hecticness week.
Right, I'm pretty sure that is not an official word. (hecticness?)

As my title suggests, this post will be just some random updates of the previous week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I must say all the tests we have weekly are so engraved into us that we simply do not bother how many tests we have any more. And i realised all the whiny complains about how many tests we are going to have next week or the week ahead is totally obsolete from our lives. Talking about growing up and having so little time within our grasp that all these little 'wastage" of time seems to much to risk. Even i have forgotten what tests i have sat for the whole of this weeeek. IT'S BECOMING A DAILY ROUTINE! This brings me back to 3 years ago when i was still a erm... gullible andd rather immature little maniac. We were complaining unremittingly over just, 1 TEST which is only 2 chapters that was a mere 15 pages or so, with large graphics. -.-
I should have just shut up and foresee what life will be 3 years down the road.

Well, we;ve survived a geog mockkkkkkkkk! yeaH! i remembered how our whole class felt so jittery and panicky about the test and just a few mins before it, everyone seemed deranged. haha

I just came back from the overseas education talk held in our drama studio. The usa education seems rather appealing. The speakers were cool too.they were from usa!but the qualifications for University in Usa is much higher than canada, australia. Im gonna work hard and get a damn schlorship! Studying overseas is so much quicker and recognised than Singapore. But acutally, our NUS is quite recognised :D But i would love to experience life overseas especially in a 4 seasoned country. The scenery and outdoor activities are much more enthralling and exciting than what we can find here. The environment is very conducive and the school building has victorian taste in it, which is just so rich in culture! And i would defnitely want to learn how to speak perfect english (: i was damn captivated by the two speakers from USA. Going overseas allow you to be almost a year or so ahead of local students and we have a niche above them if we were to go overseas. AND WE GET TO GO INTO THEIR UNIVERSITY JUST ONE YEAR AFTER STUDYING IN THEIR COUNTRY! Our sec 4 grade is equivilent to their last grade in high sch and after which , they proceed to UNIVERSITY! ITS DAMN FAST! :D and in usa, we can get to study a few courses for bachelor/associate degree when we haven't decide on what to major in. When we decide to major in something which is somehow related to our courses, we can get our master's degree. OH BTW, one has to spend 15 years in USA to graduate from medicne faculty O_O! THIS MEANS I WILL BE STILL STUDYING WHEN IM... 31 ahahaha! well, i shall throw that out of my mind. I wont wanna waste my 20-30 years of age, burying my face in books and out of my homeland. Im still rather inclined to study overseas. Perhaps i'll get a bachelor degree there(usa, canada,uk or aust though i dont raelly like the rumoured discrimination there) after my A levels (3-4 years) [ ): ): ):] then i'll come back to singapore to get my master's degree. whoosh i will be around 27 my goshness! I was still thinking if i have time for my phD! godnessss!

In the meanwhile, I WILL STUDY HARD FOR O LEVELS AND A LEVELS!

Sometimes i wonder what is the main objective behind, studying so hard and getting all these high degrees. So after i graduate from studying life, I'm gonna work and work and work till i die. hmmm....i think i would rather study and study and study till i die.

2007-08-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

yeahhhhh! omg im damn excited and happppppy todayyyyyyyyyy!
I'VE NEVER FELT SO PATRIOTIC AND DAZZLED AND SO ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT NATIONAL DAY BEFOREEEE! LIKE AFTER 15 YEARS OF CELEBRATION! hahahahahaha.
well, to begin with.. i left my house at 430 with my family to head to marina area, where suntec city and esplanade are..
The entrance place was really bustling and vibrant! the whole NATIONAL DAY and patriotism was filling up every corner, every heart, every insect, every living thing present.Everyone there, be it Singaporeans or non Singaporeans, chinese, malays, eurasians, indians were all clad in all shades of red and white. erm well, not my family in this case. I get super proud and estatic when i spot a Eurasian or a caucasian or a tourist wearing our Country's majestic red and white colour-ed clothings :D But i must say, i think almost 3/4 of the singapore popluation was out at this area. IT WAS REALLY PACKEDDDDDDD! I'VE NEVER SEEEN SUCH HUMONGOUS CROWDIN MY LIFE! Today's experience was a real eye-opener for me. Though it may seem kinda intimidating, it held tinges of sweetness and togetherness. Never will one see so many people gathering together and wearing the same colour code(well, almost everyone) and having the same aim and spirit!
Dad went to park his car, while me mom and my bro wandered around, immersing ourselves well into the vivacious and dynamic festive moood. Walked to suntec and sat at Gloria Jean's cafe for potato salad and caesar chicken salad. A healthy yet delectable choice of delicacy, to go with the hustle and bustle of invigorating city. while eating, i seriously do think that the city area and orchard road is a heaven of fashion shows. I see many people of different sizes and ages, all adorned with a wide diversity of clothings. Ranging from mini skirts, to tight jeans and retro dresses to the zen sexy tights. We were waiting for our dad's "arrival" when he suddenly called me and asked me to run to the hall! we left out food with no qualms and dashed there. AND OMG! The ceremony for the march past was superb! The man in those nicely ironed uniforms, marching shoes and shiny badges glistened under the light of the hall. they looked really smart and handsome :D as in, not in the pretty way but the neat handsome (: I LOVE THEIR WHITE UNIFORMSSSSS! AND I LOVE THEIR MARCHES AND COMMANDS AND THE WAY THEY CAN MAINTAIN AT THAT POSITION FOR SUCH A LONG TIME. oh btw, this is the first time, they have this ceremony in public (:

alright i had a video of them marching out after the ceremony with the snare's solo!!! but right im still trying to upload so perhaps tomorrow (:

we followed them out and took some photos! oh i had a video of them marching out to the marina bay stage with the snare and bass drum again (:

neat and man right! :D im damn inspired to join the army and march together with them! oh by the way these men are specially selected, not random selection so i guess they are the better men in the different sectors in the armed force :D

After they left, my dad broke through all the barricades and tried to joine behind them. oh and we stopped to see the other uniform groups march. (: I SAW BOONYI. aha okay.. dont really know her btu i caught a picture of her.

the npcc? i think..

the scouts

okay st johns. here's the boonyi picture. look for her (:

and girls' bridage!

There were others too of course. But my camera was running out of space ):

we followed the ppl, RIGHT AT THE BACK OF THEM! everyone was staring at the row of us haha but who cares. i felt like a total paparazzi thou (: but it was a truly wonderful experience. MY DAD ROCKS! HE WAS THE ONE WHO LED US TO FOLLOW THE MARCHING PPL! but the traffic police made us go back to the concrete pavement ):

so we decided to proceed to the merlion bay to have a good and closer look at the fire works later in the night. Walked a big round through the esplanade park because the esplanade way under ground was blocked ): i must say the palce was a total stuffed out area ): almost died haha. stinky and stuffy..walked through the place and i really really saw many many many people! i've never seen so many people in my lifeeeeee! all red and white, in all directionssss! sadly, i dont have a photo of it! ahhaah BUT IT WAS A REALLY SCARY SIGHT! alright, im scared of crowds =\ but but it was fantasticcccc! people were sitting on the patches of grasses, some on the sides of the fountains, throw your sight across and you see many many amny thousands of people sitting precariously on the sides of the bridge just opposite the stage. yea! it weas packed, im definite. we walked to the bridge linking to the fullerton. and it was jammed. erm its not the cavenagh bridge thing, but another bridge hahah.its next to the cavenagh brdige thou (for cars). Seeing that therew was no hope to catch any thing there, we headed back. the pedestrian pathway for us was really cramp. people were trying to stay at the sides of the bridge, and people like me were trying to get out. At the other end people were also trying to get in. socan you imagine, the traffic there? the pathwy was a mere 2 m wide. with concrete and bricked walls at the side. so we can neither jump out or move. it was horrid. People stinked ahaha and sweat dripped ): it got quite serious that i stood there, breathing and hyperventilating for fresh air for about half an hour. STUCK! some erm..impatient people started shouting and screaming and hollering, creating such a racket. it got many people angered and it was really frightening. It seemed as though a fight was gonna break out and a stampede would occur. i felt people pushing my back and me leanign against my mom's back ): i was really apprehensive. I was trying to protect my bro from being pushed and falling cause he's kinda insignificant in that kinda crowd. my parents started to "admonish" some of the younger ppl who were hollering non stop. Like what's the point right. I managed to snap a shot amidst all the chaos.

there. hope you can see the crowd from where i was standing.

well got out of the crowd in one piece ;D and sat at padang!!! found a really cosy spot! airy, refreshing, beautiful, breezy,spacious and WIDEEEE! there was nothing above my head except for clouds and more blue skies!!! picturesque (: the blue vast piece of cloth, dotted with patches of white fluffy balls :D

the padang!

family of spectacles!

my bro took this!

i took this! quite skilful eh!

the beautiful backdrop!

so artistic and romatic!

hahaha.

this is my first ever so closed up view of the helicopter carrying my singapore flag! -faints

the jet planes!

i shall talk about my encounter during my show of the NDP at padang :D tomorrow :D
and plus i owe a fireworks video! ahha i took a video of part of it btw. the real life one IS MUCH MORE DAZZLING.IT WAS REALLY COLOURFUL AND A GREAT MASTERPIECE.

NIGHTIES! AND HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL MY FRIENDS :D

2007-08-03T20:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, miss choo showed us a really creative and fabulous video clip about Singapore. And it was really hilarious yet enriching for me. Well people might think it is really stupid and lame or just simply find it funny and thats it. However, i do look at it as a reallly special and exotic icon of us, Singapore. Infused with humour and our typical singapore singlish, it does portray another beautiful side of our singapore's history and somehow, our interesting happenings and issues. IN which country would the citizens protest obediently indoors? IN which country, do we see LRT? IN which country, do we see people trying to smuggle bubblegums back to singapore haha!

I happened to chance upon this really exasperating comment that left me in ineffable state of shock. The first line of this song sang by hossan leong goes like this " Sang Nila Utama, saw a lion Alamak.." so Sang nila Utama was the man who found out little island and named it Singapura, where SINGAPORE is originated from that malay name. And this person who think he/she is super cool and hip to not know who Sang Nila Utama as a Singaporean said "who is Sang NIla Utama?" and " im a chinese and a singaporean, but i dont know who Sang Nila Utama is haha!" I felt so ashamed and despondent as a Singaporean when i saw that particular comment. I never understand how can any citizen of Singapore can be so proud to not knwo about his/her own country's history. Even my brother who is only a primary 3 student knows who Sang Nila Utama is. I may be making a big fuss here but Singaporeans are rapidly losing their own chinese roots and i seriously would not want to witness any phenomenon of losing out knowledge about our heritage and history. This leads me to the issue of Singapore's education system. Im a total aggressor towards the education im pathetically and helplessly under now. First was the removal of Em1 stream, and the policy of letting every one have a chance to study HCL. Second was also the removal of Chinese subject for University admission. Now, the government just removed the special stream from secondary education, and giving everyone a chance to take up HCL. So, where do SAP schools stand now? Might as well, just remove this whole SAP school system thing. im so pissed with the damn education system ): I have the urge to just carry my stuff and my family and leave Singapore right this moment. I feel so..damn hopeless. We cant master both chinese and english well. Now, our chinese have lost its "footage" and english may seem to be climbing up, but our English is still not up to standard with our singlish. And i seriously can't tolerate chinese who can't speak chinese and thinks that English is their mother tongue.

If i have the money and scholarship (Which i will work hard to attain), i will step out of this place with my family and migrate to UK.

next week's schedule:
monday: Geog test, amath test
Tuesday: Bio mock and physics test
wednesday: National day celebration + let our hair down!
thursday: Muggg
Friday:Muggggggg
Saturday : Muggggggggggggg
Sunday: Muggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

2007-07-27T20:58:00.000-07:00

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I'VE SURVIVED YET ANOTHER WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK OF TEEEEEEEEEEEEEESTS!
i lovve the purple slackers and study peeps ( jingwen, enid, jiaying and simin!)
well, i guess i managed to survive weeks after weeks with your existance :D

my worst test was emaths! hhaha i was not in the mood to do maths at all and i was just scribbling numbers without going through my relay neurones, synapse. my motor neurone was on auto mode haha. (effects of a geeky bio students). Eh I THINK I'VE MENTIONED THIS IN MY PREVIOUS POST OR SOMETHING haha.
fridays are the best day of the week! purples slackers get to sit in our corner in the library to stone or study :D just a little intro about purple slackers. it comprises of me, debbo and prissy. why slackers? because we 3 are the slackest in our class wwho see tests as just a normal routine. We enjoy life and every moment although we have to study and sit for o levels. We are purple as we all wear purple coloured spectacles. wonderful huh :O
anothere reason why i love fridays is that it signifies the end of the pain imflicting and agonizing strings of tests. Im always in a " let-me-out-of-class!" mood on friday extended curriculum!!!!! and i will dash off to banddddddd!!!! Visiting band will always be my weekly routine to end off my last day of schoooool. yea talking about passion huh. i know i should go home to revise. But it just feel wrong and uncomfortable to break off all ties from my juniors and band =\ ahaha. NOSTALGIA IS A TERRIBLE EMOTION AND FEELING!!! i think i have to say this. i feel powerless and authority deficient when i go back. I 'VE PASSED ON MY BATON TO DEAREST REGINA NEW AND WEILING LEONG AND PHOON LIJIE :D i miss conducting sectionals and clapping rhythm and pulsee. i miss saying :" HEY PEOPLE KEEP QUIET!" i miss collecting consent forms ( haha though it made me really frustrated last time), i miss saying :" i can't play today" and start complaining to weiling. i realiseed being one of the heads and SL is not an easy time although it may all seem so glamorous. it was tough and i had a period of time when i wanted to just drop my posts and walk away. Being the head made me understand the point about SETTING A GOOD EXAMPLE and LEAD YOURSELF BEFORE LEADING OTHERS. I've been enlightened on the fact during my term of service, that for your fellow band mates to listen to you, you had to command thier respect first and be a role model. If i were to see someone above me not doing their job well and not carrying themselves theh way they should, i would not even give a damn about what she or he has to say about me. if i wanted my section to practise i had to have the discpline to practise. if i wanted my seection to come down for self prac, i had to set an example by doing so. Well, the example goes on and on. Being one above others, you should be able to sacrifice and do more than expected. OKAY IM GETTING A LITTLE TOO HAAHHA. SHALL JUST STOP HERE.

anyway just a little note to band people : Do your best during combine for rhapsody of hannukah. Although the competition trip is cancelled, and perhaps have lost your motivataion, you still have to perform your best and practise as hard (: and and dont let miss sia have any reason to scold you and your section mates. this will make band more enjoyable and wonderful for everyone. JIAYOU! and play well for national day and like what grace said, the UG will march nicely while the band will PLAY MUSICALLY AND PROFESSIONALLY WITH IMPACT!!!

ANYWAY i would like to thank esther, regina new, calista, chengmei, weiping, joannah and wwhoever paid for the cake for the slice of ice cream cake :DDDDDDDDD it was really tasty and it quenched my thirst and hunger =p!

I SHOULD BE STUDYING ):

2007-07-25T02:54:00.000-07:00

haha i think the previous post was kinda hilarious and retarded..
ME = little ba zhang?? haha emo ba zhang!
Anyway, school was quite eventful today..erm for me :D
had emaths test on transformation and vectors which i didnt study the night before
and as a result, i totally screwed it up. Well, I think iam one who is not smart but needs vigorous studying and practising.. ) ; so sad..i want your brains ms aw jingwen! yupp so im expecting to get the most 20/55 for my tests..
SERVE ME RIGHT!

AND I FEEL SO SOO SOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOO CHEATED BY THE HUMANITIES DEPARTMENT!! 0:
Once again, a chapter for the test tmrw is removed and unfortunately, I STUDIED THAT PARTICULAR CHAPTER! MUAHAHAH! im always that down in luck ) :
oh wells, the ultimate goal is still O levels! so yay i studied chapter 7 on cold war for O levels! -pats my know shoulders..OH and we did a chinese article reflection on the issue of our mother tongue..got quite worked up and wrote a really long extensive reflection which some how, shocked tanyongmeng..he was actually asking me why i wrote such a long piece. Shouldn't he be grateful and ddelighted that his student actually WRITES that long (: i'm rather pleased with that piece of work!!!

Talking about prelims english oral..hmmm pamela was super right about our examiner. She had a premonition that our examiner would be mrs maria sng, and i was praying hard not to be her. ( Not that i know her, but i've herad quite some negative feedback about her =\) well, she seems gregarious enough to be smiling all the time at me O: and i gave her my usaul retarded and toothy + gummy smile haha :D ..I SHOULD NEVER BE TOO NERVOUS!! I think i was really panicking this time compared to the mock we had with MISS jeya. OH HOW I LOVE HER! alright, so getting nervous gets you no where. i fumbled on some words..esp during conversation but i guess conversation need not be super flawless? its a CONVERSATION afterall. We're suppose to talk naturely about issues right? thinking on the more positive side, i think it was not too bad on the whole. my topic for convy was hmm.. " Is commemorating events like national day and racial harmony day important?" I was quite stumped by it. Never similar to this issue crossed my mind so i was crapping nonsense. i Do hope it nade sense to her..

Pris, Keat and I settled down in the canteen after that heart wrenching period in the oral room =\ We intended to study for our two rather major tests tmrw (namely geog and history) haha but sadly, we started talking our GIRLS' talk :D Once we turned on the machine, it's never ending..Well it really threw me back to the times i have spent in stnicks for past 3 years.. shall dedicate a long essay on my blog after grad night (:

so i guess, i'll have to STOP RIGHT HERE AND STUDY GEOG AND HISTORY!!! >:( anyway i've been doing rather horridly for history and geog.. -pouts!

2007-07-22T07:43:00.000-07:00

Chasing Rainbows says (10:38 PM):
oh, you mean you had innocence in the first place?
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
ohmy im sorry little ba zhang, i hurt your poor soul!
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
of course
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
) :
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
ahaha
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
pls take care ba zhang
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
: D
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
its okay i will forgivce you
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
little ba zhang sounds so cute!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
omg
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
im like an angel flying in the sky
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
bringing happiness to every soul
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
( :
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
no you're a ba zhang floating in the ocean
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
-awwww
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
bringing happiness to the fishes
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
and bringing peace to qu yuan
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
that's more er, wei3 da4
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:40 PM):
i gonna cope that and put it on my blog
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
COPE WHAT!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
omg pls dont embarrass me
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:40 PM):
too bad
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
omg pls pls
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
!!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
rah!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
stupid ba zhang

see how retarded weiling is, over msn? she is simply sprouting nonsense that...i can't exactly fathom.ahha I was thinking, i should be nice and polite and accomodating to play along with her.. retardedness ( ;

Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
HAHA preservatives = sulphur dioxide
Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
you're polluting the earth
Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
!!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
horrible ba zhang
Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
dont try to dominate the earth with your glutinous rice.
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:43 PM):

right here's more! hahaha!

YAY WEILING I WIN!!!!!

2007-07-18T07:54:00.000-07:00

I guess its tme i update on some stuff.
Today's track and field national finals and i screamed my larynx out of my trachea! haha i guess i was rather enthusiastic about this whole thing though i know out chances of getting top 2 was really really slim.
our track girls sure did the best ( : well, but kinda sad that we lost our positions we previously held so proudly. WE'LL FIGHT BACK! ;D

Many happenings in school have sure stirred up some strong emotions in me. I hope do this wave of instability would tide over as soon as the monthly thing is gone.Maybe that's the reason why i have been so hot tempered, irritable and easily frustrated.
Just do not understand some people's mentality which is a thorn in my flesh. sorry, but i do know that i have no say in how someone thinks. It is just so amazing how one can be so selfish, lifeless, dead, boring, unenthusiastic, negative, living so happily in their own puny world with just themselves. Being in this class for near 2 years have truly been an enriching experience, an eye-opener, a great and priceless gift bestowed on me on learning some life lessons and enlightenment. Sometimes, i think i've lost the happy jovial crazy and carefree yanzhu that was existing in 2004 and 2005. Today, even though when people seems to say that im crazy and everything, it never fails to throw me into a deep meandering stubborn river of thoughts. It dawned upon me that..well, i've changed alot alot alot.

I SHOULD GO BACK TO STUDYING! > :( IT'S NEVER GOOD TO BE EMOTIONAL!!!!
ANYWAY IM LOSING MY VOICE SO SEXY VOICED ZHU IS ON HER WAY DOWN TO SINGAPORE..

2007-07-09T22:27:00.000-07:00

Live earth concert can be so contradictory. They may be using this whole wide concert to raise the awareness on environmnetal protection and saving mother earth. However, ironically, the lightings and sound effects required for this concert to be successful are consuming so much electricity. Talking about conserving? BULL SHIT.

Anyway, monday started off fine but ended on a horrid excruciating fall down the stairs to the canteen. ITt happened within such split second that..well.. nvm. I can vividly remember the whole experience.I called out to rachel and i supposed i was kinda blind, missed a step on the stairway. I lost my footage, tripped and fell on my ankle. MIND YOU. I FELL ON MY ANKLE. i could practically feel my ankle twist and the whole weight of my body landed on it, worsening the immense pain and sore that was exuding out from the ankle. I laid on the floor at the bottom of the stairs and clutched my ankle real hard ) : I could feel my nerves pounding super vigorously there, and it was as if thousand and thousands of needles were trying to pierce through my bone.. i wanted to cry but i didnt :D Talking about being brave and skinny ( : (well sorry no link). My ankle was conflagrant. I was quite lucky to have ng and liying there if not it will be so embarrassing.. anyway lilin and her friend saw me fall..so embarrassing =\

My akle started to swell quite badly when i remove my socks and shoes. I think my shoe has suppressed the wound for quite some time before i reached home. and the pain started to mount. i had a hard time walking around my house and yesterday was the first time, i found my house really big. >:( Walking can be such a chore for a crippled..anyway for your information, if you ever sprained or twisted your limds, never let it have any contact with water..yea i dont know how to say it in english cause its a chinese term haha.

i just came back from a chinese massage physician and it is still aching badly and whenever i walk, my bones seems to be out of place. There would be a sharp intense pain around the joint.. The chinese physician seems to know qingong. he was trying to remove the moisture that has seeped through my skin into my wound. Oh okay if you have contact with water, you will develop shi qi.. (wet air) ahha. He twisted my ankle in all directions and pulled my ankle. i wanted to scream out ahah and i was squirming on the bed. horrible experience. Now, my ankle is bandaged up.

HOPE IT RECOVERS ASAP!

2007-07-06T21:29:00.001-07:00

I'm sick of trying so hard to keep it alive.
I can see it struggling to give up but the foolish me continues hanging tenaciously onto it.
i feel worthless, insulted. I'm not anything. i hate myself. I'm always the one who seems to realise things ain't going well and get myself all depressed and crestfallen. why is this so? It is not the first time that I've experienced this. It is as though you people don't even bother about it. And that what has happened before is of no value to you anymore. I seriously do not understand how you people could simply thrash it aside and walk away. So i guess i am really non-existent heh? I hate everything that is revolving around me, causing me so much misery. To think i was still so positive about it.

I SHALL JUST ISOLATE MYSELF FROM EVERYONE AND SPEND THE TIME I USE TO GET MYSELF ALL EMOTIONAL TO STUDY AND STUDY. I WILL GET STRAIGHT As AND LEAVE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING BEHIND TO FIND SOMEWHERE WHERE I WOULD BE FREE FROM SUCH PEOPLE. SCRAM AND GET LOST! D: PLEASE LEARN TO TREASURE THINGS ALRIGHT. THANKS FOR MAKING SCHOOOL SO TERRIBLE AND UNBEARABLE. AFTER TODAY, I WILL FIND WAYS OT MAKE MYSELF HAPPY WITHOUT YOU PEOPLE. AND I WILL DEFNITELY BE MUCH MUCH MUCH HAPPIER AND STRONGER THAN NOW. I WILL SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU. BE SURE OF THAT

icantbebotheredtocaresomuchanymore.

2007-07-04T01:13:00.000-07:00

I SHALL TAKE A FEW MINUTES OFF TO WRITE A LITTLE!
After this, i shall bathe and study CHINAAA! and the singapore's economic policies
(i dont know why but the ss textbook seems to make singapore's policy sound so far sighted, well planned, effective and useful..well,PROPAGANDA)

alright! i've survived, 1 emaths test, 1 amaths, and 1 chem!
and tmrw will be killers day! social studies and history. Im so glad the teachers cut down on the chaps :D So i believe i can slack a little =O!
HARRY POTTER'S COMING UP! i think i will feel quite bad after watching it =\ cause i wasted 2 hours plus, near 3 hours for travelling on a movie! : ( horrid zhu.
anyway, i think im going genting with the band! and korea/hongkong/taiwan with my friends and maybe shanghai with jingwen and ginger..! but that will have to wait till after Os

argh! okay weiling tan ask me to go study so i shall
STUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2007-06-30T09:46:00.000-07:00

SNSB bravo! :D

well back to school for open house at 730! early girl! :D
im even earlier than the rest of the band ppl!
helped out to move instru and stuff
i love the band and the juniors ( : except miss sia.
can you believe it? i actually took so many band photos and forgot to take individual photos of my juniors >: (!
i miss my little horn and little chickies D:

well, yiingy made a really cute horn treee!

to the band(if any one ever reads this) : listen to your heads ah! grace, sarah, regina new and charlyne! Dont make things difficult for them and keep the band morale high! SCREAMS! if you bully the heads, we will take revenge!

to the 4 heads : continue to jiayou. i know it may seem a little difficult to coordinate everything but just kee trying. you will get the hang of it ( : show your authority! Dont hesitate to correct and scold or whatever to the band. but you must also know when to be nice and playful :D ahah! Keep the band morale high!

LIJIE: you conducted welll! ( : IM SO PROUD OF YOU! Don't take ms sia's scoldings too hard K :D we all know you can conduct ( : i will visit and help out whenever i can!

jingwen : yay! IM SO EXCITED ABOUT YOU KNOW WHAT! and genting!- faints

2007-06-21T07:14:00.000-07:00

yohoooo!

im so dead. i left so many chapter of every subject, particularly geography and social studies and maths to study. oh boy i haven't even touched on Amaths =\

anyway, class chalet was fun like DUH!! haha ( :
but the chalet's a little disappointing for me, well dirty mattresses, dusty and sandy floor, uncontrollable air con, dim lights, spooky toilets, tv set without DVD player!!!?!?!? i totally felt like i was living in a kampong in pulau ubin, well at least a better one with air con.

Cycling was superb ( : it just kept drizzling and stopping. It was amazingly fascinating how the sky cheated our feelings ) : it started drizzling and we decided to cover ourselves by standing under some very dense foilage. so it stopped and when we went out, it drizzled again but we didnt bother.So as we continue cycling, it drizzled quite heavily again so we seeked shelter at this little pavilion. and the rain stopped > :(. We decided to step out and it rained again! HOW IRRITATING! ahah
well and it finally stopped for us to play!
yeah! i love the play area at pasir ris park! it's so fun fun fun and extraordinary. you wouldn't find such playthings at our normal HDB playgrouds :D spider webbies, funny circuit web playgroud, swings!, merry go round on a plate, bouncy black platforms! EVERYTHING WAS SO INTERESTING! it totally felt like a little kid ( :
oh and it reminds me of student care days where we went to west coast park ( it has such playing facilities too) to play! aahha everyone just kept climbing the spider webbbby and i remembered something sweet happened up there (: my top little secret! hohohoho!

dinner was great, the food we ordered was rather yummy :D and i love tyhe honey dew sago desert! ate like mroe than 6 bowls in total. :P anyway we played truth and dare with miss yee and miss chooo! haha miss yee is so sporty :D and pamela was on a dare to take a picture with a life guard! :O hers was the most exciting and challenging dare! but she was rather sporty i must say. She just walked out of the chalet with all of us and walked up to the life guard. ahahaha! Its like a whole bunch of crazy girls laughing and chatting, armed with cameras walking towards the guy. He looked rather intimidated ahha and he's really shy. here's the picture!

my goodness. the life guard is really shy..He looks way too young for a life guard though. I was expecting a rather muscular and burly one haha. Maybe he got hidden swimming talent.. Pamela looks more muscular than him!!! :O

And take a look!I MADE IT! its my masterpiece of the year! and i've finally mastered the skill of uploading new brushes to my adobe! well what can i say. IM JUST TOO ARTISTIC :O! HAHA joking

pictures at pasir ris park

<3333 purity

laughing is the best remedy

2007-06-18T04:26:00.001-07:00

OH AHHA I REALISE I USE ALOT OF " AHHAHAAHH!"
IN ALL MY POSTS :D

im a happy elf. ( :

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2007-06-18T04:26:00.000-07:00

RIGHT! I LOVE CHIAAAAAA!

eventful day i suppose. had lunch with chia and strolled to RI for her DSA auditions!
-CHEERS AND CLAPS!
well, i must say we were rather scared to enter the school ahah. we stepped into the entrance of RI rather hesitantly and browsed at the map haha. we were deciding which stairs to take as there was this split stairs there. ahah
the band people thehre were quite nice.. :D i totally felt like rachel chia's full time maid, serving beside her every sec and every min ( :
We saw this maris stella perc guy who plays the marimba damn well! :O
anyway he played turkish dance. and we saw another PL perc girl who was playing the drum set ahha. and we saw CEDAR BAND GIRL, which never fails to remind me of prawn prawn prawn..
the school is SO GREEEEEN! Coincidentally, i was carrying a green crumpler, wearing green sports shoes and holding on to a green wallet =\ green freak..
I LIKE CHIA'S MALLET PIECE!its so happy-go-lucky and bouncy and cheerful and vibrant! :D

CHIA CHEER UP K (: ahah YOU STILL HAVE VJC! and maybe the RJC band people dont even know you played a different thing!

studied history at mossy burgery! crapped for sometimes before really concentrating on our LI SHI! chia is so full of crap!!!! She amuses herself with the facts given in the book like

1) millions of people from the 3 states JOIN HANDS TOGETHER to protests against the... okay so join hands together.. imagine all the citizens from 3 states literally joining hands one by one..ahahahah! and those who needs to cross the sea would be bobbling up and down by the waves -.-

2) hundred flowers campaign.. translate it to chinese, so it will be bai hua yun dong! haha imagine hundreds of flowers doing exercise! ahahah!

3) communism with a 'human face' h aahhaha!

4) all the soviet union's leaders keep dying ahahah! (go read the txt book!)

and and there is this picture of MIKHAIL GORBACHEV which resembles hong kong star chow yun fatt! haahahahah.

studying history with chia really makes me happy ( : well at least, we finished the chap on failure of communism! yay! and i shall complete coastal studies, social studies singapore governance, read through plate tectonics and practise emaths!
go booo! go boooo! go boo boo booo!

AND TOMORROW'S CLASS CHALET! im half excited and half not. Why? beats me.. i hope everyone would really have fun including myself. toodles!

2007-06-12T04:12:00.001-07:00

I wonder why do people always drift away and i will always be the one who realises it. Sometimes, it really makes me ponder about our friednship.
So, i guess it is thus fragile.

Im sick of trying so hard.
Maybe you dont even care, so why should i?

OKAY THIS ENTRY IS TOTALLY C R A P.. IT ALWAYS A BAD SIGN GETTING EMOTIONAL.
i was thinking of ordering donut factory's donuts for class chalet.
on the other hand, i can only order in dozens for 11 bucks,
so.. i can only buy for 11 people. That's really mean because some will get it while some no no. And people might start grumblilng and stuff..hmmm
BUT I REALLY WAN TO BUY DONUT FACOTRY'S DONUT!!!!!!!!!!!
> : ( the world's never fair and square. Maybe i should just eat it all by myself! :D

2007-06-07T06:23:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: December 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause.You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too.Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others.You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress.
Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years
Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities
Your power color: Crimson red
Your power symbol: Snowflake
Your power month: September

yay! haha cool right. i also fouond out that my french name is denisee jacques

***You Are 30% Evil***
A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.
How Evil Are You?http://www.blogthings.com/howevilareyouquiz/

alright the evil one seems kinda scary.. ):

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

haha im young at heart (: but i can be serious at times

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable.

Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

i think that is kinda true ( : people say i look fierce at first glance :D

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal

You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing.
You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere.

And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile.
You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about.

You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid.
Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen.

Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else

You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly

Your friendship quote: "Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

well, i guess that's enough for today!

2007-06-02T08:16:00.000-07:00

I happened to be reading some people's blog at this rather unearthly time of mine
(usually i will in in bed or..doing something other than blog hopping.)
I was thinking about the issue on overseas education.

Why is this issue getting into so many students. It is till this rather great and influential extent
that i feel the...well i wont say the urgent need but the...push to follow suit.
I suppose this is a really selfish thought but think about it..
if the number of students leaving Singapore to complete their studies out of this island puny pathetic island is increasing, the probability of the non-overseas educated students getting a high paid job or a decent professional job would be so much lesser. hah was really feeling kinda helpless at the rate so many students are planning to go overseas. Planning for my future you see..

Back to the main topic.. i would not be shocked that in years to come, even a job like an accountant or nurse would require a certificate, certifying that one has completed a certain course in a certain university or institution overseas.
LIke i just mentioned earlier on, the whole issue of further educationing overseas is getting implanted into me. All the casual conversations i had with countless people and friends and relatives and stories i heard is having this unknown pushing effect, bringing my nearer and nearer to that aspect. The thought of prestigious university like oxford, cambridge, havard! haha hmmm many, is making me thirsty hah! i sound like a vampireee!! That is only what i dream of, defnitely not something practical or realistic. firstly, i do not have such advanced and juicy brains. secondly, it would take me a torturous time to adapt. thridly, i cant bear to leave my parents alone (my parents' age are not like any average 16 year old teen parents would be).
lastly, im timid. im carry this personalality that never dares to risk and step out of my little comfort zone. sad huh?

On the other hand, singapore's education system is killing all smart little human beings.
i do feel like a stupid guinea pig resulting from the great failure of the singapore " oh-so-perfect" education system. What's with the bilingualism policy? Everyone, even a 10 year old kid could tell that it is simply not working well as expected. Instead, it is having adverse effects.
ever heard of this canto saying :" although you have many knives, but none of them are sharp".
We are like one with many knives, but none is up to standard to slice meat or whatever.
Look at us, english? chinese? mostly, almost every suck at at least one of them. Or me, the absolute helpless and hopeless freak, who suck at both. Fancy me getting all As for my humanities, maths and sciences but a C for damn english and a B for my mother tongue. How an embarrassment and a disgrace i am to my race. While i was filling up the section of results under my DSA form, the unsightly c6 and b4 totally marred my picturesque bueatiful strings of A s and im rather pissed about that. > : (

grrrr, i'm just feeling resentful.
studying session with jingwen and jiaying tmrw. and we haven settled the venue haha

2007-06-01T21:18:00.000-07:00

i've just received a phone call from vjc band to go for auditions
well its on the 18 june 11.40am. i think im alone ):
im feeling rather jittery and scared haa. and phyllinda wont be there );
if only she's the SL :D i will just be ahhah! HI PHY!

I actually forgot to tap my card on the bus when i was talking to that vj person.
then when i sat down i was wondering why the bus didnt move.
then i saw people turning back to look at me and the bus driver looking at me. ahh
only did i realise i forgot to tap my card O_O!
ahaah so embarrassing.
and i have to learn minor scales. this is really bad...
i've got a strong feeling i will screw up ahah but oh wells.
the chances of getting in is really slim so i will just go there and enjoy myself.
OK not exactly enjoy but just.. do my best and get a new experience (: yea..
ho ho and good luck to jingwen, jiaying, jacq and rachel chia!!!!! their auditions are in 2 days time! MONDAY! all the best! i think they wil have a high chance ccause they are needed in the band!

it's the secondweek of hols...and what have i done?
NOTHING! i had better start studying. learning that people are getting all so hardworking and everything for Os and seeing myself still so relaxed really makes me very frightened.
I WILL STUDY! SO BYE

2007-05-26T06:48:00.000-07:00

POP o7 just passed on 24 may 2007.

well that was MY pop after going through 3 pops.

so what was i feeling? to be truthful, i was really relieved and happy to have that big fat heavy and weighty burden off my backs. On the other hand, i really really miss doing sectionals, carrying stands, going down for band etc and laughing with my really horny section (okay they are not as horny as christine my dear).

pop that day was really funny. the sec4s were kinda screwed in the sense that many of us were scrambling and rushing like mad cows as we had extended and we came down rather late.

at 4.01 we were screaming and shouting in the band room, changing and stuff. ahaha

it felt kinda bad cuase the juniors were all waiting for our arrival (:

posting and stuff was haha! some were quite shocking to the band i suppose. but well, since we chose them, they will have to work well with them and accept it. and i believe the sec 4s have good foresight :D trust us juniors! (and miss sia and cher)

now for the posts update :

band major : grace sim (tsktsk!)

drum major : sarah(KHONG GUAN!)

secretary/ publicity officer : regina new (:

treasurer: charlyne courtney lai li-anne ( what a long name!)

student conductor : grace sim

a.student conductor : my phoony!

A.WO/WO : elysia, clarice, weiling, esther (yay! 2 from my section!)

A.QM/QM : deborah, zhuer, cheryl choo, joy

A.LIB/LIB : yiingy! , haiching, jessie, carina (hah! you got it!)

A.A : liwen! (: jiayou!

right. present exchange rock like every other year! but this year was really choatic. I was looking frantically for all my juniors and squadmates lest they leave. ahaha and i received alot of presents! it was totally out of my expectations. i thought i would carry 2 less bags but end up carrying 1 luaggage, 2 bags of present, 1 pig(from my beloved sec 1s), 1 big fat pillow (from jayme) and a vase of little fishes > : (! ahahah had quite a hard time walking with those fishes in the vase. was thinking of feeding them with fishy panadol when i reached the chalet later that night! :P

i would like to thank all juniors and squad mates who gave me the wonderful presents, goodies and letters :D was reading them through them last night. felt a little nostalgic and sad and ....bitter touched and everything! but didnt cry. i guess spending 2 whole years with pamela really made me a much stronger person.

CHIA I LOVE YOUR PHOTO FRAME! ITS SO BEAUTIFUL! kept staring at it the past few days! :D and thanks for jayme's pillow which was really needed during stayover as they was a shortage of pillows!

had BBQ for dinner :D my section treated me like queen can! wanted to BBQ but they just refues to let me do anything but sit in the room and rot =\

I LOVE the golden treasure box form yiingy! DONT WORRY my dear junior it was really beautiful and not fat and ugly like what you think! and weiling's horny statue! and ely's book!

it was all hand made! really thoughtful and sweet ) : i think my present for them suck! regret la can! ): ): ): ):) :) : i will buy them goodies or try to make them after O levels! oh yes i will!

took some photos! did take much cause camera was dying ): will post the pictures soon on a web! i think i really look gruesome in some pictures but oh wells i shall heck and put them up (: its the person i took with that matters!

after pop i realised what make me really miss band and love band are the juniors that kept me going and my squad mates. i remembered how i hated band because of miss sia.. i know as a secretary i shouldntbe saying that but since i've passed out i guess i am free! but JUNIORS OUT THERE! pls dont follow me! WELL, one really impt junior is weiling who always kept me positive and cheerful and kept me strong to withstand all the scoldings. and my section who really worked damn hard for festival prelude and merry so that miss sia will stop scolding me (:

i can really see that they worked damn damn damn hard to play that stupid solo in festival prelude. can see and hear the drastic improvement. :D thanks dearies!

and to my dear yiingy who is ever so cute and blur and funny ahah. and lijie who keeps being so funky and cheerful and noisy which livens up the section! elysia who really puts in alot of hard work and being so guai (: and melody for working hard too!

i must admit that the sec2s, blue badges are really one queer and unique badge of juniors i've ever come across. but sometimes seeing their weird actions in the doing really make my day haha! as in it really amuses me, the way the do everything and their reactions. juniors are just so innocent and guai and (: sweet!

chalet was fun although i don't show my expressions sorry dear! i really really enjoyed it! i like to savour good times quietly :O so pardon me ahha! i love the movie part and bitching part! and sleeping part! was half sleeping with yiinghuey on one bed then i went to join weilng and we shared blanky. ahah we ate maggie in the middle of the night at one plus!

and yiinghuey sleeps with her eyes half open k! so scary!

my juniors have weird way of BBQ-ing food haha really an eye opener! oh and night times was funny. wanted to wake up at 4 plus 5 to watch sunrise so when the alarm went a 5, only me and ely woke up and we decided to wake weiling and lijie. but none of them budge. so we continue sleeping then 530 the alarm rang again. Ely and i woke up again and tried to wake weiling up. she just kept tossing and turning can!!!!!! argh! see me and elysia so punctual! haha (:

but ohwells continues sleeping till7 plus..

abit the saxes were at the same chalet as us! and this was what jingwen told me..

jingwen : hey im at swissotel

yanzhu : i thought chalet!!! eeee i also want!

jingwne : haha tooo bad eh pass the phone to weiling

so yea...i didnt know what they were up to and i just watched my show.

then suddenyl jingwen open my door and i just screamed hahaha! abit i trusted them okay! and she just faked me! > : (

saxes arh! damn lousy la cope our left oveer chicken and marsh mellow haha.

on second day, we went to visit saxes and jessie became a gymnas. ahah

she was getting so high and was jumping on the bed like a trampoline. then she flop herself on the bed but sadly,she's just too impactful and she hit her butt on the wooden beddding. she was squirming and whining when suddenly she did a back flip off the bed and landed on the mattress on the floor!DOUBLE OUCH! gaha i just saw her fall and did a backflip it was simply hilarious!never seem any clumsier junior ever! (:

went home to put my barang barang down and went for crystal jade (: yummyQ!!!!

did some gossipinf shhhhH! ahhahaha and shopped alittle (: grace kept trying on clothes! haha she looked really good in one of the espirit dress which cost 129!!! =\

headed off to victoria junior college for concert! it was fabulous! esp the 2 mallet guys!they played flight of the bumble bee on one marimba. they were practically running round it and playing the song and their wrist seems to be screwless! it just went on and on very rapidly! faints!!! if rachel join vj band, she will be like them (: alright photos! only 2 haah they rest are not really nice. and people! pls send me photos!!!! thanks

this is my junior lijie and weiling getting the sl and asl post not respectively (:
the second is my section + phy at victoria concert!

2007-05-20T05:54:00.000-07:00

band camp this mid year was a total different experience.
for us and the sec 3s.
well, learning experience i suppose.
we had our camp in the middle of school term ( supposedly to be held in june)
so had half the time eaten up by lessons. ( if we had it, it would be much fun-ner!)
i love bathing (: finally managed to bathe using buckets and ice cream tubs.
it really feels good to go back to "uncivilised" times once a while.
noms was super draggy and i kinda got really bored and impatient as yeah, we ate right into night games time and i badly wanted to play!
sincere apologies to the sec 3s.
i joined the music room people to scare ppl and some freaky sec 1 got so scared by me that she grabbed me by my neck, scratched it so hard and threw me hard on the floor 0: i had a red patch on my neck!
i love scaring ppl but i hate it when pam starts freaking me out when she says this in the percs room ( it was dark, and quiet with just the both of us and the instrus)
....preparing to hit the gong and metal plates
pam: did you hear that?
yz: what?!?!?!?
pam: this sounds...very low eeeeeeeeeee
yz: NOOO!! I DONT HEAR ANYTHING! no no! please dont scare me (covers ears)
pam: haha ok okay! but i really heard it
...
pam: didyou hear that again?
yz: NOOOOOOOOOOO!

crap! hahaha. went to wash up with pam and it was so dark and we were the only people walking up the toilet =\
the school's really scary. and the lights of the toilet and corridor was off. PITCH DARK! i was really scared but didnt say it out.saying out woudl make it even worse haha.
pam is so funny alright. she has such a weird way of washing hair. it appeared really queer, perhaps due to the fact that her head is of a really big size (ahah) and the sink is really small.
when she placedher head inside, it looked as if her head would be stuck in it haha!
had to help her wash her hair tsk.
juniors started coming in and witnessed the funny scene ahha! EYE OPENER!

night movie was scary as usual (it's just me) aha. watched with peiting chia and sushuen.
sushuen just acted very brave know. she wore the sleepign mask and looked at the screen saying :" what so scary? see im so brave. im watching ju-on" -.-!
ahaha. peiting and i were so scared kept hiding under our sleeep ing bags.
its very amazing seeing the crowd getting smaller and smaller haha and from people sitting up straight to people lying flat down.
finally, all gave in to sleeping god except me chia charlyne regina lim jingwen and some sec3s behind and chengmei and some unkown band people.
chia charlyne and regina lim are just so scandalous.
could hear them flirting in my sleep. haha.
amzing. i could hear what was going on in my sleep.
i heard this person who snored and her snore was so disgusting ahah! i could hear her mucus flowing through when she snored! even chia heard! i got so irrtated and disgusted that i cover my ears! hahaa!
me and chia are just a weird pair of friends.
we kept waking up in the middle of the night to chat for a few seconds
eg...
chia: oh shit where is my sleeping bag cover
yz: huh...oh you will find it when you wake up. will be around here
chia: okay
we both went back to sleep. it is so random for someone sleeping and wake up in the middle of the night looking for her sleeping bag cover! hahaah!

yz: hey what time is it?
chia: 630
yz: okay lets sleep
chia: ok

back to sleep again!
ahaha
we woke up several times tgt but i cant remember the convy ahah! so cute can!
at 7 plus we just refuse to wake up even though we both heard the sec3s calling for us.
and we distinctly heard regina lim saying :" wahlao chia and yanzhu still sleeping! wake upla!"
and we just refuse to. (:
we stole their winnie and pooh and we shared..i took the butt and she took the head and back to dream land!

I LOVE SLEEPING DURING CAMP!
this was the first camp i ever slept so late and woke up so late too! i woke up half way to keep the movie and laptop k! so nice ...!
ahaha and i slept with chia instead of jingwen. tsk she abandoned me for the sec 3s...tsk tsk
just break my heart know. -piang piang
xingjun so funny! just left in the middle of the night. and i realised i slept with a lot of sec 2s and i didnt sleep in my usual third freezing room..haha i had a welcoming wake up call from the percs
first was pam,next was chirstine then liwen then clarice all just bombared me!
argh!!!!! well i loved breakfast tooo! ate 2 big bowls of honey stars! :DDDDDD

2007-05-15T04:19:00.000-07:00

this is bad.
im really feeling very ): ): ): ):
im stepping down soon.
and i will miss all my juniors and squad mates.
im have only started to feel this sense of parting and this sense of bitterness D:
arghHH!H!H!H!

spent the after noon with the blue badges with their SCs ( namely jingwen and pam).
i must say that the blue badges are weird but funny and funky.
im so gonna miss them :O
and the stupid percs juniors! argh! CHRISTINE! you are officially deem as the horniest junior i've ever known. it's such a pity you're not in horn cause you get to french every band prac.
): ): ): ): seriously i think im gonna miss suaning all my juniors and disturbing them
and sometimes being bullied by them ahaah.
will yiinghuey still bow at me haha ! haha
i bet jayme will still be damn loyal to her one and only crush.
elysia...hmmmm i think she will become very rowdy under lijie's influence.
ahah and i will miss disturbing chengmei.
oh wellls ): im going crazy.
i think i will have to break my promise - i will defnitely cry on POP.
ps. anyway xingjun, you march like a hamster i don't know why. ahah!

anyway to all the juniors wwho tried to attackme today, BEWARE ON POP. you're gonna get it from me!

jingwen, im quite disgusted by your tarzan and jane thing.
never will i want to be tarzan any more =\ -runs away
but i still wanna swing from trees to trees

2007-05-10T05:38:00.000-07:00

woah i haven been blogging for eons.
well let me recall what happened for the past weeks.

alright all i can remember is the finale rehearsal at the hall.
it was kinda crap and time wasting.
ended up spending most of the time playing, chatting and staring into blank air.
oooh we played badminton too!
Talking about badminton, i chose it as my minor elective!!!!!!!!
HOW I MISS BADMINTON!!!
haha i think i exerted myself too hard on wednesday and now, my right arm is aching terribly
i cant even carry a pack of green bean soup. ):

geog test today was kinda screwed. Actually i expected this situation because
instead of studing yesterday at sam's house, i ended up sleeping, watching spiderman and day dreaming.
SPIDEY'S A CUTEY haha. actually i prefer the green goblin's son (: he's got a nice and funky smile.

today!!! hmmm i just came back from far east flora.
went flower shopping in the gigantic freezer there =\
I LOVE FLOWEERSSS!!

wells, tomorrow's my last jubilate and im quite excited???
minus away the fanfare part. I totally hate playing fan fare it sucks.
other than that, im looking forward to finale!!!
jubilate = cam whoring time!!!!

i realise that this post...is rather.... random....

it just dawned on me this morning that..
O's is really drawing near.. really near.
am i prepared?

NOO!

2007-04-26T07:04:00.000-07:00

tomorrow's my last sports day in stnicks!
so nostalgic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im defnitely going to cam whore like never before and take many pictures!
i hope tomorrow's sky will be as beautiful as last year's. and may it NOT RAIN!

was thinking back about my pri school life.
it was so enjoyable and worry free.
friends were so lovely cute and ahaha i don't know, innocent?
there was just this sudden outflow of all my friends in child care centre that once appeared in my life to my brain.
let me name some.. haha
felix ( he was rather scary - big sized and tall,), wanchun!( my bestie!), gladys!, geraldine (kindergarden friend! so conincidental), weihao, alvis ( was kinda goody friendy with him, going to shcool tgt and sneaking to playgrounds), jinyao ( another good friend of tgt with alvis) in fact, everyone that im gonna mention here, are all nuaghty kids who always sneak out to spend some time tgt at the nearest playground to play catching ahaha. alright. dorothy! she's got a sister named constance. hmm wan ngee ( sec 3 this year i think), i know there's an alex! amos, the famous amos cookies ( he's kinda irritating i must say aha).hmm okay this guy is my bickering friend of mine, always bicker non stop when we see each other, quite fun haha. he's called goh yihui. but the sad thing is that i totally lost contact with him. jaslin, kelyn, wee ming, charmaine, ying qi all my little cute juniors (: well all of them mentioned are not from my school , excpet wanchun, glady and alvis. butb all of them are from my child care centre!
my teachers there rock toooo! and the friends and juniors were so wonderful. (:
the excursions during the holidays were the best! best! best!
and i rememeber the aunty who cleans the place always speak to me in canto cause she knows im a canto! and i love making milo with the teachers there for the whole centre's tea break time. ( beacuse i was like the only pri 6 girl there - oldest).
the teachers are...hmmm miss chek! i love her miss wee - strict but quite nice, ke lao shi!, miss chua, SHIT I CANT REMEMBER! im gonna go back one day to see them ( hope they are still working there!) the last time i went back was in 2004 june -.-
the favourite past time for all of us was catching and more catching. we usually play at what we call the SWIMMING POOL( because its blue coloured floor) and the badminton hall of toapayoh cc.
wells..
i think i have fonder memories of my child care centre then my pri sch..sad huh.

2007-04-20T22:08:00.000-07:00

people,
please be more sensible and matured alright.
and learn to be more respectful and understanding.
i don't see why you have the right to be angry
and i don't see why we have the need to accomodate to please you people.
it's not an easy job to be there to perfect everything.
and we are just doing our best to fulfil out duties..

sad to say, im really angry and disappointed in your behaviour and attitude.
im serious.. and you people maybe angry with me for saying this and might go round complaining about me.
but think about it, who's going gain from this? not me not you, esp not you.
it just clearly shows us how immature and insensible you people are.

please think about it and reflect.

and to the band sec 1 squad, please learn to respect your squad commanders alright.
it is definitely not tedious to just listen and follow instructions.
the most ardous job is for the SCs to impart whatever knowledge they have to you people
so you people can also pass down this to your future juniors.

2007-04-18T03:24:00.000-07:00

band got silver.
i hope the juniors will really work hard for NBC( if we are still going) and SYF 09.

yesterday was the first ever day in my 4 years of st nicks that i felt so hesitant to return back to school.
i was just so reluctant to go back school.

sometimes..life is really horrible.
there are just some people out there putting in so much, their efforts, their time, their heart, their soul into some.. issues..but yet, in the end unrecognised.
all their life, they have been slogging and slogging, giving in their best but somehow, it is fate. That they are just destined to remain unknown and thought to be useless.
no matter what they do, they are just so unlucky their whole life, to be forgotten so easily with just a snap of the fingers.
Their existance are of no significance to anyone.
they are always the lonely ones looking out so cautiously at the back stage, seeing themselves slowly and gradually disappearing from earth.

anyway, why should i be so affected?
im leaving school soon in a few months time.
its not going to stay with me my whole life because i know i will just forget all of them.

yanzhu, you're so stupid and hopeless.
just for your information, im seriously hurt...

2007-04-15T06:04:00.000-07:00

oh wells... i've been out of the cyber world for quite some time.

time to update (:
today's ah wen's birthday! ;D

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D hope the chalet was enjoyable and will pray that you get well soon!

went for jingwen's birthday chalet on sat after eng tuition. brought my wu gui there because jingwen got the much bigger version of my wu gui and i have to hug that wugui to sleep.

talking about being matured..hah!

that gigantic turtle was sure nice to hug but soon it gets a little too heavy for me ahha.

cherm, jasape, liyin, isabel, chien jie, huimin, simin, jiaying, huiwei, jingmin and i went!

cherms and gang are still ever so crazy and hyper. rather scary =\

and chien jie is so aunty! hah she actually ran after jingwen's mom's car when jingwen just remarked that she left something in the car!

we were laughing like mad.

and huimin went to the wrong chalet -.-

jingwen's family came. and her little girl kept hugging my turtle!!!!!!!!! like she've never seen a turtle in her life! okay..she's only 4. maybe she REALLY HAVEN'T seen one.

she was hugging my turtle with her body, feet and arms! ahhaa and also went round kissing my turtle =\

was wandering around the place with chien and huimin while jasape and gang set up the "surprise" for ah wen.

and hot wax poured over my finger! But frankly, the feeling of hot wax over your skin is rather pleasant (:

tried so hard to make WE LOVE JW on the concrete floor with candles.. but finally managed with the use of our body and even umbrella as shield to protect the flames against the irritating winds!

right now came the most "indelible" part of all.

me chien huimin, being the ones who have already eaten..stupidly offered help to help the rest clear the wax. so there we go

it was a tiring process! we even had to resort to stealing the cleaner's dustpan to clean up! ahah

huimin's atad slow. she doesnt know how to use the tap there! :O

we have a common interest thou! we love this twin dragon show and we both like ziling haha.

everyone left except for me jiaying jingwen and her mom. hhaha cleared up the place and bathed.

and we took many stupid pictures with turtles! sadly, this stupid blogger doesnt seem to work well with pictures!!!

watched pirates..jingwen jiaying and jingwen ma slept..except me all alone awake!

i couldnt sleep till 4 then i managed to sleep. wanted to wake up at 5 plus to watch sunrise but all of us woke up late. walked around pasir ris park and to the flower maze.. think all of us were very tired except me :D

ahaha

well its just enjoyable when you're with your friends..good friends, no matter how tired we may be. (:

well tht's all.. off to complete all my hw which i was supoosed to complete before i went for the chalet =\

how do people like me gain weight..

2007-04-05T06:29:00.000-07:00

First, of all, there are probably hundreds of people who wish they had this problem, but for those who feel like the skinny guy on the beach who will never fill out; it is a serious question. Body size has a lot to do with genetics. Both "Mark" and "Raj" should ask their fathers or uncles what they weighed at their ages. Chances are they were thin too, and could eat any amount of food without gaining weight. But, look at them now. Are they still slim or did middle age bring changes? Some people are thin due to heredity and may find difficulty in gaining weight. Unless there is a medical condition that is resulting in weight loss, the weight loss is recent and unexplained, or there is a risk of malnutrition - as is often the case with eating disorders, being underweight is far less of a health problem then being overweight. Weight gain is achieved when the calories consumed outnumber the calories spent. Gaining weight for appearance's sake, or gaining both muscle and fat weight, should consist of a high-calorie diet in combination with regular exercise. Your nutrient needs depend on your own particular rate of metabolism, which may be very high at your age. You not only need calories but also protein, vitamins and minerals. The best way to get these nutrients is to choose a balanced, varied diet from among the different food groups. "Mark," says he is "eating like a pig," but is it mostly pizza, burgers, fries and soda? Other nutrients are necessary for you body to metabolize and build new cells. You need 6-11 servings of cereals and grains, 2-3 servings of protein foods, 2-3 servings from the dairy group, 2-4 fruits, and 3-5 servings of vegetables. A varied selection from these groups should be the basis of your diet to which you then add fats, oils and sugars to add calories. Some other suggestions for gaining weight are to be sure to eat a good breakfast, lunch, and dinner, with nutritious snacks between meals. Try to eat in a relaxed atmosphere instead of on the run, as this improves the way your body uses nutrients. Avoid drinking too much liquid with your meal so you don't fill up too quickly. Make exercise a regular part of your healthy routine, but not to the extent that you skip meals and burn a high amount of calories. The body's metabolic rate is not normally modified unless there is an existing disorder that requires medical treatment. It is something that varies from one person to another and affected by many factors, such as age, sex, and amount of lean body mass (muscle). The following are some strategies that can help in increasing body weight:
Eat high-calorie foods. Avoid choosing low-fat, reduced-fat, or non-fat items. Choose a milk shake instead of nonfat milk, avocados instead of cucumbers. For health reasons, choose mostly vegetable fats (olive and vegetable oils, nuts) rather than animal fats (butter, cream).
Eat at least three healthy meals every day. Skipping meals robs the body of needed calories as well as leaving the individual more prone to snacking on unhealthy foods.
Eat more food at each meal. Choose bigger portions, add extra filling to sandwiches, and use bigger drinking glasses and bowls.
Eat snacks between meals. Carry healthy snacks (granola bars, crackers, and pretzels) to eat on the run.
Add sauces and gravies to food. Cheese sauces on cooked vegetables increase the calories and provide flavor.
Drink plenty of juices and milk throughout the day. This is a simple way to add calories without feeling full. Adding powered milk or instant breakfast powder to milk contributes extra calories.
Exercise to build muscle. Physical activity used in combination with a high-calorie diet keeps the extra calories from turning into body fat. The muscle formed ads weight in the parts of the body where the weight should be.
Although the above suggestions will usually lead to weight gain, it is always wise to check with a physician in order to discard any metabolic or other medical disorder that may be attributed to weight loss. Consulting a registered dietitian can provide better insight on the nature of the problem, and result in more accurate recommendations that are better suited for individual lifestyles and food preferences.
Everyone's focus should be on a healthy weight, one where you feel vital and energetic, not an ideal seen in magazines. With wholesome eating habits and other measures such as not smoking, drinking or using drugs, avoiding risky behaviors, getting enough sleep, stress management, moderate exercise and stretching, and working towards mental and emotional maturity, you will start on a lifetime of wellness, whether you are trying to loss or gain weight.

taken from http://www.metabolism.com/lifestyles/2001-05-22/

(: me and jingwen will start jogging every morning in school.
its rather contrasting to have the both of us, as good friends, complaining together over our weight probs.
one too skinny, one too fat (when she's not exactly that fat as she thinks she is.)
if only we have some device or some sorta thing to even out our weight and meat.

did 4 rounds on wed. timing = 10.00 mins.
haiz...
alan sucks.. i dislike him. in fact, all of us do.
hope i don't see him again..ever.
huiwei and jingmin came on sat! shu came back today! yeah and im spurred on to work hard for entry to HCJC
minus the part where i might be the minority over there with all the hci guys and nygh girls =\

2007-03-25T01:52:00.000-07:00

adam khoo "im gifted so are you" workshop.
22 mar 07 - 24 mar 07
trainers : ramesh muthusamy ramasamy ( mr bean 2) ahha
kok woei tang ( tang tang ) cute haha
melvin chew ..funny guy
benjamin the music man + animal drawer :D

the workshop was so enriching and rather interesting..okay its very interesting.
learnt alot.. and heard many life stories. both funny and sad stories.
grasped many studying methods and ways to enhance our studying. :DD
super memory, speed reading, mindmaps. cluster maps, time management, when to revise.
we have also learn about believing in our capabilities and holding on to our dreams.
cried a little on second day's evening and alot on the last day's night programme.
i admire those people who dared to stand in front of 6 classes and all the parents present.
and i guess im one of those peeople who have a deficiency of some sort of thing that finds it difficult to express our love for our parents though deep down in our hearts, we really do.
cried so much listening to other students. my eyes are still tired and swollen from yesterday's crying.
i must say mr ramesh is very inspiring and motivative.
and woei tang's very cute and friendly. i got his autograph and photo!
right i believe no one out there really wants to know the details.
i suppose i shall just keep every single moment of the workshop in my heart, soul and memory.
i will never forget them. and to them,, thanks for all they've taught.
i'm super motivated to study and plan my time well to achieve what i want and what i believe i can do. that is..

TO SCORE 10 A1s. 8)

2007-03-18T07:04:00.000-07:00

WELL I MUST SAY
i have wasted my valuable precious priceless one week march hols.
other than going to school for lessons and band and more band, i spent my time eating, reading, watching tv, surfing the net and being a full time couch potato. hah!

physics tuition every sunday never fails to perk me up (:
weiling, cecilia, harkhui and jieying! WHEEEEE.
too bad charmaine have to drop out due to the travelling time and distance
CHARMAINE! you're missed!

tuition yesterday was such a blast! aha
MR PANG is still ever so funny and quirky and so full of facial expressions!
harkhui had a hilarious convy with this guy called gerald or smthing haha!

gerald: wah i get B3 for my chinese very good already and my english pass very good already (something like that..not very sure)
harkhui : so you speak hokkien at home one la.
everyone : hahahaahhah!

gerald: hey st nicks, how they differentiate different levels? like sec 1 and 2
weiling/ harkhui : by our coloured badges
mr pang : i know your sch sec 1 and 2 wear shorts and sec 3 and 4 wear long pants la!
gerald: ya lor but i always mistaken as sec 3 one la
me: ya because you tooo short
everyone: ahhahahaha!

damn funny la! and harkhui just keep forcing mr pang to tell us his dream and what he wants to be..NOW! haha
he's an engineer and teaching physics tuition as part time. andhe just refuse to say what he wants to be!!!!
all of us started to agitate by "scolding" him.. here goes
do you think you will go far in life by teaching physics every sunday!?!?!! ahaa.
so funny!

had english tuition today. and it was crap! hahaha laughed so much.
all tuitions are turning into laughing sessions!

mr pang promised us that if everyone gets B3 and above for our prelims for all subjects, he will treat us (: im so gonna burn a damn big hole in his pocket. (:

2007-03-15T05:54:00.000-07:00

monday - chem spa + maths lessons
tuesday - 4 hours of chem + 3 1/2 hours of band
wednesday - 4 hours of chem + 3 1/2 hours of band
thursday (today) - self prac + props making + sleep replenishing

alright. there goes my sweety holidays.
i've planned a list of "want- to-dos" before the hols, but it seems impossible
to even complete just one of them.
well band on tuesday was nice (; richard adams rock my socks.
wednesday ong came and we played badly.. REAL badly.
its rather depressing to receive comments like :" you people are of high bronze medal standard".
and we'll just have to face the hard truth.
we ARE of high bronze medal standard.
so people, please change your attitude and just workk hard for the next 4 weeks.
though short as it may seem, it will do wonders if you go down for regular self pracs and take band prac SERIOUSLY.
all of the heads and sec 4s ( at least most of us) are getting really flustered.
after talking to ah wen on the phone yesterday, i pondered over band problems and the gold issue. and i realised band discipline is really rolling downhill.
just take hand ing up consent forms to me?
people can give reasons like :" oh i threw away my e-learning form"
hah! so what does this even show?? bad attitude, bo chap attitude?
i got so irritated yesterday night that i had the urge to make every single band mem who threw away their e learning form to pump 50 straight.
oh wells.. my anger died down so no worries..

went for self prac at 8 20am this morning. rather freaky but peaceful? the schools beautiful in the morning (: ( provided there's no one at te track and field at all)
the band room can be rather scary sometimes when you're ALL ALONE.
and i kept thinking about flute jie jie. haha
yah and chengy and weiping came so haha. AND ULYSSA CAME TOO!
talked alot about band stuff with uly and cheryl choo.
great to find people who shares the same thoughts and a junior who thinks so sensibly.
did some yellow house props with pam, june and dian.
went home and slept from 1330 to 1800!
wasted my beautiful afternoon ):

i just received a message from him and it spells C A T A S T R O P H Y.

im really disappointed in your performance.
everyone is disappointed in you..
please set a good example.

2007-03-11T04:22:00.000-07:00

哈哈我好像很久没写搏客了。
我已决定了！我会尽量用华文！
这样不仅会挺高我的花纹水平，也能。。。哈哈不知道了。
总之呢，我就会用华文（：

最近心情非常差。常常闷闷不乐，不想跟别人说话。
有时，会一个人坐在一个小角落，自己沉浸在属于自己的世界里，与世隔绝。
虽然周围的环境非常宁静与心里却乱的七上八下，也有许多说不出的无奈与烦闷。
感觉就如周围的一切一切，都在于我作对。
心情到最低潮的时刻，会有拿东西来扔的念头。
oh wells.. this is taking so much time.
but i like it (:
alright just to sum up, i've been feeling really down these few days.
no special reason to it.

haah yesterday,my parents and my bro and i went to the arcade at junction
and started playing the basketball game.
my parents? arcade? i see no link, but yea..
deprived childhood you see.. haha.

i know we are.
it is now truly evident that it would never last.
everything between us have come to a stop.
i have also stop struggling to keep it there.
so farewell.

2007-03-02T07:11:00.000-08:00

this week have been wonderful with hana kimi and my crazy obsession!
alright. this is seriously bad okay.
this is the biggest crisis of my life.
its my first time getting all gaga over Male taiwanese artistes and a love story drama series.
oh i think ella has earned herself another loyal fan (:
well, maybe because i never like female singers that have those freaking high pitched voice.
and ella sings alto! (:
okay im just jealous because i cant sing =\
but ella's role in the drama is really cute.
and she' so full of expressions! i wonder if such things ever happen in reality...
it will be so funn!
i bet every one would think im weird if you continue reading down..

I LIKE MEI TIAN LAO SHI! ( tang zhiping)
ahaha. esp his hair!so i've decided to cut his hair IF, and IF i have long hair :DDD
but don't you think he's very cute and attractive actually??
haha i like his gayness.
and liang sinan is secretly cute like what lilin said haha.
oh talking about lilin! good news!
she got her A levels results = A A A B!
ccongrats. :DDD
im getting very hooked on to the show
that i cant concentrate studying!!! this is a really bad sign.
however, im tuning in to more chinese songs (: and i've been speaking more chinese recently.
wo xi huan hua wen hao bu hao! wo shi hua ren! wo ai hua wen!
this is so unlike.. chinese drama series? chinese songs? taiwanese artistes? SHE?
hah! im seeing a major dramatic change in miss see yanzhu.
hah and im putting tao li in cold palace now.. sorry.
oh can you believe it! my mom know who are SHE and wuzun! -FAINTS!
how in can my old mummy get (:
and im rather fascinated by wo zun's background. BRUNEI DARUSSALAM!
cool huh.

band directory 2007 in the process of making..
and much thanks too ppl
HOWEVER im getting irrtated with all the sec 1s horrible hand writing!
it's making me go cross eyed! o_O!
sorry band ppl.
i will hurry the band directory before the term closes =\

-your dearest secretary 07.

2007-02-15T23:45:00.000-08:00

hey people, the explorers of the cyber space.
i think i have a bunch of super funny sec 1 juniors
esp da grace ( grace ho).
well, just let me do a short intro of who they are.
1) grace ho - she happens to be joyce's sister and phy asked me to take good care of her so yeah i will (: she's da grace.she's super enthu and hyper and loves to laugh at me. and she calls me zhu zhu -.-
2) grace leung - cute little girl (; looks very pleasant and peaceful. soft spoken and she's officially the xiao grace in my section :D she's rather small in size and find it hard to lift up the horny thou haha. she lives in rivervale! the same condo as my uncle and granny. (:
3) veronica - another crazy and hyper girl. goes round wrecking havoc with da grace and together with da grace, finds me very amusing (laughing at me all the time!).
4) maryanne! - well, she's soft spoken! argh! must urge her to talk more. she seldom open her mouth and talk. but can tell she's a nice person (:

all 4 of them can play the horn quite well now (:
they are a nice bunch of ppl and i never fail to look forward to teaching them.
oh and da grace brought home her horn! : O i should treasure the time with them man.
im stepping down in may. and i only see them once a week.
weiling says hi! and weiling rocks :DDDDDDDDDDDDD and yanzhu loves weiling mosttttttttttttt <333 (haha that's OBVIOUSLY NOT WRITTEN BY ME)

valentine's day on wednesday! prepared so many presents.
this year is my last year in st nicks where i will be making presents for valentine's day presents );
it's just a tradition in st nicks where all of us are just willing to take the trouble and money to make presents and little notes for our beloved friends and seniors and juniors and even teacehr (:
JIE MEI TONG XIN! (:

had CNY celebration in school.
mass was rather boring but got quite enthu on the thought that it will be our last cny celebration in st nicks.
teh china scholars' item was fabulous! :DD totally amazed.
esp fenglin and zhangli ahah. the way zhang li dance is so funny.
and fenglin danced so well!
haha. and i love the dance item by our dance girls (sec).
so abstract (: well, i might consider joining dance in JC. ( as if i stand the chance to get in la).
ahhah oh man!
im so inspired to join OUTDOOR ACTIVITY cca in VJC :D

off home!~ to pack my room

2007-02-09T20:54:00.000-08:00

yeah im so happy (:
secured an A1 in my O levels results.
yepp i scored A1!!!! and distinction for chinese! :DDD
was so worried and flustered during that few hours before the release of results.
haha and i realised whenever im nervous or scared i don't say it out
and i would suddenly become super quiet and of a person with little words.
i believe almost everyone in my class got As la.
see no one crying or looking sad.
(: well that's good.
can you believe it? my mom didnt know i was geting back my results today!

yanzhu: mummy, i got A1 AND distinction for chinese.
mummy: huh? what are you saying?
yanzhu: i got A1 for chinese O levels!
mummy: you cry arh?
yanzhu: O_O! i got back my chinese o levels results today and i got A1!!!!!!!!!
mummy: when did you take the exam
yanzhu: -.-

and abit my dad say: really? you bluff me is it? or you lucky one.
what the! ahah.

the greys got back their results too!
heard from the radio that we got the highest number of 10 A1s!
so proud of the grey badge and the school!
hoho. hope reds will do as excellently or even better!
abit shoe and phyllinda got 8A1s!!!!!! and they went up on stage! i think i saw them crying and i was cheering so hard for them at the back of the hall!! :D
yeah im so proud of them..
and and vanessa managed to get into a JC with her score! yeah! congrats!
im feeling super inspired and motivated to study now and score as well.
alright my target: 7 A1s! :D

went for saints alumni band concert was sam.
sorry to keep her waiting ): was caught in a damn bad jam.
i love the trombones jazz the best!
the 3 of them were so cute and the song was really cute.
heheh im falling in love with trombones! :DD
there are like some kinda cool, gold and classy sawing machine!
their band's really good. (: kokie is seriously tall and i don't know why!

gosh i cut my hair! :D

2007-02-08T03:30:00.000-08:00

chinese Os will be oout tomorrow!
O levels will be out tmrw!
ALL THE BEST TO THE GREY BADGE!!! AND THE REDS WHO TOOK THEIR CHINESE Os and
MYSELF :DDD

gosh im super worried.
3 days really passed super fast. =i should really put down my high hopes.
i think i wrote out of point for ying yong wen!! ):
i'll just pray for the best.

i was reading through my career guide book and was rather inspired.
i realised i love jobs that have to do with environment and nature and also chemical researches.
1) Environmental Engineer
2) manager ( gardening programmes/ park divisions) - under NPB
3) Arborist
4) Horticulture Specialists
5) planning executive in npb
6) attraction manager
7) biomedical researcher and science engineering researcher
8) management executive in agri-food and veterinary authority
9) laboratory officer
10) regulatory Scientist
11) laboratory Biologist
12) dietician
13) diagnostic radiographer

all these jobs are related to what im studying
so i suppose i do stand some chances in choosing them (:
like biology, chemistry, geog (;
see geog is super fun and useful!
especially when im super in love with nature and protecting her.

ALL HAIL MOTHER NATURE!

yopps! date concert with sammie twammie tmrw (:
kokie's concert..

2007-02-05T01:28:00.000-08:00

i realised sometimes its rather inconvenient to
write some thoughts here.

alright i shall write it general.. (:
I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!
everyone single one that existed in my life for even just 10secs.
i love everyone, those that i've known for years, since pri sch, some for 4 years, some 3 years, some 1 year, some 2 years, some perhaps one week, one month, one day, one mintue.
i love my family members my pa, my ma, boy!! my dearest cousin (sam!) aahah.
anyway talking about sam, i remember the funny and silly times we played together since young huh.
going playground and each other's house so often, the milk - milo drinking competition, the fairy acting, princess acting, trying to put on accesories and make up like those in cartoons, ahaha.
i guess without her, my childhood would be rather..boring? it's always nice to have a sister okay. tht's what i've always wanted one..but i've got a brother!! oh wells.ahha but he's cute (: but naughty >: (

anyway 4Puritians!!!it seem too early but im going to book a chalet during june hols at either pasir ris downtown or coasta sands or loyang chalet :DDD
it will be our last play before we get down to study real hard for our O levels
must participate actively okay (:
if you don't attend it me and cheryl's gonna bang your door down and pull you there!
the welfare heads are strong ppl although we are skinny. 8)

love PURITY!

2007-01-31T02:25:00.000-08:00

volleyball day!
:DD the day of the weeek that i always look forward to!
anyway, yesterday was rather nice.
lilin and yingyi came back!!!
so surprisingly! they graduate from stnicks in 2004! and now 2007
they are back. (:
but sadly, didnt get to talk much to lilin cause i was busy teaching the new sec 1s.
); ahah. but she's still so nice. it really threw me back to my sec 1 days when she was guiding and teaching me.
now im sec 4! and she's waiting for A levels results.
it's once again, scary, thinking about how time flies.
i have 4 new juniors! :D
yeah they seem pretty guai and sweet and committed.
at least they werent forced to take band as their cca.
i have 2 graces, veronica and maryanne. (:
they said they want to be the most enthusiastic section! yeah good girls.
but may their passion stay forever..
kinda afraid they would mind the rather rusty and smelly horns =but they seemed fine with them..

back to volley
i love volley! just minus the part where i have to worry about my vein getting swollen.. ):
ahah i've got 3 bruises on my right lower arm!

drained out and blinded

2007-01-28T05:58:00.000-08:00

i realised how i've no been able to look at how beautiful mornings were.
i have not been able to admire the love and warmth around me.
i have not been able to immerse myself in every single happenings.
it is blinding me badly.every single second, im worrying and fearing.
this barrier in my life, in my mind, in my heart is killing me softly.. so silently yet so agonsingly.
it feels as if an unknown force is lifting me up and thrashing my whole body down on bard wires
and next pulling me up, tearing and melting my flesh away. and before i could even cry in pain, i was being thrown down onto that merciless barbed wire.
i hate to fear. i hate the feeling of my heart thumping so vigorously in dread and fear each day.
i feel absolutely disturbed. i can't concentrate. i can't put my heart in every single thing i do.
it's really a great mystery how my passion have turned into a devil, devouring every part of me bit by bit.
one month have passed, so slow and long.
it seemed as if i have just fought a battle of blood and lives, for years.
now im all weary and beat. how am i going to survive for another 4 months?
i've tried to be positive but i know im just fooling myself.
there were times i wanted to turn to someone, but what can the person do?
i know that it all lies on me, just me to overcome this barrier.
i've talked to my mom, my parents. i thank them for understanding and listening to me rant and even sometimes cry.
they told me to hang on, and ignore everything. they told me to just fulfil my duties till my "contract" ends.
what matters now is my studies and my mental condition.
i will be looking forward, to the day when i can break free.

keep me going
please.

2007-01-21T06:18:00.001-08:00

long time since i've last blogged (:
saturdays and sundays are gonna be such a blast from now on!
(: saturday 10am - piano at chewy's house!
saturday 330 pm - tuition at audrey's house with chia!

sunday 130 pm - pangs tuition! with cecilia, weiling, harkhui, jieying and charmaine!

physics tuition was so high today!
every single one of us were so high! esp me and weiling.
ahha. sat with her today and had numerous laughing fits
over the most silly and simple actions like waving a ruler when the teacher was taking attendance.
she just laughed at me for doing that when the teacher called my name la!
alright i just remember laughing throughtout the lesson. haha.
i think the fries that i ate contained a large amount of laughing gas which made me so high and thus exerting a moderating influence on weiling. (WOAH!)
happiness does spread and everyone started laughing alot even this guy behind me started laughing.

me and weiling started laughing alot. and i think that guy was laughing too
mr pang: why are you people laughing so much today
me and weiling: (just keep laughing)
mr pang: then you!?!? ( to the guy)
guy: because they are laughing so i laugh also.
O_O!!!!
haha MADE me and weiling laughed even more.

what was most funny was when harkhui was eating chips, mr pang stared at her with " it looks yummy" look and harkhui offered him. he just shook his head damn violently and gave this " what do you think you are doing!" look! haaha
it was simply hilarious and me and weiling couldnt stop laughing.
alright i think the guy behind me was quite poorthing.
cause we keep laughing and he must be wondering why are we laughing.
he kept asking me but i just couldnt answer because we were seriously laughing at the stupidest things. and he said : so selfish. never share the joke!"
ahaha.
sunday tuition really rocks!
laughing is the best remedy! :DDDDD
i will be looking forward to next sunday!