volleyball day!
:DD the day of the weeek that i always look forward to!
anyway, yesterday was rather nice.
lilin and yingyi came back!!!
so surprisingly! they graduate from stnicks in 2004! and now 2007
they are back. (:
but sadly, didnt get to talk much to lilin cause i was busy teaching the new sec 1s.
); ahah. but she's still so nice. it really threw me back to my sec 1 days when she was guiding and teaching me.
now im sec 4! and she's waiting for A levels results.
it's once again, scary, thinking about how time flies.
i have 4 new juniors! :D
yeah they seem pretty guai and sweet and committed.
at least they werent forced to take band as their cca.
i have 2 graces, veronica and maryanne. (:
they said they want to be the most enthusiastic section! yeah good girls.
but may their passion stay forever..
kinda afraid they would mind the rather rusty and smelly horns =but they seemed fine with them..

back to volley
i love volley! just minus the part where i have to worry about my vein getting swollen.. ):
ahah i've got 3 bruises on my right lower arm!

drained out and blinded

i realised how i've no been able to look at how beautiful mornings were.
i have not been able to admire the love and warmth around me.
i have not been able to immerse myself in every single happenings.
it is blinding me badly.every single second, im worrying and fearing.
this barrier in my life, in my mind, in my heart is killing me softly.. so silently yet so agonsingly.
it feels as if an unknown force is lifting me up and thrashing my whole body down on bard wires
and next pulling me up, tearing and melting my flesh away. and before i could even cry in pain, i was being thrown down onto that merciless barbed wire.
i hate to fear. i hate the feeling of my heart thumping so vigorously in dread and fear each day.
i feel absolutely disturbed. i can't concentrate. i can't put my heart in every single thing i do.
it's really a great mystery how my passion have turned into a devil, devouring every part of me bit by bit.
one month have passed, so slow and long.
it seemed as if i have just fought a battle of blood and lives, for years.
now im all weary and beat. how am i going to survive for another 4 months?
i've tried to be positive but i know im just fooling myself.
there were times i wanted to turn to someone, but what can the person do?
i know that it all lies on me, just me to overcome this barrier.
i've talked to my mom, my parents. i thank them for understanding and listening to me rant and even sometimes cry.
they told me to hang on, and ignore everything. they told me to just fulfil my duties till my "contract" ends.
what matters now is my studies and my mental condition.
i will be looking forward, to the day when i can break free.

keep me going
please.

long time since i've last blogged (:
saturdays and sundays are gonna be such a blast from now on!
(: saturday 10am - piano at chewy's house!
saturday 330 pm - tuition at audrey's house with chia!

sunday 130 pm - pangs tuition! with cecilia, weiling, harkhui, jieying and charmaine!

physics tuition was so high today!
every single one of us were so high! esp me and weiling.
ahha. sat with her today and had numerous laughing fits
over the most silly and simple actions like waving a ruler when the teacher was taking attendance.
she just laughed at me for doing that when the teacher called my name la!
alright i just remember laughing throughtout the lesson. haha.
i think the fries that i ate contained a large amount of laughing gas which made me so high and thus exerting a moderating influence on weiling. (WOAH!)
happiness does spread and everyone started laughing alot even this guy behind me started laughing.

me and weiling started laughing alot. and i think that guy was laughing too
mr pang: why are you people laughing so much today
me and weiling: (just keep laughing)
mr pang: then you!?!? ( to the guy)
guy: because they are laughing so i laugh also.
O_O!!!!
haha MADE me and weiling laughed even more.

what was most funny was when harkhui was eating chips, mr pang stared at her with " it looks yummy" look and harkhui offered him. he just shook his head damn violently and gave this " what do you think you are doing!" look! haaha
it was simply hilarious and me and weiling couldnt stop laughing.
alright i think the guy behind me was quite poorthing.
cause we keep laughing and he must be wondering why are we laughing.
he kept asking me but i just couldnt answer because we were seriously laughing at the stupidest things. and he said : so selfish. never share the joke!"
ahaha.
sunday tuition really rocks!
laughing is the best remedy! :DDDDD
i will be looking forward to next sunday!

long time since i've last blogged (:
saturdays and sundays are gonna be such a blast from now on!
(: saturday 10am - piano at chewy's house!
saturday 330 pm - tuition at audrey's house with chia!

sunday 130 pm - pangs tuition! with cecilia, weiling, harkhui, jieying and charmaine!

physics tuition was so high today!
every single one of us were so high! esp me and weiling.
ahha. sat with her today and had numerous laughing fits
over the most silly and simple actions like waving a ruler when the teacher was taking attendance.
she just laughed at me for doing that when the teacher called my name la!
alright i just remember laughing throughtout the lesson. haha.
i think the fries that i ate contained a large amount of laughing gas which made me so high and thus exerting a moderating influence on weiling. (WOAH!)
happiness does spread and everyone started laughing alot even this guy behind me started laughing.

me and weiling started laughing alot. and i think that guy was laughing too
mr pang: why are you people laughing so much today
me and weiling: (just keep laughing)
mr pang: then you!?!? ( to the guy)
guy: because they are laughing so i laugh also.
O_O!!!!
haha MADE me and weiling laughed even more.

what was most funny was when harkhui was eating chips, mr pang stared at her with " it looks yummy" look and harkhui offered him. he just shook his head damn violently and gave this " what do you think you are doing!" look! haaha
it was simply hilarious and me and weiling couldnt stop laughing.
alright i think the guy behind me was quite poorthing.
cause we keep laughing and he must be wondering why are we laughing.
he kept asking me but i just couldnt answer because we were seriously laughing at the stupidest things. and he said : so selfish. never share the joke!"
ahaha.
sunday tuition really rocks!
laughing is the best remedy! :DDDDD
i will be looking forward to next sunday!

***You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)***


You're both compassionate and brilliant - a rare combination.
You were born to be a doctor.


What Advanced Degree Should You Get?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatadvanceddegreeshouldyougetquiz/

haha did this quiz. kinda fun.
me doctor?? yanzhu the doctor? omg
can you imagine me appearing in the doctor's world?
so wrong. i will be one of the stupidest doctors there.
anyway tht's not my dream career for now. perhaps my perspective will have a drastic change. hoho.

something kept me comptemplating the whole night just now.
so i only completed 2 pages of ss notes. wells. what can i say.
yanzhu, you're such a thinker (: that you neglect your studies.
you can well be a great well known philosopher in a few years time.
so what was i exactly thinking about?
hmm..the complexity of life came into my head.
life so what is life really about?
to overcome difficulties and ordeals? to build up a good character?
to know about humanity? to experience love?
to love?
life as a human may be tough because the vicious cycle of studying, working, earning money, giving birth, having a family and stuff continues every single generation without fail.
even as 16 year-old little beans have to face such intangible element called stress.
just as students, we are busy enough with piling homeworks and uncountable tests to examine our capabilites. and peer pressure etc.
what more the adult society? first, getting your damn degree to be recognised by this society. second, finding a high paid job to have a steady life ahead. third, marriage pressure. fourth, family..

haha to be continued.. im tired

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAO LI!!!!
:DDD

i will always be your loyal faaaan!

i feel lost from the cyber world.
ohwells.
sunday night was really good.
talked to mommy and daddy about school.
now i've finally mustered up enough courage and opened up to my parents.

what can i say? monday and tuesday was rather eventful.
sec 1 registration at forum on monday!
much thanks to those sec3s who came and help :D
let me see..carina, cassandra, regina new, grace, jessie, jessling, sarah haha
im sorry if i missed out any.
the band ppl down at the forum got rather high i should say.
clashing of cymbols, playing of this 2 sounded drum, trumpets, little trumpet tht jessie was playing ahha.
the sec3s were rather enthusiastic i should say. ahha.this is a good sign isnt it.
piano with chia. IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I STEPPED INTO CHILTERN PARK!
missed the place and chia's house.
talked ot mrs chew about sch, piano, band, her work etc and intro us a very good eng teacher.
she's a really understanding mother and teacher ho ho ho!

tuesday..
was feeling rather apprehensive about sec1 auditions and interview.
but it turned out fine except the part when we got scolded the moment sia came
because she saw us eating at the old specs stand.. -.-
was super busy running up and down, ushering ppl to pamela, and teaching my new sec1s how to buzz and play.
i got 7 juniors la! BUT i think it's not exactly confirmed.
had a rather deep impression of these 2 girls called grace. yea both are graces.
hope they get into band and my section! i'll pray hard.
oh and this girl called iyn hui is not too bad either.
band was normal. but i thought we played rather well yesterday?
okay tht's my own personal thoughts. at least i can hear that we are improving.

PE was super duper fabulous! chose volley ball as my elective with cecilia, pamela, angeline, karen, wang kuo, mengtian and jiahang.
angelina la! tsk tsk she lou pok one haha.
she said im very strong! hohohoho :DDD
my arm is now white with many red dots haha.
aftermath of vigorous vball exercise huh.
i think today's been a wonderful day (: nothing special but just wonderful.
lots of laughing fits. laughing do make ppl happy. (:
alright
i've better go study geog. it won't be a nice start for the semester with a B3 or B4 for geog.

it's really a woman's nature to gossip :DDD
lunch was fabulous with jingwen, cassandra, grace, jessling and jessie.
i better start spending time with as many band ppl before i start regretting in a few more months time.

cca fair today. should i say it was smooth?
haa our band waited for hours to the last few classes to come.
reached sch at around 6.15.. so tired and sleepy..
ahaha but was happy and touched.
jingwen carina jessie jessling and cassandra came to help out to decorate the back of the band board, now both sides look equally fantastic! (:

i should really change the way i look at situations and stuff.
Being positive is the way.
i realise it's really not worth it getting all worried and depressed and scared about it, making myself stressed.
and from there, affecting my rate and efficiency of studying.
I should too learn how to forget bad and unpleasant events and comments.
i seem to remember them more vividly than pleasant things.
but sweet memorable stuff will definitely be kept deep in my heart, some where
warm and worth smiling at (:
from this instance onwards, i will stop being such a worrywart, worrying about stuffs
even before they come. i will keep positive and confident.

2 amaths test, one geog test, one bio test, one physics next week.
i will study hard.