WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I'VE SURVIVED YET ANOTHER WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK OF TEEEEEEEEEEEEEESTS!
i lovve the purple slackers and study peeps ( jingwen, enid, jiaying and simin!)
well, i guess i managed to survive weeks after weeks with your existance :D

my worst test was emaths! hhaha i was not in the mood to do maths at all and i was just scribbling numbers without going through my relay neurones, synapse. my motor neurone was on auto mode haha. (effects of a geeky bio students). Eh I THINK I'VE MENTIONED THIS IN MY PREVIOUS POST OR SOMETHING haha.
fridays are the best day of the week! purples slackers get to sit in our corner in the library to stone or study :D just a little intro about purple slackers. it comprises of me, debbo and prissy. why slackers? because we 3 are the slackest in our class wwho see tests as just a normal routine. We enjoy life and every moment although we have to study and sit for o levels. We are purple as we all wear purple coloured spectacles. wonderful huh :O
anothere reason why i love fridays is that it signifies the end of the pain imflicting and agonizing strings of tests. Im always in a " let-me-out-of-class!" mood on friday extended curriculum!!!!! and i will dash off to banddddddd!!!! Visiting band will always be my weekly routine to end off my last day of schoooool. yea talking about passion huh. i know i should go home to revise. But it just feel wrong and uncomfortable to break off all ties from my juniors and band =\ ahaha. NOSTALGIA IS A TERRIBLE EMOTION AND FEELING!!! i think i have to say this. i feel powerless and authority deficient when i go back. I 'VE PASSED ON MY BATON TO DEAREST REGINA NEW AND WEILING LEONG AND PHOON LIJIE :D i miss conducting sectionals and clapping rhythm and pulsee. i miss saying :" HEY PEOPLE KEEP QUIET!" i miss collecting consent forms ( haha though it made me really frustrated last time), i miss saying :" i can't play today" and start complaining to weiling. i realiseed being one of the heads and SL is not an easy time although it may all seem so glamorous. it was tough and i had a period of time when i wanted to just drop my posts and walk away. Being the head made me understand the point about SETTING A GOOD EXAMPLE and LEAD YOURSELF BEFORE LEADING OTHERS. I've been enlightened on the fact during my term of service, that for your fellow band mates to listen to you, you had to command thier respect first and be a role model. If i were to see someone above me not doing their job well and not carrying themselves theh way they should, i would not even give a damn about what she or he has to say about me. if i wanted my section to practise i had to have the discpline to practise. if i wanted my seection to come down for self prac, i had to set an example by doing so. Well, the example goes on and on. Being one above others, you should be able to sacrifice and do more than expected. OKAY IM GETTING A LITTLE TOO HAAHHA. SHALL JUST STOP HERE.

anyway just a little note to band people : Do your best during combine for rhapsody of hannukah. Although the competition trip is cancelled, and perhaps have lost your motivataion, you still have to perform your best and practise as hard (: and and dont let miss sia have any reason to scold you and your section mates. this will make band more enjoyable and wonderful for everyone. JIAYOU! and play well for national day and like what grace said, the UG will march nicely while the band will PLAY MUSICALLY AND PROFESSIONALLY WITH IMPACT!!!

ANYWAY i would like to thank esther, regina new, calista, chengmei, weiping, joannah and wwhoever paid for the cake for the slice of ice cream cake :DDDDDDDDD it was really tasty and it quenched my thirst and hunger =p!

I SHOULD BE STUDYING ):

haha i think the previous post was kinda hilarious and retarded..
ME = little ba zhang?? haha emo ba zhang!
Anyway, school was quite eventful today..erm for me :D
had emaths test on transformation and vectors which i didnt study the night before
and as a result, i totally screwed it up. Well, I think iam one who is not smart but needs vigorous studying and practising.. ) ; so sad..i want your brains ms aw jingwen! yupp so im expecting to get the most 20/55 for my tests..
SERVE ME RIGHT!

AND I FEEL SO SOO SOOOOO SOOOOOOOOOOOOO CHEATED BY THE HUMANITIES DEPARTMENT!! 0:
Once again, a chapter for the test tmrw is removed and unfortunately, I STUDIED THAT PARTICULAR CHAPTER! MUAHAHAH! im always that down in luck ) :
oh wells, the ultimate goal is still O levels! so yay i studied chapter 7 on cold war for O levels! -pats my know shoulders..OH and we did a chinese article reflection on the issue of our mother tongue..got quite worked up and wrote a really long extensive reflection which some how, shocked tanyongmeng..he was actually asking me why i wrote such a long piece. Shouldn't he be grateful and ddelighted that his student actually WRITES that long (: i'm rather pleased with that piece of work!!!

Talking about prelims english oral..hmmm pamela was super right about our examiner. She had a premonition that our examiner would be mrs maria sng, and i was praying hard not to be her. ( Not that i know her, but i've herad quite some negative feedback about her =\) well, she seems gregarious enough to be smiling all the time at me O: and i gave her my usaul retarded and toothy + gummy smile haha :D ..I SHOULD NEVER BE TOO NERVOUS!! I think i was really panicking this time compared to the mock we had with MISS jeya. OH HOW I LOVE HER! alright, so getting nervous gets you no where. i fumbled on some words..esp during conversation but i guess conversation need not be super flawless? its a CONVERSATION afterall. We're suppose to talk naturely about issues right? thinking on the more positive side, i think it was not too bad on the whole. my topic for convy was hmm.. " Is commemorating events like national day and racial harmony day important?" I was quite stumped by it. Never similar to this issue crossed my mind so i was crapping nonsense. i Do hope it nade sense to her..

Pris, Keat and I settled down in the canteen after that heart wrenching period in the oral room =\ We intended to study for our two rather major tests tmrw (namely geog and history) haha but sadly, we started talking our GIRLS' talk :D Once we turned on the machine, it's never ending..Well it really threw me back to the times i have spent in stnicks for past 3 years.. shall dedicate a long essay on my blog after grad night (:

so i guess, i'll have to STOP RIGHT HERE AND STUDY GEOG AND HISTORY!!! >:( anyway i've been doing rather horridly for history and geog.. -pouts!

Chasing Rainbows says (10:38 PM):
oh, you mean you had innocence in the first place?
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
ohmy im sorry little ba zhang, i hurt your poor soul!
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
of course
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
) :
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
ahaha
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
pls take care ba zhang
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
: D
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
its okay i will forgivce you
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
little ba zhang sounds so cute!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
omg
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
im like an angel flying in the sky
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
bringing happiness to every soul
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
( :
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
no you're a ba zhang floating in the ocean
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:39 PM):
-awwww
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
bringing happiness to the fishes
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
and bringing peace to qu yuan
Chasing Rainbows says (10:39 PM):
that's more er, wei3 da4
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:40 PM):
i gonna cope that and put it on my blog
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
COPE WHAT!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
omg pls dont embarrass me
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:40 PM):
too bad
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
omg pls pls
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
!!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
rah!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:40 PM):
stupid ba zhang


see how retarded weiling is, over msn? she is simply sprouting nonsense that...i can't exactly fathom.ahha I was thinking, i should be nice and polite and accomodating to play along with her.. retardedness ( ;

Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
HAHA preservatives = sulphur dioxide
Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
you're polluting the earth
Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
!!
Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
horrible ba zhang
Chasing Rainbows says (10:43 PM):
dont try to dominate the earth with your glutinous rice.
YANBOOO/ 爱我圣尼各拉 ( : says (10:43 PM):

right here's more! hahaha!

YAY WEILING I WIN!!!!!

I guess its tme i update on some stuff.
Today's track and field national finals and i screamed my larynx out of my trachea! haha i guess i was rather enthusiastic about this whole thing though i know out chances of getting top 2 was really really slim.
our track girls sure did the best ( : well, but kinda sad that we lost our positions we previously held so proudly. WE'LL FIGHT BACK! ;D

Many happenings in school have sure stirred up some strong emotions in me. I hope do this wave of instability would tide over as soon as the monthly thing is gone.Maybe that's the reason why i have been so hot tempered, irritable and easily frustrated.
Just do not understand some people's mentality which is a thorn in my flesh. sorry, but i do know that i have no say in how someone thinks. It is just so amazing how one can be so selfish, lifeless, dead, boring, unenthusiastic, negative, living so happily in their own puny world with just themselves. Being in this class for near 2 years have truly been an enriching experience, an eye-opener, a great and priceless gift bestowed on me on learning some life lessons and enlightenment. Sometimes, i think i've lost the happy jovial crazy and carefree yanzhu that was existing in 2004 and 2005. Today, even though when people seems to say that im crazy and everything, it never fails to throw me into a deep meandering stubborn river of thoughts. It dawned upon me that..well, i've changed alot alot alot.



I SHOULD GO BACK TO STUDYING! > :( IT'S NEVER GOOD TO BE EMOTIONAL!!!!
ANYWAY IM LOSING MY VOICE SO SEXY VOICED ZHU IS ON HER WAY DOWN TO SINGAPORE..

Live earth concert can be so contradictory. They may be using this whole wide concert to raise the awareness on environmnetal protection and saving mother earth. However, ironically, the lightings and sound effects required for this concert to be successful are consuming so much electricity. Talking about conserving? BULL SHIT.

Anyway, monday started off fine but ended on a horrid excruciating fall down the stairs to the canteen. ITt happened within such split second that..well.. nvm. I can vividly remember the whole experience.I called out to rachel and i supposed i was kinda blind, missed a step on the stairway. I lost my footage, tripped and fell on my ankle. MIND YOU. I FELL ON MY ANKLE. i could practically feel my ankle twist and the whole weight of my body landed on it, worsening the immense pain and sore that was exuding out from the ankle. I laid on the floor at the bottom of the stairs and clutched my ankle real hard ) : I could feel my nerves pounding super vigorously there, and it was as if thousand and thousands of needles were trying to pierce through my bone.. i wanted to cry but i didnt :D Talking about being brave and skinny ( : (well sorry no link). My ankle was conflagrant. I was quite lucky to have ng and liying there if not it will be so embarrassing.. anyway lilin and her friend saw me fall..so embarrassing =\

My akle started to swell quite badly when i remove my socks and shoes. I think my shoe has suppressed the wound for quite some time before i reached home. and the pain started to mount. i had a hard time walking around my house and yesterday was the first time, i found my house really big. >:( Walking can be such a chore for a crippled..anyway for your information, if you ever sprained or twisted your limds, never let it have any contact with water..yea i dont know how to say it in english cause its a chinese term haha.

i just came back from a chinese massage physician and it is still aching badly and whenever i walk, my bones seems to be out of place. There would be a sharp intense pain around the joint.. The chinese physician seems to know qingong. he was trying to remove the moisture that has seeped through my skin into my wound. Oh okay if you have contact with water, you will develop shi qi.. (wet air) ahha. He twisted my ankle in all directions and pulled my ankle. i wanted to scream out ahah and i was squirming on the bed. horrible experience. Now, my ankle is bandaged up.

HOPE IT RECOVERS ASAP!

I'm sick of trying so hard to keep it alive.
I can see it struggling to give up but the foolish me continues hanging tenaciously onto it.
i feel worthless, insulted. I'm not anything. i hate myself. I'm always the one who seems to realise things ain't going well and get myself all depressed and crestfallen. why is this so? It is not the first time that I've experienced this. It is as though you people don't even bother about it. And that what has happened before is of no value to you anymore. I seriously do not understand how you people could simply thrash it aside and walk away. So i guess i am really non-existent heh? I hate everything that is revolving around me, causing me so much misery. To think i was still so positive about it.

I SHALL JUST ISOLATE MYSELF FROM EVERYONE AND SPEND THE TIME I USE TO GET MYSELF ALL EMOTIONAL TO STUDY AND STUDY. I WILL GET STRAIGHT As AND LEAVE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING BEHIND TO FIND SOMEWHERE WHERE I WOULD BE FREE FROM SUCH PEOPLE. SCRAM AND GET LOST! D: PLEASE LEARN TO TREASURE THINGS ALRIGHT. THANKS FOR MAKING SCHOOOL SO TERRIBLE AND UNBEARABLE. AFTER TODAY, I WILL FIND WAYS OT MAKE MYSELF HAPPY WITHOUT YOU PEOPLE. AND I WILL DEFNITELY BE MUCH MUCH MUCH HAPPIER AND STRONGER THAN NOW. I WILL SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU. BE SURE OF THAT

icantbebotheredtocaresomuchanymore.

I SHALL TAKE A FEW MINUTES OFF TO WRITE A LITTLE!
After this, i shall bathe and study CHINAAA! and the singapore's economic policies
(i dont know why but the ss textbook seems to make singapore's policy sound so far sighted, well planned, effective and useful..well,PROPAGANDA)

alright! i've survived, 1 emaths test, 1 amaths, and 1 chem!
and tmrw will be killers day! social studies and history. Im so glad the teachers cut down on the chaps :D So i believe i can slack a little =O!
HARRY POTTER'S COMING UP! i think i will feel quite bad after watching it =\ cause i wasted 2 hours plus, near 3 hours for travelling on a movie! : ( horrid zhu.
anyway, i think im going genting with the band! and korea/hongkong/taiwan with my friends and maybe shanghai with jingwen and ginger..! but that will have to wait till after Os


argh! okay weiling tan ask me to go study so i shall
STUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!