there's never a wish better than this, when you've got a hundred years to live.

i know i'll just have to rely on myself.
just myself.
i will survive, yes i will
with my independence, determination and strong will.
i will tell myself never to give up.
cause giving up will only prove defeat and failure.

but even with all my strength, i will never find it back, never.
sadly enough, i will be looking forward to that day which i used to dread.