28 november 2008.
Today has been a really... happy afternoon. (: went to the doctor's and then to marina square to meet sam. Im so proud of myself actually. I know how to travel here and there in singapore, ranging from central to east to west and north and south :D okay back to main topic.. i talked alittle to xixun and met their friend (: and yup of to MEGA SHOPPING with my lovely cousin :D we went really bonkers. And its been really ages ever since i carrried bags of shopping. My harvest of the day : 1 beautiful pair of heels about 3 inches tall =x, a lovely metallic butterfly hairband and 2 tops, both blouses but one is damn freaking manly and the other is a little classy. i needa get a waist belt to go with it cause it looks rather empty. AND IM kinda afraid to wear the damn freaking man top now cause people might mistake me for a bunk especially when im short haired. boohoo! But then again, it feels much better after shopping therapy although its a really bad sin with the fact that we are actually facing a financial recession. OMG and talking about the heels i bought, it was really really prettyyy! the whole shop was magnificant. Although its from china, but the shoes are really exotic and unique. The shoes have little touches of china essence with comtemporary designs. Even the sole of the heels are carved intricately with chinese designs. (: And the lady who is from china is really friendly and cool and pretty. Her fashion sense is superb, just a little too colourful. But at least, she doesnt follow the trend and has her own style :D I LIKE!
BOth me and sam saw many things we would love to purchase! but due to financial constraints, we had to control our burning desires. ha and we came across a shop named cactus or smthing that has really gross bear figurines!!! OMG ahah should raelly go take a look. AND the jewellery box in that shop IS TOTALLY GORGEOUS!!!! (: As usual, pretty things go with pretty prices =(
Towards dinner time, i guess both of us were really shagged and tired so we started going koo koo and alittle brain-dead. We werent processing things properly. Here goes the story.....we went to john little in search of nice waist belts. We stood there for a long time, because all the belts that sam took cant seem to fit her!! its all too bigg! So we kept changing and changing and complaining that the belts were too big for sam's waist." arghh!! too big". This continued for a number of belts till the point we wanted to give up. Then, finally when i picked one out, i saw the buckle.. " Hey sam you know what. The belts are actually adjustable" =.=!!!! OMG WE FELT SO STOOOPIDD!
Its really fun shopping with sammy :D bu i feel kinda sinful for spending like near 110 bucks today. =X Well, thats inclusive of the food and snacks. NOW my next destination to conquer is forever 21 and bugis :D i needa look for cool sweaters or outer wear. I saw a really nice one in suntec and marina square. And i wanna get my coolio office wear from miss sixties! and a nice vest! and lastly, flats.. i've got far too many pairs of heels. my mom was complaining =P Anyway, much thanks to sam today for shopping with me. Lifted my spirits up :D

OK proceeding on.. (emo part) Been feeling kinda empty these few days. Band has really been a joy for me, with new juniors coming in and new chapter begins again. Then again, many things would have or would be changed wouldnt it? Just like how the story of isabella and edward changes and metamorphosized over the 4 series of the vampire love story. Just like how every story has an ending. Just like how a pretty flower will wither and die off when the time comes. I suppose all happy beginnings and processes will come to an end at any time.. and i guess most of the time, when one is experiencing the particular downturn in their life, no one seems to be around to just share the woe. OH whatever. Maybe some things are just not meant to be known by a second being other than yourself. Isnt it better in that way? Perhaps i wish i was a little less emotional, a little less reflective, a little less pessimistic, a little more happy go lucky, a little more insensitive, a little more oblivious. That would make life much happier (: and make me less worrisome and think lesser. OH YES that would seroiusly be wonderful.

Anyway back to a lighter note, i would seriously like to thank a few people (: Like mr big guy joel, who has been talking much to me lately about crap or about other stuff. And extending his support and help without hesitation for badminton and sewing of curtains although he didnt exactly come for badminton and helped to sew AHAH! but thanks for helping me pull the needle out. (: And of course mr christopher, who has been going to school and practising with me and eating lunch with me and talking to me and lending me alot of his coins =P MELLY! for lending me her swimming pool and her house's sun for suntanning =P! And mingde, who has been constantly practising with me and teaching me lots of warm up exercises and techniques to improve my horn playing, DESPITE ALWAYS BEING LATE! tsk tsk. and elton of course who comes down to prac together and lending coins too =P OH OH and daniel cher for dancing with me! (: im so sorry if i have been to boney or heavy for you during the waltz =X! im so scared i'll break your bones.

Next two days will really be busy for me. Tomorrow will be band practice THE WHOLE DAY. and then maybe section dinner without daniel without ij girls without khaizar without daniel. OKAY WHAT KINDA SECTION DINNER IS THAT!? ha. Sunday will be tuition then concert with dear skinny cheryl at UCC (: must wear nice nice. got free cockttail dinner HAHAH! then monday, i may be going wild wild wet with my family. if not i will go swimming :D and of course, not missing out my studying time slots in between the busy schedule.

toodles...

this sucks. i hate the feeling of just myself

Holidays are here but i aint feeling any ecstacy or what sort ever. Ok maybe at the beginning of it i did feel a little delighted. Well i guess holidays aint going as well as i hoped it did. Everyone is all so busy with their own stuff. CCAs, exco, meetings. Things feel even worse when most of your friends are caught up in such stuff. Oh whatever.

But then again, i should be glad. Tune in yesterday was a great success. Thanks to the wonderful Tae and exco of vjcsb. Tae really put in alot of work and they met up like almost every other day to prepare for tune in. I was really excited and eager to see the sec4s. And it was great to hear a whole full band together and get cramped in the small band room. Cosy indeed. But this year was lacking of Tkgs and stnicks girls, dunman high, st pats and random secondary schools like last year. But there were more of VS guys and ijtp girls. My section had lesser ppl compared to last year. Last year tune in we had 11 sec 4s horn and 3 seniors, so there were 14 of us squeezing. Super coolio. Oh but this year we had lesser sec4s in comparison to last year. In any case, last year's nssn experience was really superb. Best holidays of my life ever. Maybe cause phy and kahsiong and some other seniors were really nice. And of course, my other section mates werent weird other than... dots. OKAY! games were kinda interesting i guess. My batch ppl got really high esp me, instead of the sec4s. =P but i do hope the sec4s enjoyed the whole process. unfortunately it rained. IF not i bet it will be much more FUN and laugher. I had so much fun laughing at forfeits and pouring flour on other ppl (: YEAh and i was named a TAE friend. Lots of interesting and happening things happened. Cant exactly recall but yesterday was really hyped and enjoyable.

Went for dinner together in like a herd of vj band ppl!! i think we totally intimidated the bus passengers. But well, has been a long time since i have had huge band dinner with band people. This really threw me back to last year when phy always ask me along to join the seniors and other sec4s for lunch and dinner. And the many dinners after orientation. Well well i should stop dwelling in the past and look forward.

Yeah and our section had 2 ijtp girls and 2 vs and one bendemeer who missed tune in. They are astee, stephanie, elton, ridah and bende respectively. (Well, bende is a short form me and mingde gave for the bendemeer guy) ahaha. Right. Oh no im really sad cause sec4s will be stuck in between me and ming de and we cant crap retarded stuff anymore. But nvm (:

Anyway thanks much to junsen chris gabriel and sean. Of course, not missing out mr chicken and doggy in the band room today that kept me company. Well maybe kept each of us company. ): so sad. no one came to prac except us. i was hoping more j1s would go down and perhaps pull a few sec 4s to interact with. I guess we had fun being psychopatic and start treating the animals as if they are real. Like how gab start patting and stroking the dog's tail, how sean started playing with cookie monster's limbs and mouth, and me combing chicken's butt hair and saying hi to him. and chris hugging his jacket really tightly. =.= played bridge and had really lots of fun. I kept pairing with sean and chris.. And the moment i paired with gab, i lost =.= ahah. Its been a long time since i hang out at the mattress area too. (: so yeah good time spent today actually.

Tomorrow will be TAE auditions for roles in nssn skit. I didnt exactly signed up. but i know chia and hid knows i wanan act. so yeah. A small minute role will just do fine (: chris and iggy sign up for voice over HAAH cant wait to hear chris. He's damn wacky and retarded with his voice. And iggy can be mr botak! ;D




how i wish you were still in vj ): then i will have someone to talk to and share thoughts with.

urgh nevermind.


I dont feel like blogging at all. Just so happened that i logged in with an urge to say something but i lost it in just that 2 seconds when the posting page was trying to load.

Help someone..im desperately feeeling very very emotional and gloomy and down ):
Not that im unhappy with anything currently in my life. I think i should really feel happy and carefree at this point of time. A sad love drama's influence is really overwhelming. Esp did i mention? its from korea. Arghhhhhhhhhh! all the crying scenes and good acting skills.
I really shouldnt have started on this drama maniac. Its really making not me at all.Im going all ): everyday when im alone. I keep thinking of how wronged the girl has been since she was young and how terrible her fate was to be. Her father's really dumb dumb to let her get manipulated and bullied by her stepmother and step sister. Also seeing how dejected the guy was waiting and pining for her and cant have her despite finally finding her after 5 years. And how they were still seperated in the end by a twist of fate. The guy really waited for her for eon years but still lost her. ): But when they were young, it was really super sweet but also heart aching.
DAMN IT! I HAVE SERIOUSLY GOTTEN MYSELF IN DEEP SHIT.
SAVE ME SOMEONE. PULL ME OUT OF THIS. IM SO SICK OF FEELING SO MUCH FOR THE CHARACTERS. i think i had better hurry finish the last 7 eppisodes and get over with this drama series once and for all. I WANNA LAUGH AND SMILE AND GO BONKERS.
But then again, i doubt such a drama will happen in life. Right? On second thought, its not so far fetched actually. But is there any guy that is as faithful and gentlemanly and persistent like cha song joo in Singapore? haha..

Tomorrow will be the last ever day im going to be in touch with ProjectWork. WHEEEEEEEEEEE! but i hope OP on tues would be fine fine fine and fantastic. I do hope that every single one of us will pull through Q and A. But then, i seriously do not carry much hope in getting A. Vj's pw A percentage is really low.

Alright and i really do miss my band friends ): Been such such such a looooong time since we sit together in the band room and talk rubbish. And like none of us ever goes into the band room any more ): arghhhhhh! i miss you guys and girls! Hopefullly when band prac resumes, i will feel so much happier that i will forget all about Stairway to Heaven! yes! i will forget about it :D And i wanna have pro and crazy juniors for nssn and next year SYF! NSSN better be a blast!! :D and i guess we will make this last concert a memorable one for us and mr tan.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR PRES GAYYYYYYYY-BRIEL:D
It's great seeing a primary school friend in my JC and even in my own CCA. Although we werent very close of what so ever in pri sch, its still nice to have you as a friend now!! :D GO MR PRES! all the way for NSSN'08!

SHALL POST SOME PICTURES. I've really been out of blogging for a loooong time.