to think about it, it was raelly a wonder i could survive till now.
believe it a not, im a test tube child. :D

i just recalled how i got admitted into hospital almost once every 3 to 4 months.
having asthma relapse every now and then.
just merely sitting in my dad's car can result it me
having breathing difficulties and scared the wits off my parents.
and im always, always diagnosed with bronchitis or worst still, pnuemonia.
being very careful with my weak constitution, my mom
wrote a list of do's and do not's for my kindergarden teachers.
eg. no fruits allowed except apples (not chilled),only plain warm water allowed, no chocolates, no ice cream, no exercising, no vigorous works.. and the lists goes on.
it became better when i entered primary school.
eg. no running, no chilled drinks, no ice cream, no titbits..and stuff
but i broke some of them in pri sch and ended up coughing and sent to hospital..again.
i remembered there was this super serious one where i contracted pneumonia.
and had to be on this antiboitic drip when came in this funny box like shape.
had this big needle stuck in my vein on my other side of the palm. and i couldnt even move that particular hand >:(
while on that drip, i could practically feel the medicine entering my bloodstream.
so freaky. and i was lying on the white bed for one whole week ):
when i heard that i had to give a miss for the zoo trip, i cried like !@#$%^&*()/
there's one thing i still like about staying in the hospital till this day is that
i get to enjoy this speacial privilege of watching tv the whole day, WHOLE DAY!
and lying in bed, lazing around. moreover with my mom who is such an eater,
she would never fail to call for room service and i always get a pinch of that foood (:
and i love staying in the hospital because its THOMSON MEDICAL CENTRE! and the nurses there who me too well ( because i've been admitted so many times).
and they treat me so sweetly and nicely! and the room is rather cosy with just me and an empty bed sharing the room.
ooh! and i remembered there is this caucasian doctor who would always come before my meals to pat my back with this special hand technique
which will help my lungs or something to loosen up to allow me to breathe properly.
it was super comfy! (: hahah.

yeah! im going for a christmas party with my mom on the 22 dec at carlton or smthing.
(: so happy! its going to be my public party! oh i sound like a country bumpkin..

urh! that jingwen put such a dumb picture of me on her blooog!

jingwen: i think this band camp really left me quite a good impression of the band ppl (:
yanzhu: haha serious? eh i thought you flew off already
jingwen: haha i'm sending you the msg on the plane! no la, i suddenly miss band camp.
yanzhu: eh eh! don't think about band la. enjoy your trip!
jingwen: okies. i will. haha rmb to msg me hor.

haha our last convy.BYE
enjoy your trip and BUY ME LOTS OF FOOOOOD!
;DDD



in tribute of aw jingwen (:

band camp (:

DAY 1
physical training STUPID PAMELAAAAAAA!
now all my muscle aches from sunday, tuesday and wednesday are all
accumulated!
PT was rather fun i guess (:
and poor jessie slipped and fell into a puddle! straigh into it ): so painful
love captain's ball.
bath in the gym toilet :DDD
band prac.... ): GLORIA CAME BACKKKKKKk!!!!!!
SHUELIIIII TOOOo!
AND MANY SENIORSSSSS TOOOOO!
miss gloria like ~!@#$%^&*()_+
almost cried.... ):
dinenr with section.
swearing in pushed back because cher was NOT IN SCHOOl! >:(
watched ballon hat video.ahaha. and talked to shueli and glors
next swearing in!
sad to say, the drills were rather sloppy..
but i think elysia and yiinghuey did pretty well 8)
JINGWEN (: DON'T FEEL DISAPPOINTED, JUST CONTINUE TO WORK HARD
night games was rathe hilraious! with dearest esther and jiaying!
i tihnk esther is really funny! ahah
trying so hard to scare ppl with the meeh meehh sheep! and walkign aorund barefooted!
(: managed to scare the wits off gwyneth, ruijun and giokqin.
seeing them so freaked out made me feel so hahah! and yet scared for them.
later they developed some phobia or start crying. =oh oh! jiaying found a guides shovel and she looked like a farmer! haah
jessie is just so hilarious.made me and peiting roll on the floor laughing.
bathed again illegally (:
and played some mahjong. went to movie room but didnt even dare look at it.
pam slept super super early and she was the first to sleepp
slept super early like 2?!?!?
earliest sleeping time for band camps!
jingwen and shueli just kept chatting and i could hear them in my sleep ahah.

DAY 2
woke up brain dead...felt sick.
ate only a bit of breakfast and had diarrhoea =felt super cold the whole morning when the sun was shining so brightly!
had treasure hunt thingy and talentime (:
the groups did well i should say.
i love weiling's group (: remix! retarded but entertaining
and and and the ernie without bert (: ahha
the prizes were SOOOOOO attractive k! >.<
had pumping session (: peiting scolded the band!
and i hanta-ed for 4 mins! missed drills but developed calves ache
lunch with section again (:
i really wonder why the two little sec1 imps just refues to talk you know!!
and i felt stony too. so didnt talk and weiling felt so pissed haah!
she just kept talking to herself.
spring clean! yeah! (: the band room looked so clean
and went to music room to play with percs.
the pig game! and taught sec1s the band cheer :DDD
played black jack with...enid, jiaying, jingwen, esther, louise, jesssling, jessie,regina new, and many many!
laughed so much at the balloon hat photos too!
played the pig game again!with some sec2s and percs. haha it really amuses me! :D
entertaining i should say :DDD
its officially my fave game!
oh nooO! im so gonna miss louise ):
saw her crying and it made me wanna cry too.

anyway, i saw jaslyn finally after 3 years (: thanks sarah!

I LOVE BAND COMM 06! <333333333333333333333
joy, esther, jessie, sarah, regina new, grace
peiting, andrea, leonie, pamela, jingwen, uly, simin, onyu, jiaying, evonne, elaine, cheryl, enid!
haha. we shall make a comm tee soon (:

someone name me the SKINNY flip flop on her blog.
so amazing.

it just dawned on me how time passes so quickly during school time
yet so slowly in band. =i need you. i really do.

anyway watch this (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzDycU7ovfo

miss all of them!!!!!






I LOVE YOU PPL (:

yesterday was rockingly relaxing.
never been to the beach for like maybe a month?
okay tht's not exactly long.
With all that hectic schedule, juggling between
school and band and more school and band,
it will really a rare chance for me to go out
and enjoy myself, bask under the beautiful sun and
brush myself against the breeze.
rained a little. met up with some classmates. and they waited for me for a long time =\ so sorry
i was so dumb. alighted at the wrong stop
and kept missing the buses which led to the correct bus stop. -.-
went cycling and peiyi injured her little toe!
argh it was bleeding profusely and the moment i saw it
my head went a little dizzy. but got used to it.
washed her wound. i realised i can't stand the sight of blood
though the blood colour is nice.
Sounds a little contradicting huh.
eh eh while cycling got a some guys said hi to ziqin
ahah
and june commented this :" if she don't attract guys, then she attract girls huh?"
i though that was pretty hilarious (:
the food was rather too much (: ahha
never mind had fun BBQ-ing
but the lights there were quite disturbing
it kept goingo on and off!
and we couldnt see the food whether it was cooked!
alright pictures tomorrow (:

research have shown that ice cream you choose can tell your personality!
Next time you're standing in front of the ice cream freezer, consider what it means if you choose:

Vanilla- Vanilla fans are anything but bland. They are impulsive risk takers and set high goals for themselves. They rely more on intuition than logic and are extremely close with their families. They go for other vanilla lovers.

Chocolate - Chocoholics tend to be creative and dramatic and gravitate toward being named the life of the party. Watch out though, they get bored easily. Chocolate lovers match well with those who favour mint chip. Those who go for double chocolate chunk tend to be seductive, well dressed, intuitive and enjoy intimate relationships.

Strawberry - Those who love this flavour are usually thoughtful, self-critical and detail oriented. They like to stay behind the scenes and out of the limelight. A bit shy, they tend to follow more easily than they lead. When they commit to a relationship (they like those who favour chocolate chip ice cream), they are loyal and supportive.

Chocolate Chip - These generous, accomplished folks are go-getters and intolerant of defeat. Visionaries and conquerors, many become industry leaders. These are the guys voted most likely to succeed.

Mint Chocolate chip - These are ambitious, confident, stubborn realists who fall for others who share their flavour preference.

Coffee - Coffee fans are dramatic and flirtatious, passionate and overcommitted. Because they thrive on exciting ventures, sometimes they tend to start new projects before finishing old ones. They match up well with strawberry lovers.

Rocky Road -These guys tend to be charming in social situations and aggressive in business. They respond better to encouragement than criticism (who doesn't?).

Banana - The most flattering personality profile of all...the perfect partner, parent or child! We're sure that the fact that this happens to be the favourite of the neurologist who ran the study is purely coincidental!

im strawberry (:
jingwen's choco chip (:
cecilia's chocolate (:
pam is a mixture of chocolate and choco chip (:
its rather spot-on.

everythng seems to be scattered all over the place.
nothing's going right, nothing.
grandma got admitted to hospital, again.
she seem to have lost her sense.
it really scare me alot. she was fne just a while,
and within split seconds, she can cry, shout, grope the bed.
my mom started crying.
i can totally feel the loneliness and fear my grandma was going through.
her palms were cold, freezing cold.
when i place my hand there, she hurriedly grabbed it and clutched it so tightly.
and i realised there were blood stains on the bedsheet where her right hand was,
on drip.
you can jus imagine what happened the previous night.
she must have lost her sanity and start pulling the needle off her hand which was connected to the drip.
i miss her cooking and her hugging me so warmly whenever i visit her.
i miss her singing and her laughter.

now, my aunt fell ill.
and my cousin have A levels coming up.
i have to take care of my aunt.
hope my cousin would be able to conc (:


chia's flying off tonight ))):
no one to crap to!!!
agH! anyway if you happen to see this chia...
enjoy our trip (: cut the egyptian hairstyle!
and bring me back sand! :DDD
i know that you will start missing me even before ou board the place (:
take care!

just brief recount on what i did.

had Asia Pac conference at Chongfu pri sch.
met pam in the morning and went there. was rather excited but it turned out
rather confusing and tiring.
got so drained.
left with cc and pam and went to catch death note :D
dumb us went to the wrong room
and we were seriously wondering whether we went to the wrong room.
yes we went to the wrong room.
hurriedly dashed out.
and managed to catch death note but not the front few mins.
i like the death god
hehe. "WHERE'S MY APPLE!" then he slam the ceiling
ahaha.
the show's nice.but the ending's really frustrating!! ahha
i will be looking forward to death note 2

there's never a wish better than this, when you've got a hundred years to live.

i know i'll just have to rely on myself.
just myself.
i will survive, yes i will
with my independence, determination and strong will.
i will tell myself never to give up.
cause giving up will only prove defeat and failure.

but even with all my strength, i will never find it back, never.
sadly enough, i will be looking forward to that day which i used to dread.

hah! what can be the best?
having Asia Pac conference tomorrow
and NUS maths enrichment on next tues.
which means missing band prac, missing sia-coming band pracs
and im gonna be such deadmeat.
i shall just get prepared for a reall big thrashing from her when i go
back on the 21 of nov for sia-band prac.
i can simply predict what's she gonna say.

anyway, preparation for APC (: rather excited about it.
my first time attending a conference in another school, a pri sch.
the best part is my pri 6 form teacher is now the princial of that sch =omg.
me and pam will be partners in work from tomorrow onwards, negotiating with
other country diplomates to support our vision (:
pam! HE ZUO YU KUAI!

i've been enlightened! be glad alright?
not everyone get such enlightments (:
i shall refrain from all sweet food, drinks, preserved foods, and simply unhealthy food.
im getting paranoid our my health, maybe just worried.
diabetes, kidney failure, high cholestrol, high blood pressure, heart attack!
these are scaring the wits out of me.
YANBOO SHALL OFFICIALLY DECLARE, HEALTHY EATING SPREE
FOR 2 WHOLE WEEKS (:
that will be till band camp.
argh! fish.
i need to collate band camp consent forms, check proposals for band camp,
ask canteen aunties for price for food and hand up proposals to teachers!
~!@#$%^&*()_+ im gonna mad.
plus intensive piano and horn practices.
SOMEONE HELP!.

anyway to dear juniors, jiayou for tmrw alright?
play well and i have faith in you ppl :DDDD

to my dearest confidant aw jingwen (:
don't be worried though i know its hard not to worry.
perhaps its really a good thing for himt o be sent there.
think about it. the results :D
i believe he will never let his precious one(you) to worry
and cry over him right.
i will always be there for you. <3

so what do you people know?
i just got enlightened on one big philosophy of life.

no longer will it be like 2 years ago.
and i miss every single one of them.

lilin
jiaying
rachel teo
jael
gloria
phyllinda
shumin
vanessa
huiwei.

i need a shoulder to lean on.
im getting tired.
and i am beginning to wonder..
will be able to hang on